today was really good.

basically slept in too long. too long = til 3pm.

i wasted my day working out plans.

then at 9pm saw 'nowhere boy'
it's basically about john lennon when he was a teenager. i thought it was brilliant.
if you know who he is, it is a change to see him close enough to what he was like at that age, because it's a complete contrast to what you expect.
and i think everyone performs so well in it.



can't be bothered to blog today, but it's part of my routine so i will.

today was good.

i met lauren in town, and spent a few hours there shopping. even though all i got was a bottle of coke.
but we swapped christmas presents. i got a box of chocolates, lots of bow hair clips, earrings and a brooch.
all i got her was shampoo and conditioner. i was supposed to buy her chocolate too, but i just didn't remember, so i felt bad for that.
we also bumped into one of the aimees, and we were standing talking to her in HMV for a bit. it was good.

when i got home, i did some of my essay on the film american beauty. i've passed the word limit, but i haven't mentioned the last part i need to.

nothing much else happened to be honest.

i found out the rev from a7x died. aimee loved him, so i'm feeling sorry for her right now.

today was alright.

i watched my disease is punishment dvd. twice.

i was invited to town for a drink, and i went.
leyla, nadine, sam, warren and leanne were there.
i stole a gallows poster, and it's on my wall now. yeah i don't really know what to say, the night was quite awkward.

today was fine.

we had the secret santa get together thing, whatever you call it. i spent most of the time not speaking, thinking, why didn't i bring my phone D:
but i got disease is punishment: the network, which is their live dvd, which happens to be directed by john roecker.
and i also got a set with 2 nose rings and a nose stud, and some malteasers.

then i had a christmas party with the other side of my family. it was nice practically being with both sides of my family in one day, in a different way than when it is when it's someone in our homes birthday, or party or whatever.
i felt so mature. i was sitting talking to the adults for once, rather than sitting with connor and megan on youtube or santa bot.
and i was there til midnight. it was weird.

oh and i wanted to tell liv this cause we've had a conversation about it before, but she's not up this late.
my sister said i looked like noel fielding.
how does she even know him? she never told me, but it made me laugh.

i didn't really do anything today other than watch 2 films.

the first one was 'SLC punk'. i had watched the first half of it a few years ago, but then i never got around to watching the rest. i also forgot the name of it in time.
basically it's about these 2 punk kids who've just finished school. it's almost a documentry of this fictional punk scene, which seems almost dead.
i very much enjoyed it. the ending was nothing how i thought it would be, but i suppose thats one of the reasons why i enjoyed it. i never expected it to be shocking aswell, i guess the realism in it.
oh, and the soundtrack was obviously great considering i liked all the bands. and the opening credits were album covers.



the second film was 'everything is illuminated', which was a true story taken from a novel. a jewish guy who collected things to do with his family was given a photograph of his grandad by her grandma. apparently the person on the photograph with his grandad saved him from being killed by the nazis in world war 2. since the grandma died not long after handing over the photograph, he decides to find this woman. the story is basically about his journey to ukraine alongside a man and his grandad.
i thought it was a very inspiring film. the quotes used throughout it were actually beautiful, and gave me intetions on buying the novel. i liked the fact they added subtle comedy elements in places to balance it as a positive and negative narrative. and yes, i do admit i cried a little.

happy holidays you bastards.

today was an excellent christmas day!

i was the last to wake up, which was a first.
we opened our presents, then chris came, and everyone pretty much seperated.
i didn't really like my clothes. and i put them on just to show my mam. i looked hideous. urgh. the top is okay, although it shows how fat i am. and the skinny trousers look horrible when they're off, and just lowers my self-esteem thinking about what they really look like. whatever.

we went for a christmas meal at the fox hunters reseraunt/pub.
my meal was;
starter: brocili and cheese soup, main: turky and gammon with veg and yorkshire pudding. i gave the gammon away. desert: yule log.
it was nice, considering i didn't like anything on the menu at first.

when i got home i set up my sexy laptop. and i am very pleased with it. SOUND! SPACE! PERFECT SET-UP!
i've spent idk how long speaking to nadine on skype and webcam.
did i mention it has a built in webcam. oh babay.

what i got for christmas

laptop!
sewing machine, with 3 boxes of stuff to go with it,
urban decay make-up,
a soap and glory set,
CK one summer perfume,
a desigual handbag,
underwear,
dry hair shampoo with a hint of black hairdye in,
trevor sorbie shampoo and hairspray,
a professional photoshoot/makeover,
DKNY perfume,
shilpa shetty perfume,
photo album,
postcard set,
mini bottle of champagne,
a pair of trousers and a top to go with them,
socks,
tights,
5 the cure albums, all 2 disc special edition versions,
blue sunshine - the glove (special edition album)
disintegration - the cure (album),
the 13th - the cure single,
nirvana unplugged in new york (album),

those were from mam/dad/sophie
now everyone else:

hairbrush set and malteasers from chris,
an unofficial blink-182 3 disc set with 3 free postcards and a poster from joe,
auntie mary - £20,
auntie maria and uncle jimmy - £20,
auntie sheila and uncle remo - £15
and how i met your mother from laurie.

also expecting a secret santa present, and a present from lauren.
i'm pleased with maiiii shite this year (:

christmas eve.

today has been enjoyable.

considering i tend to hate christmas eve, i think this ones been the best one in a while.
me and sophie were up til about 2am watching scrubs. i was so tired when i woke up.

i had a weird dream and i want to share it.
there was those flying swings like they had in metroland, but they had balloons you sat in instead. and there was this guitar hero dragon one, and it deflated. everyone had to evacuate the ride. at the side of the ride there were weird sort of ninjas killing bulls with massive knives.
then when i went to the place where everyone was evacuated, lauren and leyla were fighting. i think it was because lauren wouldn't look after leylas earrings or something?
anyway, when i was typing that, i realised it was way better having than they way i typed it out.

me and joe finally went to that sweet shop. i got some choc-lick. it was lovleyyyy.
i also spent time in wallsend looking for last minute presents.

so yeah. the rest of the day i've been watching films and wrapping presents.
i'm waiting for four weddings and a funeral now. i haven't seen it before, so i'm excited.

lady grinning soul

today was rather good!

i was woken up by the carpet man, urgh. i hate strangers in my house. i left my phone upstairs aswell. it had to be when he was doing the carpet on the stairs, didn't it?
so i put on james and the giant peach (:
last time i watched that was in primary school! oh my god. i noticed jack skellington was in it. oh yeah tim burton produced it.

then i went to joes. we went to town for final presents for christmas. i did well i think. we then went to lidl cause joe wanted turkish delights. then back to his reading big cheese. yes, it isn't dead anymore, although why the fuck have they started to mention HIM and BMTH? it's supposed to be a punk magazine. well i guess it's not exactly a punk 'zine that they sell at beatdown for 80p, but it's not like they're going to mention the likes of NOFX and misfits..

now joe is in my room VERY hyper.

there's no ring on the phone anymore.

today was goooooood.

went to nadines. she had slept in. her being tired is like her being drunk.
we bought foooood. and a bottle of cider. when i hoisted up my carrier bag, i the cider fell out and smashed. oh my god. that was so scary. a bus drove over it too.

um yeah. we ate, went on omegle, ordered a pizza, watched the inbetweeners, and drank champagne. it was fun.
just before my dad came to get me, nadine went to buy 3 bottles of wine for me, legally. she didn't get ID'ed. it's so weird, it's like they just let anyone get it. bahaaaa.

that was pretty much my full day. i wish i had lemonade to go with my wine. looks like it's wine by itself.

i am buzzing.

today was boring.

i woke up, and i had to be at the dentist in 20 minutes.
i looked a scruff. i wore my blink hoodie, my jeggings, and my new ugg boots, with my hair scraped back. i felt like my sister a few years ago, minus the blink hoodie.
so yeah it was awkard at the dentist. i have to get 2 fillings and a tooth taken out.
and she filed my tooth down. with one of those things that look like an electric nail file. on and she also prodded my gum and it bled. fuckkkk.

when i had to make a new appointment for next year, i asked for tuesday 5th, and the woman said "4.30 okay?" and i said "yeah" and she made it for the fucking monday 4th. i finish at 4.30 on monday. thats my first day back aswell.
¬__¬

when i got home i tidied my room. found my nose ring. oh. my. god.
that made me so happy.
i had green day international supervideos on in the background. and the video for geek stink breath came on and i was like UGHHH.

oh well nothing much.

oh but i had an amazing omegle conversation.

blasphemy, want some more? mother mary the virgin whore.

i didn't blog yesterday so i will now (:
it was alright.

i met liv and leyla to go to asda for nadines presents.

i got home giving me 2 hours to get ready. oh, i was bloody locked out. my dad was fast asleep cause he started at 2am. i phoned too many times, threw rocks off the window. it was so annoying. i decided to stay in the backyard and wait for my mam. by the time she got home, there was a dry patch on the floor from where i was standing. the rest was covered thick in snow. i was drenched.
but my mam bought me some ugg boots to wear in the cold, and they're nice and warm. i don't care if they look horrible, i care about comfort in these situations.

we then went to nadines. she was shocked how many presents we got her. it was heartwarming. i ended up drinking a whole bottle of wine to myself. whoops. i feel bad for it. but we played roxanne, slightly.
we couldn't get a taxi, so we went to the bus stop. it took the piss like, the bus didn't turn up on time and we ended up getting another.

when we got to town leyla and liv ran off to the toilet, and nadine and elliot wouldn't let me go. i ran straight to gotham toilets, but no one followed me in and i was paranoid the door would open on me. oh well. oh and close to me by the cure was on. not as exciting as lovecats, but whatever.
liv bought me a test tube shot. she was drinking like mad her like.
oh and there was some bloke who came up to me and said "are you a student? what do you study?" and i go "film art photography" and he went "ooh i have a digital camera back at my house" and i don't recall the rest of the conversation, but he walked away cause of liv laughing at him.
and i remember talking to someone in a wednesday 13 top going "i saw him. i like nofx"

we then went to the dog and parrot. liv was ill, i remember her lying on the sofa and everyone sitting away from her.
OH and i didn't mention this to anyone.
i went to get liv water, and the woman said "there's only tonic water" and i said "cider?" and she said "no, tonic water"
LMAO.

oh and my mam phoned and said "emma, you're drunk, you sent a message to dad that made no sense"
funny, that text was sent at 4 o clock, when i was freezing outside the house. yakkkkki.

we waited at central station for a lift home. liv was spewing everywhere, and leyla was shouting at her loads. i felt bad. there were strangers going "she okay? get her water or something!"
leyla ended up buying her tea.
the car ride was so awkward. i held livs hand, and my other hand was holding the sick bucket. she looked like she was asleep, then when we got to her house, she said "THANKS FOR THE LIFT, BYE LEYLA" and handed me the sick bucket, ahaa.

and my mam made me a pizza when i got home, which ended up making the microwave set alight inside. fun times.

today was good.

town with liv and leyla. all i got was cards. i should have spent more on presents than feeding myself, but whatever. i didn't have any breakfast.
it then took us ages to get to alices house. it was so fussy..

when we got there, we watched the mighty boosh again. we hardly paid attention cause we were all pretty hyper, apart from louise.
we had the wii on, then party tunes from when we were kids. lush
i guess it from the vodka and coke i had. liv was drinking everything mixed together, and we couldn't tell if she was drunk or faking it. it was funny either way.

it took ages to get home.
and when i actually got home, beetlejuice was on tv and i was like gvsgvqruilguiq5rbliguvqbligvublguiviulgvlgivurqlirgvuirgvulruivrguirgqlrlqk (L)
but i ended up watching how i met your mother. mhmm.

