i was far too tired to post last night, cause i felt like i had a lot to say

yesterday was a bit annoying, but good when it wasn't.

i decided to have my lie in because i knew i wasn't getting one today. it was quite alright. i missed the bus though, and i was worried i'd miss another.

photography went by so fasttt. leyla wanted to show toby the video she made, and she didn't want to be alone, so she made me wait with her. we were waiting in the corridor by the dark room. she was so hyper, and i guess it was contagious, and i kept walking out the dark room pretending to be the frankenstein monster, but i kept hesitating to do it properly incase she shit the door on me. but i stopped doing it and closed the door because it was getting silly.
then we were dicussing what was in the cleaners room, and we decided it was damien, our teacher from last year.
then laurie came and stood with us for a bit, and leyla said something about going in the dark room, and i said "THE LADY FROM THE SHININGS IN THERE"
and leyla screamed at the top of her lungs and ran into a corner. omg.
then toby came waltzing into the corrdior "is there any need for yous to be waiting out here? you have work to go in the classroom", totally forgetting the video.

so when leyla actually showed her presentation, she left me and toby for a bit, and we were talking about Nosferatu, which was possibly the coolest serious conversation i've had with toby wooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

me and alice were playing with the turtle and the armidillo, and i left alice with them making kissing noises, and it turned out toby and leyla were staring at is ahahaha.

oh my god, the bus journey with liv was one of the funniest.
she was talking about something that happened in media, and she was shouting 'fish fingers' on the bus, and the women in the seats infront turned around gave liv a hacky look. liv just doesn't control her voice on the bus hhahaha.

i checked my bank, and i have £7 for the easter holidays ):

we watched ed wood at her house. i knew she wouldn't enjoy it, she only liked johnny depp, BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

when i got home i argued with nailah on facebook cause she took my work home, and lied about not coming in for the exam. i was very angry at her.

this deserves its own post

over the weekend, i watched the shining for the first time. and i really enjoyed it, more than i expected to. consdiering it's quite a recent horror film, and i hate new horror films. possibly one of the best old films i discovered this year.
it also has inspired my art coursework in college, and i based a few postcards on ideas i thought through when i was watching the film.



that trailer is a joke, it the film is actually so much better than that tralier. it's the only one that doesn't give too much away.

today was okay.

art was ughjugiug. i was looking forward to actually talking to people, because the previous 2 days i ended up just staying in the house watching films, doing courswork. ugh.
i made a ton of postcards.
emma gave me some work to do over the holidays and i'm actually quite excited for it. i can't wait to get back to doing some old work again.

i spent the free dragging alice and liv around north sheilds looking for a doll.
oh and also yesterday i wrote my letter to damien echols. i'm really proud of myself for doing it because i thought i would never come around to it.
i sent that today, and it only cost 65p.

film was a skive. computers, again. no work done at all, but i did do quite a bit for film over the weekend, which i'm also proud of myself for.
also stupid racist cunt in my said leylas presentation was 'chink shit' again. yeah i forgot to tell her, and he's my 'friend' on facebook now so i couldn't put it on there. whatever.

art was okay the 2nd time around.
me and nailah were arguing, and emma (not the teacher) said "emmas lovley, but yous are arguing like an old married couple!"
and we were laughing for ages.

um.

okay so the leeds festival headliners have been announced.
blink is one of them.
nofx are one of the main stage acts aswell, but on a different date.
fml.
i've been so worked up about it. i couldn't go to one date, and miss out the next. but i can't stay there the whole weekend. ugh. my life sucks.

woah woaooowww

today was not as bad as i expected.

i spent the morning shitting myself, and missed the bus. got the bus to battle hill. didn't want to stay in the bus stop with the kids from my high school, so i walked to the next one. ended up being the only one there til my primary school best friend/high school enemy waited at the same stop. i knew it would happen. i knew she lived around there, i just thought it and tried to convince myself it wouldn't. ugh.
i was prepared to walk to the next stop, however the bus was coming soon. it ended up being very late. it was great.

it made me even more worried for today that all my predictions would be correct.

when i was walking into college, patrica ran up to me and said "i'm just going to your class to speak to jonathan now so you don't have to do the presentation"
i was relieved, but still nervous that she'd humiliate me.
when i got to the class leyla said "excited?" and she didn't believe me when i said i wasn't doing it.
after jonny spoke to patrica, he told us we didn't have to infront of everyone, and let us do coursework.

