i'm screaming out, somebody listen.

today was meh/good.

i really enjoyed art. i basically sat and talked to nailiah, and took pictures of rusty things and shells.

then we stayed in college for lunch. elaine was determind i wouldn't get fed. when the other lady sevred me, she asked elaine how much it would be, and she took 30p off, cause she fancied me. well, cause elaine is a bitch and pinches money, or something. just everything has to be too much.

then some lad came up to me and said "hi" and i looked up, didn't recognize him. he stood silently for a few seconds, and i was going to say "do i know you?" but then i noticed he was wearing a t-shirt with chlamidia written across it. he was waffling on about something, and nailiah burst out laughing. it was so awkward.
he came to talk to us again when liv, alice, and laurie were there too. he handed everyone a card, and laurie was like "no thanks, i don't want one"
and when he walked away, he stook his tounge out at laurie.

oh, and on the way to next lesson, all these NHS people were in handing out free things. i got a nail file, couisidently, i had cut my nails this morning and had no time to file them. lucky or what. i sat in film, and davey tried to make conversation with me and said "are you trying to make your nails shiny, emma?"
then i didn't even notice what he said, and explained how a nail file works. he then talked to someone else. thats what he always does, he is terrible at showing intrest in things i talk about.

we're watching that mexican film again. it's gotten weird now, although i am enjoying it very much. there's more than one story to it, and some of them are connecting. i think they're going to connect even more later on. cool.

i spent my free lesson searching youtube about this closet gay who killed himsef, and there was a video of him dead, and it says "this is my brothers account, he is the one lying dead in this video" or something like that. it was creepy.

then photography, i actually did some work. but leyla left early upset with me cause i wouldn't go in the dark room with her. oh yeah, everyone else left too basically. it was silent.

when i got home, my dad said i could have all his old empire magazines, so since i got in i've been reading them. the oldest i found so far was feburary 1992, which is a month older than me. it had stuff about silence of the lambs in. oh yeah, i found this lushious edward scissorhands article.
and i found a free ticket to see american pie. and the cinema for newcastle was warner brothers. it's weird to think, thats now a university. christ.
there was a thing about jim carey too, saying stuff about the mask.

oh, and when i was reading them, my dad came in and handed me a gigantic pile of postcards. there's got to be over 100 in there.



AND CHRIST. edward woodward died today, i was so shocked to hear.
i watched the wickerman god knows how many times in AS film.
at least the pagens didn't burn him alive.