I HATE THE SNOW.

today was alright.

i actually did work in photography, other than writing.

then i discovered EMA gave me my money that was missing for 3 weeks!

and at lunch we exchanged secret santa gifts. laurie got me how i met your mother season 1, just what i asked for (:
i'm watching it now.

art was pretty boring, i barely spoke to nailah, i think she was scared of me.
i printed off more serial killers letters.

film was horrible.
when we walked in, i sat down, and davey was singing, and he looked at me and said "you're totally up for kareoke!" it wasn't even funny. i'm like the shyest person in the class, you don't be sarcastic about these things..
then we had to do a quiz thing. and leyla took advantage of her love of asians by making our questions answers only she would know. when davey actually asked them, the annoying people in out class who argue with liv and leyla assumed complained at every question. even my question ("which 1960s actress was killed by charles mansons family?"), which was obviously mine, they were like "i bet it was some asain!"
we ended up getting their answer sheet. for each answer they didn't know from our set of questions, they wrote "chink" and barely scribbled it out.
it was horrible. it was obviously a bash at something leyla likes, and anyone who knows leyla knows her strong intrest in the asian culture. it really pissed me off, probably more than leyla realises. i fucking hate racism, and i hate bullying aswell. i don't see how it's acceptable, especially in a college class.
eurgh.
well, davey was informed about this, so hopefully this won't be kept quiet. stuff like this can't be got away with.
i feel like i have so much so say about this, but i feel like i can't express it enough. it's really bothered me how people find it acceptable, or funny to act this way to impress other people.

then me and leyla went to town after that.

giygvhk;igugfv!!

get me that for christmas.
john with blonde hair, whaaaat.

no way.

today was good.

i did practically no work in photography. toby came up to me at the end and said something like "so how much work did you do today emma? any?" and i said "a bit, i wanted some help but i never got any" then he said "you didn't ask me for help!"
and i was like "i know, i asked leyla for help cause you were busy..."
oh god, thinking back, i never even remembered the lesson before.

tutorial was confusing. peter wasn't in. alan wasn't in. joelle wasn't in. who the hell was i supposed to go to for my mark?! eurgh my college is shite.

i decided to go to town. i got money from my savings account. and i felt good having money.
i got some good presents! i am more excited to give my presents this year than to see mine. considering i wanted green day tickets and a laptop, i understand thats impossible.
i'm giving leyla hers tomorrow, HAHA. she'll be a bit annoyed.

we've got a bleeder!

today was okay, just shitty.

liv was staying for lunch and i never bring money in for lunch. since my card only had 15p on, home it was.

my coat had no hood on, and i had no hat. i basically got soaked. i felt like i got frost bite in places, it was horrible. i used to love icey rain. especially in year 10. it was comforting then, when i had shelter at least.

there's something about mary is on tv.
i love ben stiller.

broken glass inside my head. bleeding down these thoughts of anguish. mass confusion.

today was shite.

i was so close to missing the bus. i forgot my bus pass had ran out and used it to get on the bus without thinking.

art was good. well, the start was bad. but i'm onto something with my project. i'm linking in serial killers. jack the ripper, jon bennet ramsey's kidnappers, myra hindley, and obviously charles manson and his family.
i know it sounds confusing, but you have to read who i've researched to understand.
the most enjoyable art project i've ever done.
oh, and emma told me that i should do a foundation art degree. she said that i'd do very well in it. it made me feel a bit better about my work.

i hate getting worked up about things and i'm not going to mention the rest of today.



and, sorry leyla for ditching you on the bus. i'd like to forget about it.

blink-182

my favourite band.
my 182nd post is for them.

today was okay.

basically went christmas shopping with my mam. got quite alot.
then i went to asda for a new cardigan.

when i got home i watched elf!
oh my god, i remembered seeing it at the cinema. that was probably the last time i saw it actually.

apparently i have to be careful what i post on here. whatever. i'm going to continue using this whenever i feel the need to. which is practially everyday i can.
if you don't like what i write, then don't fucking read it.

i'm so disapointed this is a short blog, but i have nothing else to share today :/

today was better.

well, last night, sophie stumbled into my room after i just got to sleep, sat on me, and said "EMMA, I'VE DONE SOMETHING REALLY STUPID" i don't remember her leaving, i was just remember repeating "get out man!"
she did the exact same thing this morning, except less drunk, definatly not sober. she picked up my nearly empty bottle of wine and said "never having any of these again, HAHA!"
she said she only had 2 bottles of rose, she didn't buy them and didn't even want them.

i got invited to bake with leyla and liv. we went to asda to get the ingredients. i felt like dying in asda, it was too hot. i borrowed my sisters ugg boots, which i didn't enjoy much. they are sheep fur, and it was a disgusting thought, but they were comfortable, and actually went with my outfit. they were the closest thing to my faux ugg's which are tons better :/

long story short, i got muffin mix, liv got ingredients for ginger bread men?, and leyla got ingredients for peanut butter cookies.
they basically all ended up different to expected.
we ate them whilst watching the x-factor finale. funny.

chris walked into my room like half an hour ago and handed me a dvd called 'ferris bueller's day off', so i'm going to watch that now. i don't know why i left it so late, but my body clock officially fucked up yesterday anyway.
and i'll also mention, when i typed chirs there, i originally typed christ, and realised that i blasheme too much.

bad emma.

today was meh.

in film we watched 'it's a wonderful life'. i enjoyed it so far. apparently it's going to be sadder. i'm looking forward to seeing the rest.

tutorial was pointless.

when i got home, sophie wanted to go for a pub lunch cause she had a voucher. she was going to show me, but she insisted on showing all of her friends photos she was tagged in, or whatever. i was starvinggg. the voucher was expired ¬__¬
we then went to the forum. i couldn't be bothered.

i don't even want to talk about what else happened today
:/

don't pat yourself on the back you might break your spine.

today was okay.

me and leyla were very hyper in photography. when toby was helping me do my target sheet, we were laughing for no reason. then after we got over laughing, toby started to laugh and he said "i just noticed you had a chlamydia pen!"
i basically did nothing. well, i drew pictures of leyla, and she drew some of me. they're good.
my workbook is almost done, i'm quite pleased. i don't intend to be that hyper in a lesson anymore!

for lunch i had a mccdonalds happy meal. i got another star wars light saber, which is still in my college bag. i don't know what to do with it. maybe keep it for years in its original packing, and sell it on ebay, haha.

then art. i missed nailiah. her space was replaced with the guillitine and i was cutting up my work all lesson. yawn. at least i don't have it tomorrow.

my free involved leyla looking at download festival line-up rumours, and old line-ups. i hope blink-182 actually go, i know it was a lie on wikipedia, but still ;)

then film. we have an essay for the holidays, and i always get stuck how to start them. i also got my feedback sheet for my coursework, and it said that i should have a balanced opinion. how could i ever find flaws in edward scissorhands?
thats kind of funny.

then nailiah was in. she said she'd went home and went to bed. how the fuck does she get away with it?! oh well, me and liv were scaring her on the way home.

i have totally been distracted by scrubs. it's JD's last one. byeeee.

empty with you.

i miss them, kind of.

when i first watched it, i remembered, on the memory stick that someone stole off me had conversations on kyte with me and dan. well, i think some of them are on myspace, but he actually spoke to me alot on there. the best time was when i told dan he had hayfever.
NO actually, it was when i asked him about his tail in his hair. and he made a video on youtube about it (L)
if i hadn't have said anything, there wouldn't have been a video. true factz.

bloodstains, speed kills, fast cars, cheap thrills.

today was mehhhhhh.

i didn't even try to get the normal bus to college, i left the house too late.

i was soo thirsty, so as soon i was off the bus, i went to the co-op for a drink. my card was declined twice, so i didn't bother. i went to a cash point. i could only withdraw 15p. FML. what the fuck am i supposed to do for christmas?! well, at least i've got sophies and leylas present sorted, but theres some friends who i haven't even got anything for. i feel like shit for leaving it this late.
i bumped into leyla and she gave me money. i HATE borrowing money, but i neeeeeeded a drink.

photography was okay. my dad phoned me through it a few times. one time i was standing at the stairways and people went past, and i was thinking, maybe i should've went outside. it shouldn't even be busy during lessons!
oh but the funniest thing was leyla searching 'alice' on tumblr. toby came in to see what was happening, and when she looked at the search results, a girl with her hands down her pants came on. everyone just laughed, and laurie was like "yeah the people on here are disturbing"
and he was standing there for ages grinning, hahaaa.

then enrichment, i looked out for joelle. but it turned out i had louise, my old learning mentor who my councellor forced me to have. she let everyone else in my form get away with skiving, but she insisted i had to do work. i didn't even have any work to do! she wanted me to log on, and i insisted, i just need space to do my photography book. she opened up a classroom for myself. and i didn't even have a glue stick, and ended up telling her there was nothing i could do.
louise always makes me feel like i'm a retard. i miss when i was actually considered smart. now i'm just average. ugh.

when i got home, i put on south park. it has to be the best cartoon.

today was gooooood.

i missed millions of buses, so i decided to do something unpredictable, and get the 40, then the 306. i was only a a few minutes late, but that didn't even matter.
i found out why i haven't got 2 weeks worth of EMA, and thats cause the teacher who i'm supposed to get thinks i am louise, and has been marking me in, and louise (me) absent
¬___¬

so yeah. after that i went home, then pretty much straight to meet nadine.
we went to tesco, then hers, then belle and herb. which is a cafe place thingy. we got milkshakes, instead of wine! they were lovely!
we then went for a pizza. oh god, this little boy in the place was keep kissing the statue of the man who was at the front of the shop. it was just too funny.
and we ate that whilst we tried to watch live freaky! die freaky!. it kept going off though so we just watched stuff on youtube instead. that basically is what i did today mostly, i don't think i've typed alot, but i really have enjoyed today.

on the way home, the bus terminated at walker D:
it was bloody late too. and when i was waiting for another bus, one pulled up. i looked in and the only passenger was a lad who must've been around my age. i never saw him get off the bus, but the bus driver did stay on the bus, with all the lights off. it was scary. when i got picked up the bus was still there.
:|

piggy in the mirror.

today was funny. i've been rather hyper all day.