jonny kept making people go and do presentations, and then he came up to me and practically forced me to do it. he was determind to make me prove that i did work.

i was a little scared for it. i didn't even present it properly. i played the clip i wanted, then showed him what i wrote down.
he asked for my email adress, and he thought i said 'emma moor balls'
funny fynny.

during the free, me, nailah and leyla went for a chinese.
it was soooooooooooooo filling. i had loads and loads to eat, but i guess i got my moneys worth.
the funniest part was when i asked leyla and nailah if they got any cake, and nailah pointed at the cake i had on my plate and said "AYEE"

tutorial was nothing. i made peter mark me in and sort out the register, but i walked away realising i told him the wrong dates. oh well. money for me.

i went into town with leyla and we met sam.
sam bought alot of dvds.

i am far too tired now and can't be bothered to mention everything else in great detail. i'm glad i didn't go out for the drinks with everyone tonight jeeeeeze.

hate the living love the dead

i don't know how today was. i didn't like it much.

photography was okay. we had the new teacher. i forgot her name. she seemed nice enough, i think she'll be a better help than just toby.
plus she liked my frankenstein idea.

film was uggh. i didn't know what to do. leyla said we don't need to do a powerpoint, then johnny said we did, and whatever.
i didn't do an outline step for it, i thought i did but i mustn't have saved it ):
then he told us we had to do the presentation tomorrow. it's complusery, if you don't do it you get a u and 'frowned upon'. urgh.

and i panicked.
i felt like i'd never been more scared of anything. and it's just a presentation.
i don't like talking infront of people. it's hard enough saying things when the teacher asks me something in a lesson.

i spent lunch dwelling on the thought of presenting my work to the class, not even complete, not even done correctly. talking but constantly hesitating, and being laughed at.
i have horrible paranoia.

in art i couldn't even concentrate and i felt like crying thinking about it. emma came over to me, and said she'd email jonny. she ended up emailling patricia, the head of our year. she came to the class and took me to an empty classroom and made me explain why i didn't want to do it. she said i didn't need to contact jonny or anything, and she said she'd make sure i could do the presentation just to jonny and maybe another teacher if i have to.
but now i'm even more worried just incase she never got in touch with him in time to warn him about everything.

when i got home i did what i could of the prentation. then hours later, i realised i've done it wrong. great. lets hope i get more time over the weekend to do it.

pumkin head

today was aggiekbgriubg

i went to sleep at like 9pm last night, so it made me wake up really early. then i slept til 9am and got ready. i ended up missing the 10.30 bus that would get me to college in time, so i spent more time doing my make-up.
i decided to use this urban decay pencil liner my sister bought me, it was a nice purple shade. i put it on, and it stung, and i thought "eh i'll live with it"
then it felt like my eyes burst or something, and my eyes were in agony. i couldn't keep my hands away from my eyes though it was horrible.
i ended up going to college with macara being the only eye make-up i wore. i felt naked, i haven't done that for months.
this also resulted in me being late.

when i got on the 306, toby was on the bus too. i was like shit, i can't walk into college with him, so i ended up staying on an extra stop to avoid him. the bus journey was horrible though.

then when i go to photography, 2 students from the other class were there, and me. there was no way of leaving the class without being caught. so i stuck my things in.
i came up with a brilliant idea for my obsessions and passions though.

when i actually got to sneak out, i met alice, laurie and nailah on the stairs. nailah was going back to her lesson, and toby came out the class as she went in. it was awkward.

for enrichment, only me and luke turned up, and shotty was really shocked. then louise walked in late and shotty ranted to her about nothing.
when he did the register he called out every single name, and said 'absent'
even after all three of us said our names.
peter fell into the classroom, and made jokes to shotty, and me and louise ran out.

we went to town. umm, all i got was 'night of the living dead' and 'the shining'
which were both 18 films. i didn't get ID'ed, which i'm angry about. i may aswell have not waited til my birthday to get them.
and it wasn't even that long ago since i got ID'ed for mr deeds, which is a 12.
but at least i got a couple of points on my card, which i'm now becoming obsessive with.
purehmv and boots advantage points are going to kill me or something.
i should try and get every card scheme like that because i'll just get lots of points.