the journey to college was hilarious, apart from the fact i felt so stupid giving the woman the bus money. and i spent ages counting it, as did she, even though i knew the correct amount was there. she hated me.
but me and liv were laughing about something, and it's totally lost my mind. i asked liv, but she reminded me of other things we were laughing at.
like the man who got on the bus when me and liv got off. he walked backwards to get to the doors, it was stupid.
and we were comparing beth ditto, to someone from college. if you go to my college, i'm not surprised if you know who i mean...

triple art wasn't that bad actually. it meant i could do more patient things, like the silly thing i've decided to do out of boredem. sticking teeny tiny bits of masking tape over a postcard sized piece of card.
oh and i made a really messy picture using pallette knives and stuff. it looks like a stoners hallutionation right now. i'm not surprised if my class think i'm a druggie anyway.

most of lunch was spent with nailiah looking for liv, alice and laurie. but then louise came and sat with us just as we were going, the nikki joined, then helene and dale. they were all talking about the whole joy/muky/ross thing.
it happened last week, i thought it would be over now? oh well, not that i was involved anyway..

film was the end of american beauty. i very much enjoyed it.

then, i spent my free block with leyla. we were looking through all her old photobucket pictures. i remembered some of them when we were only online friends, and it was weeeeeeird.

photography was good. although leyla and laurie throwing things meant i got paper on me. leyla threw notes in louises hair, and then a pen got tangled in aswell. it was really awkward, and i had to swap seats with leyla.

walking into sheilds was funny. leyla was discussing her current love intrest, popeye.
oh, and we were talking about him and he totally heard us. when i realised he was there, i forgot what i had said, but i instantly felt bad. leyla was just like ;)

there was other things i intended to mention, but i've been typing this for ages, and msn is distracting me too much. sorry people who actually care. i will have a better blog tomorrow, i think :)

i was feeling pretty miserable, til i saw these pictures.
exciting.

if you show me heaven, i'll meet you there.

today was boring.

ummm. nothing happened really.
i watched the corrination street repeat. i must say, my childhood obsession with it could very well come back. even though it's not the same, my eyes wouldn't part from the television when it was on today. it'll probably just be a sunday thing.

i also watched some MTV award show of some sort, sophie told me to watch it with her cause green day were on. except when i watched it, nothing of intrest was on.

i'm a bit gutted that no one has text me. not that i get many texts in a day, but even one would've made my day better. i haven't had a day textless since i was creditless?
yeah today i discovered how important it is to do it in a day.

not looking forward to tomorrow. my first ever triple lesson of art.

today was mixed, mostly good though.

i had to go to some memorial thing for my grandma.
it was sad. it was orginized by the funeral service that we used, and they listed everyone who died from october 2008 - now.
there were literally hundreds of names. they must have read out 200 til they got to my grandmas.
afterwards i went to my aunties. i wish i stayed longer.

then me and my mam met auntie teresa and joe in town. i obviously ended up niking off to beatdown records with joe.
then when i got home i sat in the loft for the first time in forever.
and joe rang asking to stay over, and brought a KFC.

so yeah, we watched tenacious d, and a ton of family guy whilst on the games for save the planet on facebook. fun times indeeeedo.

apparently from tomorrow stacy is going to be homeless. and i'm scared. i probably shouldn't be sharing it on the intertnet considering i was the only person in high school who actually gave her a chance..
i hope it isn't true.

i didn't ask for sunshine and i got world war three

today was fun.

in film we watched american beauty. i saw the begining once, and always intended to watch the rest. i suppose i forgot. but on IMDB, it comes up as a similar movie as a few of my favourites (:
its probably my favourite movie shown in the class this year (apart from clockwork orange, obviously)
and i did notice some things that family guy made jokes out of, and i was like "o i get it nowwww!"

at lunch me, alice and laurie went to develop the film from the photoshoot yesterday.
it was my first ever time developing the negatives and i was very worried leading up to it. in the dark i broke the scissors and ended up making alice do all the work.

since i no longer get film, me, nailiah and leyla went into north shields. we were hyper, and i was repeating things nailiah was saying on the phone to someone in her family. and we made her translate things.
then we ditched nailiah and went to town.
i was gutted to find out, i didn't get my EMA, meaning, no new nose ring, or whatever. i had an idea for a present for my dad. i spent a grand total of 20p in town, on lilt that cost 25p.
JFOIFYUVOUERVOGVYUO i hate not having a job and shitty EMA service.

and i have spent too long on pet society on facebook. FUCK. there's an alice in wonderland theme, and i spent all of my money buying the stuff til i couldn't afford anymore. and i had 20,000+ coins.
at least my house on it is sexy ;)

i forgot to mention, yesterday i got 2 postcards. one being a unicorn one. yess.

annddd, i just had rocky road biscuits for the first time in forever.
now going to have some wine (:

i used to be so cool.

in one of my diaries, i written a full page about elvis presley, like 3 short stories, lots of my dresses/outfits i designed (including one hideous slutty one called 'night clubber' oh fuck it's hilarious) and a drawing of britney spears thaat looks like a man.
i might bring them into college and scan them or something. right now, i miss being a child. if i could change anything, i'd write and draw more, then look back on it now and post it on here.

okay, i lied, this is the day before my previous diary entry, somehow i missed the sunday out.

28.3.99 ON SUNDAY
I get up at 8oclock. I have my coco pops. for brecst breakfast. I brush my teeth. I put my clovs on. I put my shoes on. And coma my hair and go to church. afte church i go to grame + grandads house. afte the worck I go home and heve my dinndinn dina and we all went to ika. after ikea we went home. in the car I seen saw a van whith BIG wheels. at home me and sophie was played wayl mam and dad watching tv. We looked in the book for ecores for her egg for my egg. mayne mine is go to be a princesse I went for a bath. I had oo omitt to eat. I whoosh tv whith mame. sophie and dad were doing the egg and sophie was a long time on her egg. BY EMMA.

also, my grandma ticked it, and wrote "good" and i added "girl" next to it.

oldest diary entry i could find.

(idea came from leylas blog. this was written when i was 7 in a diary my grandma wanted me to write to check on my behaviour. and i'm not correcting my spellings or anything by the way)

29.3.99 ON MONDAY

On Monday i got out of bed and had a wash. I brished my Theet and I Put my clovse on. I Put my sKocs on and combd my hair. I put my coat on and my shoes on and went to school. Wen the bell ragn I went in to school. I put my coat on my peg and took my shoe down and sat on put my indoor shoe on. The teatae came in the classroon and the teacha told to clos theyr moths and be cwagt. the teacha did the rgetis she got a book lit to do. miss bren came to help the girls and boys. Miss bren helped theym whith th book lit. When i was Finished, i rede a book Whith Jade athta we rade it I drow a pictha of the pupts and a mshen with the pupts.

++++

today was better.
well, i guess i may have over reacted yesterday. i think i've kind of forgot what it felt like.

well i almost missed the bus, and my mam dropped me off at the bus stop. this morning felt like i was going back to high school again. i was so sick i didn't touch my breakfast, and barely drank my tea.

photography was funny.
me and leyla went early. we knew today was going to be an amazing lesson :)
when we sat down, alice and louise came in. leyla was laughing at louise basically sitting behind alice.
i bought some negatives and borrowed a film camera from the tobsmiester.
our old media classroom was basically turned into a studio. oh lorrrdie. i'll try and post my pictures on here some how.

i enjoyed art slightly. i felt happy doing it. i mean it wasn't an amazing lesson, but i felt like i finally deserved my role as an art student. eeeh i sound cheesey, i can't think of how to describe it properly.

in my free, we took even more photos in the new studio. for the first time, it doesn't feel like such a task to walk in that classroom. although i must admit, media lessons with liv, alex, ellen, laura and kerry were actually one of the reasons that made me love college. i did enjoy annoying ken too. what a silly bloke he was.
you form an opinion in the first 10 seconds of meeting them. in the first 10 seconds of meeting ken, he insulted me. LOL.

after college, i literally spent 15 minutes at home. i spent every minute talking about charles manson's family. i can't help but be intrigued by charles manson. no, he isn't a nice person in anyway, but he is a fucking clever psychopath.

then me, liv and leyla went to asda. leyla developed her colour pictures from today, then we went straight to nailiahs takeaway. well straight as in spending 20 minutes searching for it. we found it. got cheap food.
then we shopped in asda, obviously.

;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

i guess you could describe today as hideous.

well, the morning was okay.
in photography basically me alice and leyla went around taking pictures.
toby said something like "yous don't need to go outside, stay inside and i'll get a lamp"
then alice and leyla went "no we love it outside"
and i said "i love lamp"
that was funny.

lunch seemed quick. i was ill.

i then went to borders with liv and leyla, then mcdonalds.
after that we got the bus to town, which was where i wanted to go to in the first place, to get my sisters christmas present. i got her it. although, i wasn't happy being ditched by them. i don't want to moan about it really.
i'm SICK of falling out with them, especially liv. she has days where she obviously can't be bothered and talks to me in a huff, but talks to everyone else like a friend. like when i told her to buy a meal in mcdonalds, she reacted as if i said something like put your hand in the deep fat fryer and eat that.

the whole situation today seemed like she gave herself a reason to treat me like shit.
i just didn't like how she hung up on me when she actually did answer, the 24th time i called her.

on the bus i just felt like crying about it. i hate it when my 'friends' forget who i am. i don't even understand why i can't make friends who actually treat me like a friend.
the only thing thats kept me sane today is stacy texting me.
i can imagine if i haven't been talking to her lately, i would have probably commited homocide tonight or something.

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

just before i sleep.

i'm not normally a jealous person, but jasevyigfyuceuycrvgfaukyrgvk.
i hate feeling jealous :/

whilst i'm here, every single morning i have this beatles quilt cover on, i think i'll have 'help' stuck in my head. on the underside, the cover for their help album is alllllll over it. i can't find a picture of it, but it's probably going to be my theme song for every morning from now until i have another quilt cover on. but then again i'll be bored.

this morning my sister came into my room, woke me up by shouting "YOU SLEPT WITH ALL THE BEATLES... SLAG"
haha!

i can't decide what to do tomorrow. i need to get christmas shopping, desperatley. all i have is leylas present and something for my dad. oh yeah, and i only have about £50...
wish me luck.

nip and a punch for the first of the month.

today was good.

in tutorial we had the most ridiculous 'health and safety in university' thing. like it's any different than anywhere else..
but the funny part was, peter asked people, and he looked at darren and said "okay, your go david" and they stared at each other for ages, then darren said "you mean me? i'm darren..." and peter went "oh, sorry derren"
the thing is, you can't tell if peter is joking or not.

i had lunch in college, then me and liv went back to hers for tea morning/afternoon.
we watched jeremy kyle, then the mighty boosh. it was the first time i watched it. it was okay. not as funny as i was expecting it to be.

not long after that i went over to joes and walked with him on his paper round. it was reaaaalllllly cold. it is definately the winter like. when we got back to his we put on family guy (:
i haven't watched family guy properly in ages. it's always funnier when you haven't seen it for a while.

and i've been speaking to stacy more again, which makes me glad. i'm probably going to be texting her lots these days.

i guess i just wasn't made for these times.

today was okay.

this morning i was still a bit drunk. i constantly annoyed my mam by calling her 'catherino' :')

OH MY LORD. on the bus i saw a dog being followed by another dog that was sniffing the dogs bum holeeeee. it reminded me of liv.

when i got to college, i told emma i was still drunk, then she said something to me, and i said "what?" like 20 times, then nailiah just changed the subject by shouting "I'M SO TIRED"
then me and nailiah niked off to amigos. elaine made nailiah a hash brown sandwich, and she dropped it. i was pissing myself laughing. it wasn't that funny.

it was funny to see how annoyed liv and leyla were at louise.
in photography louise ran into the cupboard when alice did, then leyla shouted "YEAH GO ON IN THERE WITH ALICE YOU LESBIAN"

i spoke to stacy properly today. it was good.

oh well. today i've mainly been confused about yesterday. apparently vince bought me and nadine a bottle of wine. so we had 4. christ.
i don't remember much.

i'm excited for tomorrow. i'm going to put on a movie in a minute. listening to the beach boys. oh my lord, why wasn't i alive in the 60's? i'd do anything to be in that decade. i love ittt. kind of obsessive.
seriously though, the title of this blog is a beach boys song. listen to it, and think of me.

what actually happened

me and nadine were supposed to be going for a coffee, which ended up being 3 bottles of wine. here's some random events that were contained in those few hours.

in the percy arms, some guy came up to us and said "s'cuse me, do you think those are new shoes or he just cleans them?" and started talking for ages. he then made a joke which i didn't understand and said "how old are you?" "18" then he looked concerned "you can trust me, i'm not going to tell anyone" and i went "do you want me to be younger like?!" then even more concerned "NONONONONO" then nadine went "paedophile.."
haaaa. he thought i was completely offended by him, and shook my hand and asked for our names. although nadine said "whoops" and the guy refered to her as oop.
also, a few people complimented nadines hat. and it was also an excuse to follow us to the next bar. it was creeeeeeeepy.

then in the dog and parrot, vince was there with his friends. i forgot what i said to him, i was aware i mentioned leyla alot cause he is easily annoyed at her mention.
yeah apparently i left without nadine. i don't remember getting back at all. i think they forced me to leave.
i can remember falling down on the seats in wallsend and phoning stacy the conversaiton went like this:
"hello oh my god it's been ages since we spoke!"
"yeah.. i'm drunk."
i hate how that was excuse to talk to her, but at least we're actually going to speak again.


yeah can't be bothered to say anymore to be honest cause there's things i've forgot. i didn't even think i was that drunk. whateverzz.

fuckkkkkkkkkkk

i think i am okay.

i waited all day to meet to meet nadine.
while i was waiting i watched corrination, then NOFX steet backstage poasspoert.

we had 2 bottles of rose. i ended up phoning up stacy. oh fuck, regretable. i should die. i am hunry. idk. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk.

"i'm not saying i'm drunk i'm just big boned"

on NOFX backstage passport, the best part of the unaired footage is the manager kent getting drunk on the russian train.
why wasn't it aired on tv?! there's not even a clip of it on youtube dammit.
he's gave up drinking now apparently, haha. i would've totally loved to get drunk with him, he's hilarious.
and the part where they get high in singapore it amazing too.


i watch this dvd too often.

today was good.

my mam was making me sort out my clothes for ages, and i ended up being late meeting liv and leyla. she kept shouting at me too :/

when we got to town, there was a BNP and anti-BNP protest going on. there must have been about 7 or 8 BNP supporters, and a ton more anti-BNP. me and leyla took some photos.
can't really remember our journey around town. leyla was talking film pictures on like 2 or 3 different cameras, so me and liv basically posed for them.
i'm pissed off my camera has went funny though. it won't focus properly. urgh.

then we went to gateshead. i went to toys r us for the 3rd time in my life. it was a historical moment.
we went to asda. oh my god, there were these people in ice age costumes, and i was terrified. when we were going down the escalator, and they were going up passing up. they tried to high five us all, and i was looking away shaking. i don't get why i was so scared.
but we spent aaaaaages in there.

we went to mcdonalds aswell. i got a happy meal, which meant i got a free toy. and it was a star wars light saber.
the cleaner woman was very friendly and made conversation with us about the metro centre and stuffs.

on the way home at the bus stop, some lonley man tried to make conversation with us too. but he was directed mostly at me. i was certain he wasn't drunk, but he was going on about being in debt cause of his ex-wife, and showing up his wind-up personal radio thing.
i hate worrying about random people, when i bet not even hardly anyone would care about what happens to me. i suppose thats the way i am.

now i'm in my room. newly tidied, new drawers, and finally with my beatles quilt cover on.
and i have wine. going to put on NOFX in a minute, after i've done social vibe, and other things.

like a twitch before dying

today was good.

i was paranoid the whole bus journey with the school kids on. the one behind me wouldn't stop kicking my seat, and i'm sure he put something on my back. then that really loud charvy older kid sat next to me. he always has to make remarks about things that arn't his bussiness. but he didn't say anything.

in film, leyla told me nadine was upset with me, and i was even more paranoid.
leyla seemed like she was drunk. we were laughing at pointless things in the movie. a spanish word that sounds like "emilk" means emerge.
so yeah, we're watching a movie called "talk to her" or something like that. it weird, but i am very much enjoying it. there's only 5 minutes left to watch :/

tutorial was ridiculous, and peter was creepy. he winked at me and louise. and he did a powerpoint presentation on an overhead projector, like the old fashioned one.

the dinner lady elaine tried to talk nice to me. it was another creepy moment. i asked for gravey and chips, and i was like "oh nevermind just chips" and she was making me change my mind again, but in a friendly way. but she overcharged me still, the FUCKA.

i spent my free lesson with nailiah and helene.
apparently for a while helene had been to scared to talk to me, or something like that. we actually had a good few conversations.
i made a proper mess making some more postcards though. it wasn't even a proper lesson but it may aswell have been.

when i was walking home, apparently my dad had been following me, shouting for my attention and stuff. i had my ipod on full blast. he must've looked like an idiot.

i started to use socialvibe again. it's so easy actually, i recommend it for people who don't use it already. you basically just answer questions however you want, and you earn points, which convert into money towards a chosen charity. right now i'm donating to a charity called vitiamin children. i don't remember chosing it, i thought i was donating to arts and crafts for the underprivledged children, but aslong as the money goes towards a deserving cause i'm happy to continue using the website.


i really really really wish i was going out tonight. oh well.

juice head.

fat mike totally needs to come back to newcastle, soon-ish.
can you tell i've been over listening to NOFX today?
i don't care, love them, and they tend to overpower everything else these days.
i need to go to more gigs, at least.

i miss the days when i was obsessed with music more than anything. it's just not the same anymore. i mean, i still am obsessed with music, but i actually have motivation to do my college work properly and stuff.
i remember in year 10/11 whenever i had no friends in the lesson, i would have my ipod hidden. i loved it. i wanted to do it during my exams but i knew i could never get away with it.
okay, maybe i'm making it sound like music had a bad influence on me, however, i did pass my GCSE's thanks babes.

this is my adolescenthood. music.
well. punk rock, alternative, ska and new-wave.
and i don't want it to change.

i also posted this cause i intend to use this for my photography project, thanx.

i am not looking for a bargin, all i really believe in is you.

today was mostly okay.

i enjoyed photography, apart from the fact i did no work whatsoever, and only planned what i'm doing for my written project thing.
and i actually saw the seagulls on the see-through window thing. i was so fascinated by it. it looked like leavesssss. leyla then started to look for photos of seaguls feet, and i was like "i'm certain alice took some!" then i was like "oh no nevermind" and picked up the martin parr video thing. i thought alice took the picture on the cover!

today i realised how old roecker actually is. 43. why is everyone so old?
and especially people i idolize...
i don't know how much i can express that though. it's kind of saddening.
i had this conversation with my dad.
when i saw malcolm mcdowell when he was alex on clockwork orange, then i saw a picture of him now. fucking hell. although that is a massive time gap. i don't know if i want to be old!

then in art, i think i've done too much research. even kaye (who teaches a completley different art subject) is giving me artists to look into. all i have done is made my own postcards and stuck them in. i better not fail this like.

in the free lesson leyla was looking on the dir en grey website and translating things from it. i'm sure google translator isn't right. it's funny though, so it shouldn't really need work if it can give someone something to laugh at.

i really couldn't be arsed with film.
i couldn't be bothered to read anymore amorres perros subtitles, so i went back to my old high school french lesson roots, and just listened to it, and thought how stupid they sounded. the guy was crying down the phone in spanish, but god knows what he was saying, it was too funny.

when i got home, i was given food with mushrooms in.
my whole family know i HATE mushrooms, but they still decide to give me food with it in. i couldn't get it out either. they make me sick. then i was told they couldn't be tasted. it's like having a shite in your coffee, it's not like you'll drink it and not notice it, you know there's fucking shit in there.

my laptop is so annoying. all i wanted for christmas was a new laptop that wasn't second hand, perfectly working. but i'm allowed everything but that.
and i'm not allowed green day tickets either. all i want, to be honest.
but i did watch the roecker interview. it was lovely. apart from one part bothered me. ughtriogbfviubbbiefvbafiuvb.

someone should buy me this for christmas part 2

finks mask.
or make one or something. it would be too sexy.

yes, i did have to include a picture with roecker in, thank you very much.

mommy, can i go out and kill tonight?

today was good.

it's my mams 47th birthday. i got her earrings, a bath set, and a £20 eldon square voucher.

photography wasn't even that long cause toby had to leave. all i did was stick 1 photo in my book. oh well, double tomorrow.
during lunch the beacon hill kid who is obsessed with phones caught her eye on leylas phone, and me and alice were sitting laughing at her. leyla was so confused, then she turned around to see the kid. and another kid stood behind too. it was funny. i don't think amigos would be the same without all the special chilren of the beacon type.
oh yeah, and one of them did a dance infront of louise, and it blocked her way.
i'm actually crying with laughter typing this. it was so funny.

at home i sat and talked to my dad in the loft for ages. talking about yawning.

and not long ago joe invited me over. we watched the rancid dvd that came with their last album, which i have been intending to watch for ages.

my sound is broke on here, again. i'm gutted. i found this 41 minute interview with roecker and i only watched 8 minutes of it last night. fuckkkkk.
looks like i'll have to do it at the weekend or something :/

tommy gun.

today was mixed.

no one woke me up, and when i actually did wake up, i had 20 minutes to get up, ready and to the bus stop. that was impossible, for me.

tutorial for 10 minutes. straight to town. got to the bus stop right on time. perfecto.

i got my mam her final present, then decided to stay in town for lunch. i went to stateside diner. it's quite an expensive place for a poor-ish student, however it is a 50's american replica one, so as long as i was happy.
i had a cheese and chicken ciabatta with jack daniels sauce on. it was lovely. i thought it wouldn't be worth it but it certainly was. i felt like a loner though. the 2 other customers were alone too, however they were old men. oh well.
they played the grease soundtrack today, then an elvis song, which i forgot which one.