when i got home, i forgot about john roeckers happy hours. it was his first episode today, so i was rather excited.
he played a new the network song, and i was really sad, because it was actually rubbish. i barely sounded like any of their stuff. i have a feeling it may have been a joke.
yeah 2 hours of it. it really was time consuming, however i did enjoy listening to it, cause i barely listen to the radio.

dunno what to do now, no time for my films ):

OH YESS. when i came home i discovered the pencil liner was actually lip liner.

something else i thought i'd mention.

so apparently fat mike did some acoutsic show recently, and he ended up telling the audience how his mother asked for assisted suicide, and he ended up being the one killing her. thats basically the long story short.

but it's made me look at him in a different way. i feel really sorry for him.
i'm so lucky to have met him more than once in a day. he's a great guy. not exactly a saint, but thats whats great about him.

i don't even know the point of this blog. i just feel scared for him right now. i wish someone told the fans that he's okay or something.

a scream thats loud enough to wake the dead

today was better.

i spent the free on the computers with leyla and alice. most of the time was watching trailers, looking on the 'trivia' section on various actors imdb pages, which were funny.

and that video on repeat.

photography i did nothing. i was lazy, and kept waiting for toby to come to our table and point out where the glue was, even though there was like 4 sticks on the table. i don't even remember what most of the time we spoke about.
but we were talking about first words.

me and liv went to hmv in the silverlink. we spent half an hour or so in there looking for the 18 dvds i want, and they had none of them. also, i noticed most of the films are a little more expensive than in town. bitches.
i got the darjeeling limited, which is a poster in my film classroom. i also got it because i've heard that wes anderson is a good director. normally on imdb one of his films comes up as similar to most films i like.
liv thought wes anderson directed scream. i thought that was funny, because thats totally not the same guy.

at livs we ate pizza, and watched the corpse bride. i remembered the first ever time i stayed over at stacys house, we walked along to blockbuster and got it. that was the first time i saw the film too. everytime a character came on we pointed out who was each character. omg old times.

i got to finish my art of tim burton book today. i must say, it was really worth the money. it's made me more prepared for art. very inspiring. i may have to read it again soon. although, it's more of a browse, rather than a read.
i wish the pictures connected to my art subjects but i don't think they really do. i'll come back to it.

today was good.

first lesson what art. i was so nervous. laura, the student teacher spent more time with me in the lesson than nailah did. that says alot.
she tried to help me do my AS work, but she didn't realise emma was collecting all my AS to re-submit, rather than me doing it all again. i feel a bit sorry for laura because she really knows nothing about any of the art subjects she tries to do. it's not surprising my college have took her on though.
she really scared me aswell when she said "a-levels are nothing. they may seem hard now, but you haven't been to uni yet." and i don't know exactly what she said after that, but she ended it with "don't let these words pass these walls or to anyone else"
which i failed at straight away.
but i'm realieved i don't have that much art to get done. just the AS and A2 exams, and i'm going to start my A2 in the house this week. i'm quite excited for it right now if anything. i feel like i can start a fresh. i really wish next year i could do film and fine art, but there's only subjects like that along with history or media.

in the free i wanted to go to the royal quays to get a sketch book, blue tack and a doll. liv and laurie were 'too tired' to go, and then alice said she would go. then liv said she'd go too. i was like eeeeeee aye you do when alice does but when it's just me you won't :0
and laurie was upset by this too and went home.
we only ended up going into north sheilds anyway. i didn't get a book, but i did get liquorice, which i felt like i had to get because everyone else was getting something. i feel bad for getting them now.
i also got my lunch from the co-op there cause they have more options than the one by college. i did end up getting a differet one.

film was ehh.
the tables were all seperated, then johnny put them all back together again, which was pointlesssss.
we watched city of god, which i still found myself unable to enjoy. i'm concerned that that part of my exam won't be pleasurable. same with american history x though, oh my goddddd.
i drew more people on the back of my book. it's a nice collection. i did a perfect cartoon one too, which i don't know weither it should be shared via my blog really.