oh, and in town i bought a nose ring again, and a present for my dad for christmas.
so yeah, back to the ring. however, it's too small. fucky. 40p wasted.

on the way home my dad phoned saying there was a powercut and we should go to the royal quays for my mams birthday stuff and a coffee. we just got 1 present when we were there, and then decided to go to asda instead. then we ended up getting my sister from work. i didn't get my coffee.
when i got home my sister wound me up. then when my mam came home, her and my dad talked about uni's to me. but they didn't make any sense, and just seemed like a gang-up against me thing. ¬__¬.
i said i wanted to go to america and stay there forever, and they said i couldn't do that. um. whatever.

i only get sleepless nights, alone here in my half-empty bed.

today was okay.

i enjoyed art again. we had to do a random sketch at the begining, to build up our portfolios, for anyone going to uni :/
but emma found out about postcrossing, and she got really excited and told me that i would get an amazing mark if i included something like that in my studies.
oh, and i heard people saying they hated john (the replacement one) and it kind of pissed me off. i thought he was a good teacher, he helped me pick a project! i'm pretty certain he helped other people alot in my class too. oh well.

in film i finally got to change my coursework subject. it was embarressing cause the whole class were given a chance to help, and no one did. i'm doing about outcasts in american film. this should be fun.

i enjoyed my free block. kind of.
this time it was me, alice, laurie and louise talking about music and such.

photography was too short. it took like the full lesson to print my pictures and i was barely messing around.

oh, then we went to a meet up for tumblr. it was so awkward. we knew no one there.
liv and leyla sneaked out cause they thought no one would notice, but everyone stared at them, haha. but me and nadine had a good chat in town! although, walking to the next bus stop made us miss it, haha.

now i am watching the quiet.
planning to sleep sometime soon.

today was good considering i spent 95% of it alone.

i took some pictures for art, then some for photography.

i wrote 5 postcards. apparently the one to finland expired, and i was waiting to send 5 at a time at one point. it was exciting. can't wait to post them. and recieve 5 more. yum yum yum yum yum.

i then decided to go in the loft to watch my region 1 dvd's. and they are basically live freaky! die freaky! and the ben stiller show boxset.
oh lord, i watched the special features for lfdf for the first time ever. i'm quite embarressed that i haven't watched them before. very enjoyable.

i also had my free cappicinno from when i saw mamma mia. i was highly disapointed. i blame myself though.

not really done much else. i'm watching NOFX backstage passport. i actually miss them. is that a bad thing?
oh yeah, and fat mike having green hair makes me need to dye it. well, not just him, i've been thinking about dying my hair all day. i'm sick of my hair not being perfect. perfect hair to me is GREEN hair. and not from swimming pools.

like that. plz.

oh my lorrrrrrdddddddddddd.

this was like my favourite picture ever a few years ago.
i remember showing it to leyla and sam when i met them for the first time, haha.
i think my mam threw it away, or something. i just never found it again, and i was so gutted.
i'm excited i've found it actually. even though i haven't really listened to fall out boy and aiden much since. ooft i still bloody love panic though.

check this riff, it's fucking tastey.

i liked today.

i was late meeting louise. i just got to the metro station, and the metro was leaving. whoops.

half an hour later we were at alices, with lauire and eve.
we watched the chumscrubber. i don't think anyone else had seen it before. i'm sure everyone enjoyed it, apart from one disgusting scene. it's funny though. again, i don't like spoiling movies on my blog!
after that we went out to take some pictures in the forrest kind of place. i wish i was doing my project about something outside. however, a project involving heroes is definatley something i'll find easy.
when we got back we just watched tv pretty much.

when i got home i sat with my dad and watched tenacious d the pick of destiny.
it was the first time i saw that, i really wish i had've watched it sooner than today. i plan to watch it again sometime soon, properly.
i was thinking when i was watching it, when i first made myspace i put jack black on the 'who i'd like to meet' section. along with kurt cobain, joel madden and chandler bing. LOL. i have met joel madden since then though.

i really want to watch snow white aswell. my childhood favourite! there's been adverts on tv for it.
i want to watch 'the quiet' too. it's all on youtube for those who take my recommendations, which is probably no one. but yeah, camilla belle is in it, i think she's an amazing actress.
i'd watch them now, but my laptop sound is FUKT.

playlist.

intended to do this for a while actually.
these are like my favourite songs ever. in no order after the first one:

the kkk took my baby away - the ramones
don't leave me - blink-182
killing an arab - the cure
hybrid moments - the misfits
one of my lies - green day
hope - the descendents
what if punk never happened? - the king blues
i get around - the beach boys
generator - bad religion
world up my ass - circle jerks
fan mail - the dickies
love is paranoid - the distillers
old friend - rancid
lucifer, i am - michale graves
all on black - alkaline trio
irresponsible hate anthem - marilyn manson
mattersville - NOFX
creatures - adolescents
lithium - nirvana
just becuase you sleep next to me doesn't mean you're safe - gallows
sound system - operation ivy
transmission - joy division
mad house - anthrax
have's, have nots - kut u up


um yeah, i'm thinking these from the top of my head. if i had my ipod i'd totally have a ton more. but i think those songs will do. i suppose they define me well enough.

another thought

that last blog i posted seems really boring.
i'm really disapointed, i'm uninspired tonight. sorry people.

i should get a formspring or something. i know it's supposed to be a tumblr thing, but i totally prefer blogspot to tumblr.
i don't know why really, i've always been one to look at art rather than at a book or whatever with lots of words. but blogs inspire me to read more. i appriciate lenghty blogs, the least i can do is write as much as i can. well, whatever is intresting in my fairly boring life. i suppose these days are boring. this year has been so fucking miserable.

i think 2010 will be better. i'm not going to say it will be, i said that about 2009, but it has been one of the worst years of my lifetime.
if i hadn't seen NOFX this year, i think it would have been the worst year ever.
i was talking about this before. the bad things overweighed the good things.
the best thing that could possibly happen to me also meant the worst thing was going to happen too. i don't really want to make a sob story out of it, but i doubt any worse could have happened than losing my grandma.

oh well, i guess i got stuff out to type.
i hope someone enjoys reading my stuff.

i tore the muscle from your chest, used it to stub out ciggerettes.

today was good.

film was the dodgiest one ever. me, liv and leyla went early, and davey was chatting up leyla. well, they were supposed to be talking about twilight, but he was asking questions like "do you like biting peoples necks?" and on and on.
christ, he comes up with the most awkward conversations.
oh and the jokes he tells are too awkward aswell. they start funny, then it's just like, 'no i don't need to hear anymore thanks'

he mixed the group up to dicuss the amores perros movie. we were talking about a character. i heard someone in my group say "easily fooled" and i wrote it down, then the person who said it looked at my page and glared at me as if i just killed his pet rabbit or something. yeah turns out he said "easily influenced"
i had a good laugh re-telling this though.

then the second half of the lesson involved making our own camera shot picture sheet. we had to put our own pictures in from our favourite movies.
i got a fright when davey was like "so you like ghost world, emma? it's an amazing movie" and leyla was like "I LOVE STEVE BUSHIMI"
i couldn't imagine him watching that movie. but i suppose he is a film studies teacher.. aha.

oh, and on my picture of charlie from live freaky! die freaky! he was like "oh god what the hell is that?!" and i got to explain the movie i was like yyyaaaaaay. but then he was just like "well, he really does look like charles manson"
i was expecting him to say something a bit more better than that. i'd love to do work about that movie. maybe a director study, or something.

i didn't like lunch time. it took ages for them to cook my panini, and some beacon hill child mistaked me for their carer. it was funny. but not.

i signed in for art, then me and leyla buggered off to town.
we both wanted to go to a cafe, but we ended up in weatherspoons having a meal.
funnnnnnny times.
i didn't get my anti-swastika badge like i promised myself to. because i am jewish and think nazi punks should fuck off. dead kennedys.

i think now i'm going to have some wine!

creepy.

okay, i turn my computer on, and now my skitzo laptop let the sound work today, i decided to listen to some music. since i was listening to the ramones on my short journey home alone, i put on the ramones again.

i then put on facebook to see this status from roecker:

John Roecker Svengali's Dating Advice- Before you fuck someone make sure you look at their record collection first. Never and I mean never fuck anyone who doesn't have a Ramones record. It will lead to disaster.



film 4 put cameras in leylas bedroom. now john roecker has put cameras in mine.

forgot to mention.

i sent away for a free wristband for anti-knives, basically.

it came today, but adressed from the essex police. my parents had no idea what it was, and when i explained it to my dad he said i should say i got into trouble some how. apparently my mam had been anxious all day aswell.
when i got in, my mam tried to hide the fact she wanted to know what it was about, and i was like "oh, i was caught with drugs.. whatever" and she was like "NO, TELL ME EMMA!" and then my dad walked in and said something like "emma has been misbehaving at gigs!" and then she asked again "drugs and shit" and walked off saying "fuck you"


LOL

oh fuccccck

i got 3 postcards today. they are sexy.

ones from dave patel, and 2 are from mark hoppus.
it's hard to explain, i'll have to scan them in or something
(':

i hate them all, creatures. i hate all them, creatures.

um yeah so i didn't blog yesterday, i may aswell start with that.

it was.. weird.

i totally forgot i was having the cervical cancer jab, it was pretty much the first thing i did when i got there. i was totally un-prepared and only got nervous when i sat down. she told me to relax my arm, and i totally didn't. oh fuck, it really did hurt more than any other needle i've had in me. but at least this is supposed to stop me getting cervical cancer..
although it's still hurting now, like after one day. ¬_¬

when the college day was over, me and leyla decided to go to the cinema. then we had fucked up plans really. when we were getting on the bus, all of us got on apart from leyla, so me and liv had to go get off the bus, aha.
it ended up me leyla and nailiah in all these asian markets. i bought some thai energy drink, that looked concerningly similar to medicine.

when nailiah left, liv came back and we went to the dog and parrot.
oh fuck, i forgot it was rise against. i was foaming. but honestly, i only really wanted to bug tim about fat mike from nofx.
then liv left and nadine came.
and i pretty much had wine to myself, apart from leyla having one glass.
when i got home, my parents had no idea i was drunk. until my mam screamed at me asking to smell my breath over and over. i let her. she kept calling me a liar.
i think my dad thought it was funny though. my sister certainly did, she was really annoying me though.




today was better.

photography was hilarious. but, it totally wasn't supposed to be.
leyla developed a fear of the dark room after studying the grudge, so i had to assist her in there. the vent kept making this weird sound, and on the movie, they make a similar sound. leyla ran out with tears in her eyes. she did it like twice. then i decided it would make sense if the vent thing was turned on. when i did it, it made this fucking dodgy beeping sound. leyla screamed at the top of her lungs, it was terrifying. i was crying with laughter. kim and laurie in the other room were like "what the hell was that for?" then toby walked over, assuming me and leyla had been messing about and i was like "did you hear leyla scream?!" and i just laughed in his face. he wasn't convinced leyla was scared, and told her to do more prints.