art was okay. some french woman broke the photocopier, and it wasn't joelle. i felt like i didn't have much to do. but my cupboard is getting fuller, but more boring than i thought it would be. i need to bring my camera into college to photograph the production of it. it also means i can post them online :)

i was invited to see 'shutter island' at very short notice, and i wasn't sure if i would even make it on time, but i did.
i am so glad i didn't miss it. although the editing in the film was annoying and not very well done, i thought it was brilliant. it reminded me of fight club mostly, but with an obvious martin scorsese style added to it. i also enjoyed the scene that was almost similar to the opening sequence of 'don't look now'. i hope that was supposed to be like that.

on the way home, it was very scary. i don't even know why. past the forum in the dark, someone stopped walking, and they stood somewhere where light couldn't shine on them. i felt like it would take forever to get home, when it only should be a 3 minute walk ):
and there were lots of chavs. there were 2 in the backlane before mine, and i'm sure they were going to follow me once they saw me, or something.
i don't even know why i was so scared, i was terrified though.

i do enjoy how lengthy this blog is though.

today was quite alright for a sunday.

well i felt sad all morning. i don't really know why.
actually, i was a bit stressed out on the thought of how much work i actually have, and now my whiteboard is all college related things to do. i think i may have to not rely on nailah when she comes and goes from lessons when she pleases.
she is good company, but when i used to do art with no friends in the class i got so much more done.
also i'm shitting my photography. i know it's a laugh, but it's probably my weakest subject. also considering i sit with leyla and alice who are so talented at photography anyway, it puts me under so much more pressure. they make it seem so easy ):
and my application for the place in sunderland hasn't came yet. i haven't added anything else to my personal statment for days. ugh.

but i got my tim burton book today.
it's amazing. i've only been through 100 pages so far, but it was better than what i was expecting. i'm so pleased that i'm one of a small number of people who own a copy of that book.
also there's such a cute part in it that helena bonham carter said and i feel like i have to share. she said some man stopped her when she was having a pub lunch in the country side and said to her "sorry i keep staring, but i can't help but think you look like something tim burton has drawn. do you know who i mean?" and she goes "not only am i married to him, but i have 2 children with him" and the guy saw tim and was gob smacked.
hahaha :)

today was ehh.

my mam was going to take me to see alice in wonderland again, but we ended up not going.

spent 6.30 - 10pm in town.
it was okay, i've had better nights. it was my first legal drinking session, and i only had 2 drinks.
i made too much of a fuss to spend time with helena and pheobe, cause i literally only spent 2 minutes with them.

okay my life these days is shit, and i feel like nothing is done about it, or no one seems to be helping me in any way.

yesterdaaaayyyyyy

was okay.

film was awkward.
johnny pointed out my clockwork orange hoodie i bought from camden. and since we're doing it for the exam, when we were onto that part he said "now we're going to watch emmas jumper" and everyone stared at me.

then the second part of the lesson we did something about going to the cinema. johnny brought up something about going to see a film for particular actors, and then he said "but i'm guessing louise and emma went to see alice in wonderland for tim burton"

nailah and leyla and myself went into town for a boots meal deal. we met alice an hour later, and stayed in town for a bit.

i was late for tutorial and there was a meeting in my classroom. awkwardddd.
ended up leaving not long after and went to wallsend with louise.
she wanted to go to the new sweet shop, and ended up not looking for the sweet she wanted. she got a free sweet out of it though aha.

i watched coraline when i got home, and ate chocolate and drank wine.

now i have to decide what to wear tonight, ogogogogogo,.

quick blog cause skins is on

today was alright i guess.

photography consisted of doing nothing. alice, leyla and me made a list of words to make toby to say. he said none of them.
i made weird drawing things on pages from heat magazines.

i finally applied for the art fund.

film was silly. i don't want to do my presentation infront of the class.

art was quick and almost pointless. i scanned my fake blood thingys, and warwick walked in and scared nailah. she thought we'd be told off.

i went into town to buy the tim burton book, but my dad talked me out of it.
i did buy big fish and one flew over the cukcoos nest, which was my first 18 film that i got myself.

yeah i'm so tired.

today was not that great.

i kept waking up in my sleep to clear my throat. i'm pretty certain during the night at a few points i forgotten how to breathe. it's hideous in the mornings too.

my phone kept dying everytime i wrote a text, unless i was superfast. it wouldn't let me log into facebook either ):

first lesson what photography. the 'goths' as leyla describes them joint the table with ours, and even took leylas seat, as if they normally sit there. we pushed the table away when they were all gone though.
i didn't do any work.
we were even burning things.

lee was late for enrichment. i was the only girl again. lee stood at the otherside of the class with all the boys, and shouted "HEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLOO YOU"
and he called me louise. he was interupted by patrica, which lead me to walking out the class with everyone else.
everyone who was going to town already left, so i ended up going home.

i wanted to see frankenstein at the cinema, but i ended up missing out, which i pretty much saw coming.

joe came over though. he wanted to borrow my beach boys cd.
we went on chat roulette, which was funny.

oh but i know what i want to get with my birthday money.