we ended up sitting on facebook/flickr. the fire alarm went off, and toby just stood in the corridor and announced something like "okay guys i assume that's the fire alarm.."
oh fucking hell, LOL.
after waiting outside for 10 minutes, me, leyla, laurie and nailiah sneaked back in. i put the vent back on in the dark room. toby caught up with us and was like "oh, who put the vent on in the dark room? emma you turn it off."

me, leyla, nailiah met up with liv and went for a pub lunch. it was the first time in nailiahs life she'd ever been in a pub, haha!

um yeah, thats it for intresting things.
but i'm listening to adolescents for the first time in forever.

i'll destroy this usless heart, i'll fuck it up so it'll never beat again,
not just for me but for anyone.

coffee tea soda-pop pee, pee on me, pee on meeeee!

i've been looking for this video for the past hour, cause i thought it was on my youtube favourites. turns out it wasn't. oh well. cheetah videos for the win.

today was okay.

i went to tutorial for like 15 minutes. it was supposed to be 10, but peter kept us back for ages dissing all the unis i even thought about going to. i was panicking cause i had a connexions meeting.
yeah, i waited for half an hour and the person didn't turn up. the woman at the reception also "forgot" i was there, even though i kept looking over to see what she was doing and she was eyeing me up.
it was one of those moments i could have easily kicked off at her, but i didn't. ugh.

then me and liv went into town. i randomly got a craving for nutella. liv adivsed me not to get it from fenwicks, which ended up being the place that sold it for the cheapest.
we went back to hers and watched jeremey kyle! there was a girl who wanted a sex change on it, so there was no lie detector ):

when i got home, my dad gave me a Q magazine with a blink-182 article in.
and basically all the time i've spent online is watching blink videos on youtube. i know everyone hates it when bands change, but i like finding all these new videos of them. i can't wait til they do more interviews and stuff, and they would cheer me up on a day like this.
not to mention when they come to the UK. oh christ.
i wouldn't mind if panic! at the disco support them too, like they did in america. i think that sounds perfect.
well, perfect would be blink-182, NOFX, the misfits (with danzig), the cure, descendents, bad religion, the muffs, the distillers, and rancid all in one show. but i guess most of the bands don't compliment each other really. and some of them are impossible. yeah i should stop talking about music now.

cokie the clown

NOFX - Cokie The Clown

NOFX | MySpace Video

srsly. if you've seen me post this anywhere else and you haven't watched it, i suggest you should. because i told you to.

i have totally given up tidying my room to watch it over and over. i'd do anything to go back to 28th april 2009 and re-live that day.
or, i'd do anything for them to come back here soon. ooh, when they do i can legally drink. i'll buy mike, melvin and limo a drink, probably of brown ale. i'd get kent and smelly one, but they don't drink. and el hefe was huffy to the fans, so nowt for him. oh babaaaaaaaaaaay.

i'm screaming out, somebody listen.

today was meh/good.

i really enjoyed art. i basically sat and talked to nailiah, and took pictures of rusty things and shells.

then we stayed in college for lunch. elaine was determind i wouldn't get fed. when the other lady sevred me, she asked elaine how much it would be, and she took 30p off, cause she fancied me. well, cause elaine is a bitch and pinches money, or something. just everything has to be too much.

then some lad came up to me and said "hi" and i looked up, didn't recognize him. he stood silently for a few seconds, and i was going to say "do i know you?" but then i noticed he was wearing a t-shirt with chlamidia written across it. he was waffling on about something, and nailiah burst out laughing. it was so awkward.
he came to talk to us again when liv, alice, and laurie were there too. he handed everyone a card, and laurie was like "no thanks, i don't want one"
and when he walked away, he stook his tounge out at laurie.

oh, and on the way to next lesson, all these NHS people were in handing out free things. i got a nail file, couisidently, i had cut my nails this morning and had no time to file them. lucky or what. i sat in film, and davey tried to make conversation with me and said "are you trying to make your nails shiny, emma?"
then i didn't even notice what he said, and explained how a nail file works. he then talked to someone else. thats what he always does, he is terrible at showing intrest in things i talk about.

we're watching that mexican film again. it's gotten weird now, although i am enjoying it very much. there's more than one story to it, and some of them are connecting. i think they're going to connect even more later on. cool.

i spent my free lesson searching youtube about this closet gay who killed himsef, and there was a video of him dead, and it says "this is my brothers account, he is the one lying dead in this video" or something like that. it was creepy.

then photography, i actually did some work. but leyla left early upset with me cause i wouldn't go in the dark room with her. oh yeah, everyone else left too basically. it was silent.

when i got home, my dad said i could have all his old empire magazines, so since i got in i've been reading them. the oldest i found so far was feburary 1992, which is a month older than me. it had stuff about silence of the lambs in. oh yeah, i found this lushious edward scissorhands article.
and i found a free ticket to see american pie. and the cinema for newcastle was warner brothers. it's weird to think, thats now a university. christ.
there was a thing about jim carey too, saying stuff about the mask.

oh, and when i was reading them, my dad came in and handed me a gigantic pile of postcards. there's got to be over 100 in there.



AND CHRIST. edward woodward died today, i was so shocked to hear.
i watched the wickerman god knows how many times in AS film.
at least the pagens didn't burn him alive.

friend fact thing.

another app on facebook. yeah, i have gave all the games on facebook up, but i do go on some of the votey things, just because.
some people don't know me by the looks of these answers:

Do you think Emma has ever gone to a strip club? Yes
this person think's i'm a perv.

Do you think Emma should pass on the chocolate cake? No
they are probably blind, or enjoy fat people.

Do you think Emma loves dogs? Yes
i was scared of them for about 15 years. umm, i don't think i've really taken a shine to an animal that taunted my childhood.

Would you introduce Emma to your parents/family? No
i am really that bad.

Do you think Emma has an inviting smile? Yes
what smile?

Do you think Emma has ever watched someone undress secretly? Yes
ofc.

i might use this to see who said that shit about me (:

i like to type things.

no ones talking to me anymore. so here's some thoughts.

i really want to watch anchorman right now. just cause my sister gave me it back tonight after keeping it in her room for about 3 months.
latley she's been nicking my movies. but i think it's a good thing, she's watching things i like, and she's not outside smoking. when she smokes, it goes into my room. sux.

ohhhh, and i was thinking this.
sometime this week/weekend, people should come to mine and watch a movie in the loft with me. live freaky! die freaky! maybe.
i haven't watched it for a while, i don't remember when i last watched it. there's things i've read about it that i want to notice. whuteverrrrr.

my eyelids are itchy.

not really intrested in tomorrow. can't think if it will be any good.
not looking forward to art, cause i have nothing to do, and will probably overall fail the subject. cak cak cak cak cak cak cak cak.
i remembered i took work home, and i didn't remember til the end of today. i hate not remembering things.
but, i think if emma is in, i will just get her to make me do something different.

but i am excited to listen to my new music whenever i'm alone and have time for it. i just wish i have afi's new album on my ipod. shit man, it's good.
i wish i had some of my dads music on too. he's just got a cassette tape to ipod converter aswell as the viynl one. i should have a full ipod when i pretty much share my dads taste in music.

i am also excited for the 3d derren brown programme tomorrow. i am aware he's only presenting it, however, i still intend to watch it. i have nothing much else to look forward to in the short term.

okay, after i post this, i will go downstairs, get a glass of cloudy lemonade, come back up and put on anchorman. then probably fall asleep with it on.
lushious.

skins, punx and drunx

today was good.

me and joe went into town.
on one of the streets by monument, there was another one of those weird vans that were letting people on. we walked past to look, then this cheerful homo popped out of no where and said "hello! want to do on big lizards big idea?" or something like that, then he handed us over to this woman with a thick mustache and monobrow. she told us to draw the lizard with ourself doing something exciting.
of corse, i drew the lizard drinking an appletini saying "send me something over" and the picture of me was posting a postcard in the letter box, and i was saying "only if you send me a postcard. your tounge is currently purple!". the woman who told us what to do came up behind me and said "oh lizard wants you to post him an appletini? original!!"
joe asked the woman what the whole thing was about, and she said "it's too hard to explain, it's too layered" and then he said "how long has this been around" and she said "oh the lizard has been alive for a very long time!"
when we were leaving, joe said "do you have a website?" and she said "i don't know. GOOGLE IT!" um, it was a terribly organized event, but it was so fucking funny.

then we went to pizza hut. i finally had the cookie dough. it was different to what i expected, and really rich and sickly.
um yeah, we basically just walked about bored after that.

thats it for town really.
when i got home, i basically looked for free music.
the only good source for free downloads is purevolume. i just want to find new bands, and it's been very helpful. there's a genre tab at the bottom, and when you pick your favourite, a band of that genre comes up. although for punk theres been a few familiar ones up there.
i used to go on that site all the time in 2005/2006. i remember when panic at the disco were on the charts on there. good times. very good times.

joko homo.

this morning was aweful. tonight was better.

um yeah. i don't even want to mention today.
but i will mention, i lost my nose stud in the bath, and spent ages looking for another. i've lost my fucking sexy nose ring. terrible. i might get a cooler one sometime in the weekey eek.

so yeah, tonight i went to joes. lucy and lewi were there.
lucy pointed at a picture of frank carter from gallows and said "he's a rude man" and i went "but joe loves him" then she said "I DON'T BELIEVE YOU, THATS GAY"
hahaaaa! i never imagined her saying anything like that.
but we did knee surgery, then marions world, then habbo hotel. fun times.

then i went home and watched the x-factor with the parentals.

today has been so short, and quite pointless.
i hate being ill. i could've been out drinking right now :/

you could've at least told me.

i want to know what i've done wrong for people to hate me?
seriously. i was just thinking about it. people have 'problems' with me, and they don't actually say why.
i always try my best to be nice to everyone, and i don't intend on hurting anyone purposley. yet, people still find a reason to hate me.




i guess everyone has this feeling. but i think i have it more than anyone i know.
right now i'm trying to stay calm, and drink my wine.

ctrl, alt, deleted. reset my memory.

today was meh, then good.

it was the first time liv, leyla and myself were all on the 17 bus together. just thought that deserved a mention.

then we did clockwork orange work. i felt like shit when i was probably the slowest person in the class to answer it. i ended up getting help from davey, and kept asking leyla if it was okay. and now i have to do it for homework cause i was so slow. i obviously don't like that movie for the right reasons, and should give up on my intrest of film. it is just so awkward. blagh.

but we did watch this mexican movie that i'd already seen the first half of. i really enjoyed it the first time, and i want to see the rest. i don't think people enjoy dogs biting each other to death as much as i do.

then louise wanted to go to the silverlink, and i ended up giving in and going.
i bought a skirt with my dinner money.

art was terrible. i don't see why i was looking forward to it. everyone was going to the house party, apart from nailiah, but she was still talking to everyone about it til she left. i was a bit of a gooseberry, so i just walked out miserably.
all i did that lesson was write words a 5 year old could've come up with to express my thoughts on the picture to the right. (hell - the chapman brothers)
it makes me wish i did english as an option. if i stayed at school, it certainly would've been my 2nd option after art. the sad thing is, i wouldn't know what other lessons i could've done. tyne met was like a saviour, generally offering lessons in things i actually enjoy. i suppose.

when i got home, joe offered to come over. we watched dumber and dumberer in the loft. it wasn't long ago since i saw it, but i forgot how funny it actually was. i laughed too much at it. it made me better.

now i'm full of cold. i'm stick of my stupid nose.

facebook statuses.

the status history app has a thing so show all the statuses ever.
i'm going to explain stuff about what it meant and whatever. it does show lots of important things that have happened to me.
but i'm going to delete boring stuff.
yeah this took me aaaaaaaages to do (over 2 hours)
it's just memories.