'the art of tim burton' hard cover book for £50
434 pages, with 1,000 illistrations and over 10 multi-page gatefolds.
apparently it's for any tim burton collector or fan. the only place in the UK that they sell it is forbidden planet.
and this is the only time i've had enough money to spend it on something like that.
it even costs more than how much it did to meet him personally. bizarre.
unless i get the deluxe edition for £190, but i don't know what much more you get than the same thing with an autograph. i already have his autograph :')

18th birthday

so yesterday was my 18th birthday.
i thought i did very well.

i'm going to remember everything i got now.

parents and sophie:

pink dr marten boots,
pink skull candy headphones,
'501 movies you must see' book,
alice in wonderland bag,
the cure triology dvd,
coraline dvd,
fear and loathing in las vegas dvd,
the cure t-shirt,
joy division t-shirt,
a floral top,
jeggings,
floral shoes,
lots of knickers,
jellie beans,
a handbag photo frame,
4 bottles of stella atrios and a glass,
a bottle of champange,
an alice in wonderland inspired bracelet,
leopard print shoes,
little mermaid perfume,
a pink rabbit ornament,
lots of nail varnish,
a few make-up thingys,
a pink jewellry box,
a floral handbag

i'm also getting a tattoo from them.

and other things:

grandma and grandad: a matching charm bracelet and necklace.
auntie teresa: a london pattern box, with a photo album inside.
auntie karen & uncle michael: a 18 photo frame
auntie sheila, uncle remo and lisa: a mini 2010 diary, pen, sunglasses and nail varnish.
rest of the family: about £400

liv: another the cure t-shirt
alice: champagne, sideways dvd & brick dvd
laurie: a lush set
louise: £10 HMV voucher & alice in wonderland earrings.

i think thats it.
i have a feeling i've forgotten things. if there is, i may add them on laterrrr.

the only chance to write about yesterday

it was funny

art was HORRIBLE though. i found out i have to resit 2 units, which will be £21.50 each, £43 altogether. there was no way i would be able to do a photography re-sit which i knew i did alot worse in.

oh but the student art teacher found a foundation film & media course for me to do in sunderland. at the moment i'd like to do that rather than the one in newcastle college. i would like to do the one in sunderland uni too, but i'm probably not going to get in that one if i tried.

in the free a beacon hill kid came into amigos with his pants fully down. it annoyed me that they have to share the dinner hall.
also one came up to liv and forced her hood down. it was funny, but they really need some control rather than fucking around with the students who are probably minding their own bussiness.

film was skive. we decided to go in the computer room, which ment picturessss rather than work (:
that was terrible of me though, i'm stressed with the thought of how much work i have to do.

art was worse than the first one. nailah ditched me, and i was bored. i left early to hand in my resit form. someone mentioned about stabbing people in queues just as i walked in the room. i think i took their space in the queue. i wouldn't care if they did stab me to be honest, at least i'd still have £43 to go towards my funeral rather than the stupid resit.

when i got home me and my sister were singing grease in opera style.
there has got to be a version of that. please.

the frank turner was good.
the support bands weren't what i was expecting (the crazy arms & chuck ragen) this gig was definatly different than any other i've been to.
frank turner performed amazing aswell. he's such a great live performer, and he was also higher than my expectations. and i have to say i do like his music better now that i've saw it live.
although, during the end of the gig, i found it difficult to breathe, and my legs became weak. my sight was blurred as if i was really really dizzy or drunk. i was so tired, and i lost all concentration for the gig, and i felt like i was going to die or something. it was a horrible moment ):
but aside from that moment, i had a good time.

today is my birthdaaaaay though, and i'll blog latersssss.

today was funnnnnnn

i went into topwn with joe for mothers day gifts.
we went to spud-u-like and thats probably the best thing that happened cause it was the onlt thing i bought.

i watched american psycvho for the first time, and got a lot of interuptions, and ended up watching it til i had to leave.
i really did enjoy it though. fucking love patrick bateman okay wonna fight about it?

the party was enjoyable.
i spent most of the time with leyla, laurie, liv and alice.
but it was a gooooooood time.
oh and i got ID'ed and liv didn't. cut. my. kluife. into. prices.

my mam and dad are so drunk.

WHIP IT

today was very very good (:

film was a skive. johnny gave us all little talks about our work, and mine being about edward scissorhands lead to tim burton, and the fact i met him. he laughed when he heard i was crying and he said "were you crying because he spoke" and i said "no because he's been my hero since i was 13!"
i feel like he was totally unconvinced. he played them to the class and everyone was like o_o
luckily not everyone was there. but johnny said "if it weren't for the people screaming in the background, and it was just you crying and tim speaking, then that would be very sinister"
and we played the video with leyla screaming to alan rickman. the speakers in the room perfectly picked up the "I BEG YOU" sounding bit.
me and leyla always cry a little at those videos, so it was so awkward.

me, nailah and leyla ended up going to town, just for a boots meal deal, and a moment in 7 days for nailah to buy crisps.
but i enjoyed the quick visit to town, its a shame the journey is longer.

for tutorial we had a meeting thing, and i ended up avoiding peter to meet leyla to go for the bus with her. i saw him at the otherside of the doors waiting for me to walk up and i felt shit about it. but he knows i didn't plan to go to uni, so is there much point for me going to it (even though i would like tooooooo poopopo)

i wasn't home long until i met liv and leyla. we took the long journey to alices house playing logical games, which i haven't done since stacy used to stay over. hahaa.

at alices we ate chinese, watched raising helen, went on chat roulette, and had a laugh. i really enjoyed this night ehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

raising helen has whip it by devo in it and it will forever be in my head.
and now yours

i can't be bothered to type this, i am so tired. sorry it'll probably be shit.
but today was good.

i missed the bus, and i made liv miss it too, and she was angry at me tehehehehehe.

photography was better than yesterday. we had our tables seperated again. but still the shit part of not being able to do our own work.
we had to do this task where we remembered our favourite toy as a child. i remembered my plastic toy panda. awwww :)

i ended up not staying for the art lesson, and missing the bus home, resulting in me and leyla walking around town listening to the busker band. we tried to see which people fit with the music, but it was too happy for the residents of newcastle.

nailah fancies a hemaphrodite.

today was good.

had a nice lie in. i woke myself up at a perfect time. got the 17 bus to college, for the first time in a long time.
photography was the same as yesterday, toby waffling on. he stopped me at one point to ask if i was okay because i looked sad, which was weird. scary man.

in enrichment lee did the same. he said something like "don't be sad" and he told me to smile more than once. everytime he looked at me he gave me a sympathetic look, which is quite scary coming from him. you can never tell if he's sarcastic or not.

oh by the way, i'm not sad about anything.
i felt like i was in high school again everyone thinking i was miserable.

i left enrichment early when no one was looking. we were doing about procastination, and ironiclly, being there was a waste of time, as i just sat with the webpage about it all lesson, scrolling it up and down, when i could be doing something more worthwhile. i missed the bus, and ended up getting the bus the time everyone else gets it.

i met my sister in town to get things for chris' birthday and things for mothers day. it was nice spending time with my sister without fightingggggg.

have a little priest.

today was fine.

i spent my free quietly in the upstairs part of college. i was sorting out next year on UCAS, and i had no problem with that. just couldn't be bothered to do a personal statement, and pick other courses to take up the space.
i ended up sitting by leyla and watching videos about buscemi. did i spell it right this time?

also, just before photography, i went to the co-op for a snack, and ended up getting a pasta pot which i usually get for lunch. when i went outside i was interviewed by a woman that had lumps on her face. i got bored during it, recieved nothing, and never got to look at the giant smelly sausage dog walking by properly.

in photography we were all gathered around together. it was awkward, and as if it never happened. the class doesn't need this to happen! we wrote down what we loved and hated, pretty similar to last lesson. then toby asked for us to have our picture taken, and i made him take a picture of my feet.