Fri October 30, 2009, 5:45 pm: WHO IS HOHN?

Fri October 30, 2009, 5:41 pm: my freiwnds din't undersatand john so i skepp. niht.

i don't think i remember those drunk statuses. about mr. roecker.

Fri October 30, 2009, 10:56 am: on the way to town. blink tribute band, yusss.

we didn't even see them.

Sun October 25, 2009, 7:00 am: sonic boom six tonight bebeeee

Wed October 21, 2009, 9:38 am: some newcastle website has requested to use my photography for their website.


Fri October 16, 2009, 4:57 am: Is pretty certain i walked past an actress who was pretty famous. They were recording her. I forgot her naaame :/

still don't know who it is.

Wed October 14, 2009, 1:30 pm: has never been so excited about art related things than i have today.

art day was good.

Mon October 5, 2009, 4:18 am: Neil Bushnim was good on Art Attack

haha good day.

Sun October 4, 2009, 3:44 pm: has never headbanged so much in her life, lmao!

Sun October 4, 2009, 11:34 am: is waiting for skindred avec lindsey lohan/louise

that was good. davey the film teacher called louise lindsey lohan to remember her name, aha.

Sun September 27, 2009, 3:44 am: likes my drunk statuses. and the twitter ones are good too. "aiwniene flu. it kislls"

Sat September 26, 2009, 5:37 pm: derren frown

Sat September 26, 2009, 4:05 pm: derren frown

Sat September 26, 2009, 4:01 pm: how did orssry and c haron co[e in the jighjt~?

Sat September 26, 2009, 3:45 pm: what whe si yja?

"how did ozzy and sharon cope in the night?" i have NO idea why i wanted that as a status, but could you blame anyone intoxicated?

Wed September 16, 2009, 1:41 am: seeing the used in a few hours (:

that was good.

Thu September 3, 2009, 11:30 am: has had a good day with liv bab (': we had too much chucklet though.

first ever coffee/tea moring/afternoon.

Mon August 31, 2009, 4:11 pm: Leyla sais id eather akeeo wurh borat than bruno

Mon August 31, 2009, 3:45 pm: Is gobaie die

Mon August 31, 2009, 2:46 pm: Soawnw

don't remember the bottom 2. borat one is amazing LOL. it's supposed to say "leyla said she'd rather sleep with borat than bruno"

Tue August 25, 2009, 12:05 pm: is now joey who has a child named tyson.. "need a sandwich."

that was the best story i ever invented.

Mon August 24, 2009, 7:21 am: Omg just saw jordan from new found glory! He smiled at me lmao

OH CHRIST! i tried to find them again, to tell them i had no one to go with to see them. i hoped they would've let me hang with them. but a bunch of fans took them away from me straight away.

Thu August 20, 2009, 4:47 pm: Leyla hacked my facebook sorry

Thu August 20, 2009, 4:39 pm: Cqnt sleep like the gwen stefani stong

Thu August 20, 2009, 10:28 am: Waiting for the cure.

drunk statuses! leyla didn't hack my account. but the middle one is a beast of a status. lush.

Tue August 18, 2009, 6:35 am: Lots of jews come into marks and spencer.

i got told off for this. but it was a good thing, not a stereotype.

Fri August 14, 2009, 2:38 pm: Oh nooo! Freddies gone

I STILL THINK HALFWIT SHOULD'VE WON BIG BROTHER. i was so so so so so so gutted.

Wed August 5, 2009, 3:04 pm: was talking to the coolest person ever ):

christ, chris came in the room and asked how you play the lottery, and then the person disconnected. it was on omegle btw.

Fri July 31, 2009, 7:19 am: has won a lot of red bull :]

12 cans. oh fuuuck.

Sun July 26, 2009, 2:38 pm: That was one of the best gigs i have ever attended. Actually it comes right after nofx for best one ever!

i think that gig changed my life.

Fri July 17, 2009, 3:21 pm: spinnerette was amazing, apart from the gigantic, disgusting, ugly swedish girl. urgh.

they were good. but it was the shittest gig i have EVER attended. sorry brody and tony, you were the only reason i went. in hope for a distillers song.

Mon July 13, 2009, 3:50 pm: Birthday massacre liked my t-shirt too

Mon July 13, 2009, 11:07 am: Is waiting for the birthday masscre. Had many comments on my shirt

i wore my mindless self indulgence t-shirt. we met vince that day, who was first to make a comment, with his friend anthony. they thought it was stewie.
and some metal head in the gig thought it was a metal band, i was like "no pet i listen to punk music"
and the birthday masscre were very polite.

Sat July 11, 2009, 3:03 am: is wondering why posters have been obviously ripped off my walls. and has a killlllller headache.

obvious result.

Fri July 10, 2009, 3:43 pm: Hads goos tine tobight

Fri July 10, 2009, 2:28 pm: Haha parties gooood :) uranus

i don't remember the later one. it was the first time i saw some of my high school friends since '08.

Wed July 1, 2009, 8:08 am: told myself not to buy any dvd's or cd's today, so i got a dress instead.

i spent around £200 on dvd's over the summer.

Tue June 30, 2009, 1:19 pm: my first postcard swappy thing is for an american! :]

Tue June 30, 2009, 5:14 am: Is thinking 'Michael Jackson THIS' is an approprite documentary title. Maybe better than the freddie mercury one.

Fri June 26, 2009, 9:23 am: Got ID'd for a 12 movie :|

mr deeds. cause i really do look under 12 years old.

Thu June 25, 2009, 4:18 pm: actually, michael jackson is now with tupac and elvis somewhere..

they have punk rock with them too.

Thu June 25, 2009, 3:23 pm: why does everyone listen to silly rumours and agree that MJ died? everyone agreed with each other when people said he was a pedo, but in reality he wasn't.

Thu June 25, 2009, 2:56 pm: hopes these rumours about micheal jackson being dead arn't true. if so that means 3 famous people have died today ):

i got really worked up about it, christ. but still, people who called him a pedo made all the fuss.

Mon June 22, 2009, 11:44 pm: Had a dream about jack black and i'm pretty sure it was an actual movie i dreamed out.

omfggg, that dream has got to be a movie already. it was in an airport, by a bar.

Mon June 22, 2009, 11:01 am: "when you start driving, you'll notice the difference" i get great encouraging words from chris like.

speaks for itself.

Mon June 22, 2009, 9:38 am: feels sorry for perez hilton.

when he got punched. i still keep my word.

Sun June 21, 2009, 5:18 am: "do you think in the fish and chips shop you could ask for battered twat?"

me and my sister wind up my mam too much.

Sat June 20, 2009, 1:54 pm: "them scottish scallops have something to do with heads" "... don't you mean scalp?"

i need to remember who said that.

Tue June 16, 2009, 4:32 am: Is in the metro centre rather than ken lovvats trip. Hope there is no effects in my injuries

nofx.

Sun June 14, 2009, 3:18 pm: i'd rather strangle a tree than hug it, the trees life support, unplug it. who needs a tree? not me, screw your ecology, keep your enviroment, shove it (8)

JOHN ROECKER YOU BABE.

Sat June 13, 2009, 4:58 am: Wants to know who her real friends are :(

still don't know.

Sat June 13, 2009, 3:25 am: Foaming. Shame feeling i had when i was 7 and i forgot my homework and a got told off for not doing it, but i actually did.

christ, i was held hostage that day. but i remember the day when i was 7 too. poopy day.

Sat June 13, 2009, 12:03 am: Can't remember watching school of rock, although i DO remember having my hair pulled. Nicee.. And Mark Goppus? Haha

speaks for itself.

Fri June 12, 2009, 3:32 pm: Is about to watch school of rock with apple sourz. Lush

that was after i'd passed out in town and shit. probably the most drunk i've been, and i typed it perfectly. LOL/

Thu June 11, 2009, 5:59 am: Has fallen in love with her new 160gb ipod classic! Shame the computers not letting me put anything on it :/

grandma bought me that.

Wed June 3, 2009, 2:56 pm: ugh howebeer but hahaha!

I HATE MYSELF FOR GETTING DRUNK AFTER THE FUNERAL. FUCK. ALCOHOLIC FAMILY, MUCH?

Tue June 2, 2009, 2:36 pm: has had a good day in south shields. is ready to say goodbye to my grandma for the last time tomorrow. miss you.

:(

Mon June 1, 2009, 4:09 pm: doesn't find the whole sacha baron cohen and eminem thing as funny as the news make it sound like :/

moody arse.

Sat May 30, 2009, 2:15 pm: is actually gutted that stavros flatley wasn't even a runner up D:

i still think they deserved to win.

Fri May 29, 2009, 2:33 pm: zoolander. HIYA BEN STILLER.

ben stiller obsession.

Wed May 27, 2009, 3:28 pm: will not accept rum from a stranger again.

more specifially, a lesbian stranger.

Sun May 24, 2009, 4:04 am: gives up.

the world was still stopped for me.

Sat May 23, 2009, 8:36 am: r.i.p grandma ):

Sat May 23, 2009, 5:05 am: nobody does it better, makes me feel sad for the rest, nobody does it half as good as you, baby you're the bestttttt

that song kind of helps me when i lose someone.

Fri May 22, 2009, 2:44 pm: does not know how to feel. this whole sititaytopm makes me think: wow what a bastard she is for doing that. goodbye ):

Fri May 22, 2009, 5:38 am: is not happy at all. )': )': )':

that was the day i found out my grandma had 24 hours to live. I HATE THE NHS WITH A BURNING PASSION.

Mon May 18, 2009, 8:28 am: just went to see grandma in hospital.

that was the last time she spoke to me. i totally took that visit for granted.

Sun May 17, 2009, 12:12 pm: Dyed her hair again. First time in 2 years it's been all 1 colour... I feel less unique.

BIGGEST MISTAKE.

Sat May 16, 2009, 10:56 am: someone take me to america to see blink-182 + panic at the disco, please.

still fucking jealous of the americans who saw them.

Fri May 15, 2009, 11:38 pm: NEVER AGAIN.. what the fuck was last night about o_o

possibly one of the worst nights of my lifetime. fucky christ shitttttt.

Thu May 14, 2009, 12:24 pm: has been doing work non-stop. still going, with an exception of typing this status. srsly, i only came on facebook to collect my picture of lars fredirekson. ):

these are the days i could no longer be bothered to try. fat mike brain washed me.