at livs we watched sweeney todd. oh and we ate ice cream with nutella and brownies, which made us really hyper. and i was basically screaming along to the songs and probably ruining it for liv. however, the songs have never been so stuck in my head everrrrr.

then not long later, i met leyla. it's one of the first times i've had no problem with getting on the bus to the metro centre and back. although the bus drivers both took a long time to read it, which scared me.
we saw 'i love you phillip morris' which we had wanted to see for a looooooong time. i enjoyed it, but i was expecting better. it was quite sad. but i thought it was a cute story aswell.
oh and the cinema screens at the cinema are tiny compared to the room.

i'm so tiredd. it's a week til my birthday, and i'm not excited at all.
oh shit i forgot about frank turner too.

boot stamping on a human face forever

today was alright.

me and liv missed the bus to college that got us there in time, which resulted me going into an empty form classroom, and making me late for art.
art annoyed me. just because i was so excited to use the gum tape, and it turned out terribly wrong.
i was also informed that my work from last year had been cut up and put in a sketch book. i've been recommended to resit both the exam and the coursework, which apparently will cost £17 each. then nailah told emma that we go to town on friday afternoons and we should be doing art then.
i'm rather worried. i think i'll get into the course i intend to whatever grade i get for art.

i spent the free with liv and laurie, and alice but she left early.
liv let me go on her ipod. oh. my god. we played trace, which i'm obviously an expert at.

then film.
my lunch made me hyper. i drew people who leyla told me to, which was steve bushimi, alan rickman, sam, herself, her alter ego. and i drew liv too, just because i could.
niki said something like "i did it in media last night with the teacher"
and leyla was laughing for ages, and i couldn't stop laughing at her. i laugh at too many people when they laugh.

art was shit. i just painted, and argued with nailah.
we didn't stay for all of art. she spent the walk to the bus stop describing why she won't use facebook to upload photos. seriously, she can talk forever about nothing.
her bus came before mine, which isn't normal. my bus was 5 minutes late, then when i got on, literally every single seat was taken, apart from the disabled one because there was a wheelchair and a pram.
then when everyone got off, every single kid from burnside got on ¬__¬

when i got home i spoke to my sister for an hour or so.
i didn't get any post ):
i should stop paying attention, because i'll probably not get anything from who i expect any time soon.

chain of flowers

today was okay.

basically spent the majority of the day at grandmas party. it was a nice and quite warm day today, made me excited for the summer time.

i feel bad for missing out on the gig with louise tonight though.

this is possibly the worst blog i have ever posted on here, oh my god. someone please inspire me.

give me a moment

today was fun

i was late for meeting liv, alice and leyla.
we did a photo shoot in livs backyard, which was chav themed. we used this weird heated fake blood that dried on you.
we then sat in livs room and watched the inbetweeners.
we eventually had to leave cause livs brother hurt himself.

i was locked out the house for half an hour cause my dad was fast asleep. reminds me of that day in december when i was going to be late for nadines birthday.

oh and i made 5 minute chocolate mug cakes for everyone, and mine had to be the burnt and shit one, with the egg in the middle barely mixed in. ):

yeah i'm bored with typing today.

why can't i be you?

today was great.

today was the only day i was early for the normal bus, but i still got the later one for leyla. we hardly rely on the buses anymore, just on the time we take.

film was aweful. we watched 2 documentries on basically different opinions on shocking old film. umm, pointless.

leyla, nailah and myself went into town for the free. we didn't do much, just looked for food. we went to ho's buffett and bought a box of chinese food, like the day we saw boy in striped pyjamas last year.

back at college, tutorial was the biggest waste of time ever, considering i wanted to get changed before i went back out. peter got the connexions meeting date wrong. ugh.
me and louise were looking up cult film dvds that i'd like for my birthday. idek what i want for my birthday.

i basically spent 5 minutes home, then made my way to the cinema.
yuuuuum.

i'd never been so excited for a film. infact, i've never spent so much money for this particular film. me and leyla had spent £80+ on it and not even seen it yet.
i thought it was superb! very different to what everyone was expecting, even though i'm certain everyone was aware it would have a few differences to the original disney film.
another brilliant take on a story by tim burton. i loved it too.
that guy is a geniussss.

i'm so tired now. i was starving for a long time cause i was scared of my mothers friend. um.

today was okay.
just a bit sad, thinking how much of a good time i had last week.

photography was one of the worst ones. toby brought in his vinyls, and i did forget my camera. i took a bunch of shite photos of his vinyls piled together, and ones of people holding the face ones over their faces. oh, how original ¬__¬
i hate how much i was looking forward to doing these photos, and how bad they were.

film was boring. i don't even know if i want to do about fight club, but the whole lesson was centred around it. i enjoy the film, but at least give everyone time to decide. poo.

lunch was weird. nailah, laurie and jill were on one table, and alice, liv and myself were on the other one, and we were opposite each other, but still talking.

emma wasn't in for art, but i still stayed for the full lesson, which was good of me, cause hardly anyone did.
i built an extra floor for my cupboard/house thing.

i met liv afterwards. we were bitiching about someone on the bus, and then she said something like "that fat fucking cunt", then the woman infront of us said "HOW DARE YOU SWEAR ON THE BUS, KEEP QUIET"
and when she got off the bus a few stops later, liv said "who the FUCK was she?"
haha, so like liv not to say it when she was there.

i didn't get post today ):
skins is on now, byeeeee.

japanese dream.

today was good.

lieee in. i waited for post, but i couldn't cause of college. i decided to go a different way too, and that resulted in me being too early. so all day i was dwelling on if post came or not.

photography involved me talking to toby for the majority of the lesson. it was weird without leyla. toby was determind for me to do some work, and i think i have done quite alot of written work latley, it's just slowing me down with the picture taking. he arranged to bring some records for me tomorrow to photograph, which will be awkward, cause then it's his work. i'll end up forgetting my camera too.

lunch cost a fucking lot today for nothing. i thought the ressesion was over? pfft to that, i only got a wrap thing, and fruit shoot for £3.50!

for enrichment we had lee, the bussiness studies teacher. i was told he was scary. when i came in he introduced himself to just me, and made me introduce my self, then i got to tell him my life story about london. he seemed alright.
but then when the lesson started he became a psycho. he asked everyone in the class to predict the football results, and name players and stuff.
he also said all my subjects weren't proper lessons. whatever.
i have 4 more lessons with him too, dear god.

i then went to the silverlink with liv to meet leyla and buy alice in wonderland tickets.
i forgot to show my student card, so i had to pay full price, get a refund which will take 5 days to transfer, and pay again.
at least i'm going omggggg i'm so excited.

i can't believe i didn't post yesterday :o

i literally had nothing stopping me.

well it was good. first day back at college, felt like a new start altogether.
in art i didn't really do anything. i didn't paint my cupboard.
the student teacher kept bringing up tim burton related things such as big fish and the new alice in wonderland film, and i was like obgtuiougtbrbkgtj i met him ):

film was awkward. johnny brought up the premiere, but just said "someone hasn't seen all the film because they met johnny depp instead" then everyone looked at leyla going "oooooommmmmmmgggggg" or whatever
i was thinking "um tim burtons film. met him too. me.."
yeah i suppose i've always been invisable in most situations.

art was the first time i spent the full time there. i made a TON of postcards. millions. i brought one home to keep incase i don't get to keep any for myself.

then nailah dragged me into shields for art supplys. i was so tired, and missed a bus because of her. the bus i wanted after that was late too.

when i got home i tried my first ever 5 minute chocolate mug cake. i enjoyed it. although we used hot chocolate rather than proper coaco, so i can imagine that'll make it nicer.

might aswell do todays one too.

today was nice.

i spent my free block with louise, cause the upstairs computer area meant i'd be sitting alone. we ended up watching tim burton and johnny depps interview again. good times.

then in photography toby was in. gutted. but it wasn't a normal lesson which i'm alright about. we had to list a few passions and obsessions, and it was fun seeing what leyla and alice put.
then toby asked leyla if she was obsessed with anything, she just said "no"
oh yeah we asked him who would win in a fight charles manson or frankenstein.
leyla thought manson, i thought frankenstein, alice didn't know.
toby thought frankenstein too.
next we intend to ask him if he strangled someone. fingers crossed he did.

then i went to livs and we watched edward scissorhands. she'd never seen it before, and it was so funny seeing her "awww" at everything, and i joined in too.
and there were serious moments in where i explained stuff to her, i felt like such a smart fan.

now i think i have to tidy up, and maybe i'll watch something else.