Thu May 14, 2009, 6:12 am: Gaah! Lost my usb stick. No media coursework D:

that had the last pictures with grandma on.


Wed May 13, 2009, 1:05 pm: punch her in the cunt. then kick her in the face. i hate the bloody queen (8)

Wed May 13, 2009, 11:04 am: slayer reminds me of old times.

it still does a little.

Mon May 11, 2009, 11:40 am: it rubs the lotion on it's skin or else it gets the hose again.

i shouldn't have learnt about the glories of dr lector, he is a gentleman.

Sun May 10, 2009, 4:23 am: wants to see spinnerette!! HIYA brody dalle bababa.

the thought of it was better than it was.

Sat May 9, 2009, 2:47 pm: mmm gallows + rolo tomossi :D annnnd oh yes, i got gallows set list (h)

yum

Fri May 8, 2009, 2:05 pm: On the bus with lovley louise. She has a nofx song i met fat mike

Fri May 8, 2009, 1:58 pm: Ahhhh chasing suxie!y

drunk.

Tue May 5, 2009, 12:26 pm: is scared like a fly.

i forgot the joke, but it made me cry with laughter.

Sun May 3, 2009, 3:17 pm: mike, of the fat kind preferbly.

i got told off by people for having so many statuses about fat mike like that.

Sat May 2, 2009, 2:57 pm: oh god i want to see NOFX again right now.

still do.

Thu April 30, 2009, 12:20 pm: was in a bad mood until i was told i might be seeing RHCP :P

chris told me RHCP were coming. he still thinks they are. LOL.

Tue April 28, 2009, 5:11 pm: NOFX was the best thing ever. Melvin is the sweetest dude ever, fat mike is the drunkest, el hefe is the evil ignorant one, and smelly is the missing one :)

SEXYYYY.

Tue April 28, 2009, 6:49 am: Has been recommended to buy a hat. Recommendation was suggested by FAT MIKE -dies-

OMFG, he was sober, only about 5% of people meet SOBER FAT MIKE. or some small percentage.

Tue April 28, 2009, 4:50 am: El hefe walked past me and said 'hello'!

he was a miserable sod.

Tue April 28, 2009, 3:08 am: Missed 2 buses! Not the best day for rain. HIYA FAT MIKE

Mon April 27, 2009, 1:57 pm: leave me stuff for me to reply to tomorrow, when i'm standing waiting for 7 hours. i'll slowly reply tomorrow. by the way, did you know i was seeing NOFX tomorrow. b a b e s.

Mon April 27, 2009, 1:39 pm: is currently shaking.. with excitement. hiya mam.

couldn't sleep that night.

Sun April 26, 2009, 1:24 pm: jeeeeeeeeeeesus it's so close to NOFX. VOMITING WITH EXCITEMENT.

i miss my old phrases.

Fri April 24, 2009, 9:24 pm: Awake, but prolly had too littl sleep. Taatttooing thing todsy?

Fri April 24, 2009, 3:02 pm: Is with 2 pisheeds called drunkies

i liked drinking with stacy and callum.

Fri April 24, 2009, 9:59 am: Listening to stacy argue with someone on the phone and cleaning tea up with a tv remote...

LOL.

Fri April 24, 2009, 5:31 am: Has a 'doctors appointment' on tuesday :)

i told my old photography teacher that so i could queue up for NOFX early.

Mon April 20, 2009, 3:20 pm: will probably get some twisted dreams from this movie soundtrack, but i don't want to stop listening to it ♥!

Mon April 20, 2009, 11:47 am: Live freaky! Die freaky!

SEXYYYYYYYYYYY!

Mon April 20, 2009, 3:37 am: Liv is an impatient jerkoff

i don't remember the story, but i laughed.

Wed April 15, 2009, 1:36 pm: has found mark hoppus's phone number. no joke.

i deleted it off my phone, and i regret it.

Mon April 13, 2009, 3:05 pm: probably won't be able to listen to 'baby i love you' by the ramones anymore without getting creeped out. in fact, the full end of the century album. such a weirdo.

phil spector.

Sun April 12, 2009, 1:20 pm: the blue hair dye is a complete failure. emails of complaint are being spammed to the shit hair dye company.

Sun April 12, 2009, 12:02 pm: thinks the blue hair dye was a complete failure

it went grey. i had fucking grey hair for NOFX.

Sat April 11, 2009, 6:52 am: Is roaming the streets of wallsend - watch out for me

i'm pretty sure after that, i almost fell over, and some charv shouted "unlucky" and laughed. errrrrghie.

Tue April 7, 2009, 4:16 pm: loves the fact mark hoppuz said 'i LOVE playing don't leave me' cause if blink play that when i see them, i will officially die happy.

tru dat.

Fri April 3, 2009, 1:14 pm: AMERICA (L)

thats when i thought i was going again ):

Wed April 1, 2009, 11:50 am: honestly is more excited for the green day musical than their new album..

i haven't seen it yet. the albums not that bad either.

Mon March 30, 2009, 11:41 pm: Is going to wednesday 13 tonight rather than cumdog millionare

it's not funny anymore.

Fri March 27, 2009, 4:33 pm: Now has a bottle of taboo in my room waiting to be opened :P but i wont

i wasted that drink.

Wed March 25, 2009, 12:47 am: NOFX. that is all.

Tue March 24, 2009, 6:58 am: is pleased to hear that my NOFX backstage passport dvd's are on their way ♥!

too fucking right, i waited extra days even after pre-ordering it. and i didn't get the free sticker.

Wed March 18, 2009, 2:33 pm: is worried. but thats nothing robert smith can't change.

still fucking true.

Mon March 16, 2009, 3:25 am: Is 17 today

i like how theres no exclamation marks or smileys. my dvd didn't come that day.

Sat March 14, 2009, 4:57 pm: Is scqred x

Sat March 14, 2009, 3:36 pm: Is ktinh in gelbsds garsen

drunk statuses. i think it's supposed to be "is in helenas garden". and yeah, i had passed out on her garden. did i mention, her parents were home that night? fail.

Sat March 14, 2009, 11:28 am: is a 50's woman :P

shittest fancy dress costume i've EVER had. worse than john lennon.

Tue March 10, 2009, 8:07 pm: Just had a nightmare thats possibly changed my life ):

oh christ, that was scary. it was so real. it was the first time i cried at a nightmare.

Sat March 7, 2009, 2:16 pm: Has an interview thing at a tattoo place next week :D

they called me back, i just didn't go back. i fail. fuckkkkk.

Sat March 7, 2009, 10:59 am: Now has a full clockwork orange droog outfit. Minus boots but that soon will be sorted :)

still haven't used it.

Wed March 4, 2009, 2:57 pm: wants my birthday to come sooner just so i can get my nofx backstage passport dvd (:

i was only excited for that. did not give a shit about my birthday cause i didn't get a tattoo.

Wed February 25, 2009, 3:16 pm: wants to see street dogs with someone, who wants to come with me?

no one wanted to. they cancelled anyway.

Tue February 24, 2009, 1:47 pm: NOFX'S NEW ALBUM RELEASED THE DAY I SEE THEM :'DD

Sun February 22, 2009, 12:55 pm: is thinking how close NOFX is, and is rather excited ♥


Mon February 16, 2009, 4:12 am: is pissed off with play.com ¬__¬

they sent me bullet for my valintine cd instead of an alkaline trio one. i still have it. never opened or anything.

Tue February 10, 2009, 10:30 am: wishes it was yesterday again

Mon February 9, 2009, 4:59 pm: !!!!!!!alkaline trio was mamamamamazing :'D

Mon February 9, 2009, 8:13 am: NEW BLINK ALBUM ANNOUNCED -droooooools- + alk3 tonight :'D

Sun February 8, 2009, 12:32 pm: ALKALINE TRIO TOMORROW!!!!!

i like alk3 more now. and blink-182 i'm still excited for blinks album.

Wed February 4, 2009, 3:08 pm: has a new hair cut, and is rather confused at the italian girl who got arrested

the italian exchange student who was with us shoplifted glasses from H&M, LOL!

Wed January 28, 2009, 5:37 pm: looooooooooooooved mindless self indulgence (':

it was good. i met jimmy, steve and kitty. i paid a stupid amount to see 1 band i liked, and 3 others who i didn't care for. BMTH dropped out, so that was okay.

Fri January 9, 2009, 2:29 pm: Coener house 1i

that was the day i properly met who is now my sisters fiance. he got me drunk.

Sat January 3, 2009, 12:01 pm: Is busing it til the roof falls off with liv (on the 40)

we were so hyper. the number 40 bus the week before had the roof pulled off cause the driver had a panic attack and went under the wrong bridge, which was too small.

Thu January 1, 2009, 8:59 am: thinks her room smells like whiskey and something sickly

new years was a quiet night in, til my sister came home with pink champange for me.

Sat December 13, 2008, 2:13 pm: miami ink :]

i'm not obsessed with miami ink much anymore. but that was around about the time i was.

Sat December 13, 2008, 7:05 am: FINALLY got a socialvibe pink ball in the post

it hasn't came out my bedside drawers since. LOL.

Sun December 7, 2008, 5:16 am: waiting to go for my job interview

still don't have one.

Tue December 2, 2008, 12:16 pm: is the cure on?

yeah, thats what i said when i was drunk the night before.

Mon December 1, 2008, 1:25 pm: I DONT LIKE THIS OR

Mon December 1, 2008, 12:51 pm: JATES EVERYTHIN STUPID ME!

my first drunken facebook statuses.

Wed November 12, 2008, 12:12 pm: no wait actually, ugly.

Wed November 12, 2008, 12:10 pm: yes.

LMAO, NO COMMENT.

Sat November 8, 2008, 4:46 pm: + leyla + mark + branden + jimmy + melvin = BABANOOBA

that was a good in-joke, but it didn't last long.

Sat November 1, 2008, 5:11 pm: met branden + lars from rancid :D t'was greaaaaaat!

it actually doesn't really emphasize how great it really was ):

Sat November 1, 2008, 4:35 am: is seeing rancid tonight!! -asdfghjkl;- :DD!

Sun October 26, 2008, 4:49 pm: is getting rancid tickets tomorrow :D

i like them more now.

Mon October 13, 2008, 3:36 pm: nofx sound check isn't public, FYI.

fat wreck chords emailed me and said i wasn't allowed in their sound check. LOL. stalker.

Mon October 13, 2008, 10:15 am: is scared about the tv people coming :S

my dad was offered to go on this BBC show. we never went on.

Sat October 11, 2008, 9:16 am: got her NOFX ticket! :]

Wed October 8, 2008, 4:12 pm: is TOTALLY GOING TO NOFX IN APRIL (H)

pretty much my initial reaction, posted straight to facebook.

Tue October 7, 2008, 12:50 am: is with LIVLYF2DAFUL + SHEBROWS
i forgot i had those nicknames for liv and leyla.


Sat September 20, 2008, 2:07 pm: is worried about travis barker ):
after the plane crash. fuck, i cried for 2 hours. i love travis.