i guess i haven't done a real post for a while.

being an adult is stupid. it's the first time i've had a birthday and felt like i'd actually grew up a year.
i realise i haven't really mentioned that i pretty much spent my birthday by having an italian meal followed with lots of wine that i didn't pay for.

other than that, i've been busy like you'll never believe. in college everyday this week. editing lots. work ended up being 2 days late (technically 1, but whatever) meaning -10% which is fucking annoying considering the amount of effort myself and 1 (and maybe another) other crew member(s) put in (there's 5 of us)
i feel like i've actually gone mental from it. first the essay, now this. i was sitting crying with laughter at something whilst i'd been editing for 11 hours, and when i looked back at it the next day, i didn't even remember why.
i'm feeling kind of worried about how next year is going to pan about, so i've decided i'm going to try even harder for everything else. i do feel like i try a lot more than most other people in my class, but i still think it's far from the best. i don't know how to put it, i guess i want people in my class to see that i'm getting better.

i finally watched drive. so gutted i missed it at the cinema. so it made me decide that i don't ever miss a film i want to see at the cinema again. i've been to the cinema alone a couple of times now, so even if i don't find anyone i can't go with, it doesn't mean i can't go.
another thing i got from the film; perfect sound. really. this film and the film michael that i saw a few weeks ago have made me want work within the sound area of feature films. it's really changed things for me. i remember the teacher asked on the very first day of college if anyone would consider working on sound, and only 1 person put their hand up. i never imagined that i actually would want to. the funny thing is, i remember the teacher saying that more people should consider it, because it's underrated and there's not many aspiring sound recordists out there.
yeah, i haven't actually spoke about drive. i suppose i'm just going to go on about how well made it is. because it really is. with the title, you'd expect this silly hollywood action car chase sort of film. but it's really far from that. i guess having ryan gosling as the main character doesn't make the argument very convincing, and especially not right now considering almost every woman out there wants to have his babies. but this is probably the best performance he will ever do.

only other film i watched since has been marie antoinette, which i kind of enjoyed. there were some flaws in the cinematography that really annoyed me. don't understand why they couldn't have got the extra shots again? fucking hell, sofia coppla is meant to have flawless film making in her blood! but i think it was really girly, and i felt it wasn't a real period drama sort of film. it made me miss paris a lot.

been working on my own film. it's involes the internet, a teenage girl, a swedish bloke, and paedophilia. i'm putting a lot of thought into it, even though it probably isn't ever going to be made.

okay idk

birthday blog. god i'm an ADULT, are you really kidding. i feel so much older.

i don't want to look braggy braggy but i actually got a lot considering i asked for 3 things. here's what i got off my parents:

badge it machine,
biker goggles,
drive (dvd),
black and white polka dot shorts,
burgandy and beige polka dot dress,
cream sheer blouse,
long sleeved black top,
2 bras,
h&m duvet cover,
massive box of chocolates (don't remember the make, they're actually all still there too JEEZUS),
those fruit jelly sticks,
vo5 shampoo & conditioner,
2 bottles of shaving foam (idk),
um cheapy asda socks (idk),
face wipes,
nail foils,
nail varnish remover pen,
bottle of shiraz wine.

off my sister:

marc jacobs 'lola' perfume gift set,
massive tub of sweetie pie body jelly from lush,
whoopie pie, cookies and macaroon recipe book,
hotel chocolat birthday box,
cupcake earrings,
purple and blue nail varnishes.

off leyla:
seth rogen handbook,
HEROES THE NOVEL xxx,
steve zissou cap apparently (not got one yet)
also worth mentioning the funky pigeon card that has a collage of cam from modern family on the front (everyone thinks it's seth rogen)

other people things:
hair cut and back combing brush - auntie teresa
warren jacobs diamond necklace - chris
handmade denim shorts bag (omg) - lucy
a crunchie and a chomp bar (omg) - lewi
bottle of sparkling rose - auntie anne & uncle steven
lots of money that i've lost count of that WAS going to go towards my dream dress
pint of rose wine - manager of the corner house
taxi ride - taxi driver
pizza and chips - blokes at aroma pizza

i shouldn't be doing this blog, been insisting on doing work for 2 hours now, but i still haven't got around to it. i suppose doing this is better than doing nothing?

i'm really obsessed with the last 2 films i saw at the cinema.
on thursday i had a really crappy day, and i decided to cheer myself up with a red velvet cupcake and a trip to the cinema alone. was SO worth it. i saw this austrian film called 'michael'. the cinematography, the performances, the use of sound, and pretty much everything else about the film was perfect. it was made so cleverly, i swear, europeans make some of the best films but they never seem to get any recognition? i came out of the cinema literally shaking i was so nervous. when i got home and read about it even more, i just fell more and more in love with the film. it's beaten the descendants as my favourite film of the year (sorry alexander payne, i still love you dearly)
i had to share the trailer, oh man.



then last night i got free tickets for 21 jump street. i'd actually been wanting to see it since i started to follow jonah hill on twitter, and he'd post photos from on set. i wasn't expecting it to be funny, but i ended up laughing a lot. it was really surprising.

so if you want to go to the cinema any time soon, i recommend both of those films. chances are, you'll probably like one of them. if you like both, that's even more super.
i just want to go to the cinema forever, it's so cool these days. (except i didn't really mention i also saw wanderlust last week and it was okay) (did i mention jack and jill the week before? whoops i really did see that)

can't believe it's nearly my 20th birthday, i just want to be a kid forever.
i kind of realised today, i'm probably going to be one of those adults that's not really mature and no one can take seriously. which is kind of sad, but it's the closest to being a kid forever.

maybe i should do work now. i haven't even done a proper post but HI, BYE.

been proper busy lately. i'm not as busy as i was, but really, are you kidding college work?
there was 3 days last week where i stayed at college til 9 or 10. dedication. i hope i get something good from it, because i really am trying now.

obsessed with walking cause i got a pedometer. i walk a lot more than i realise (i did 24,000+ steps one day, omg)  except today it went silly and reset my count. gutted.

was 2 year anniversary of meeting tim burton, and i died a little. missed meeting him in paris yesterday. did a singing at the same place the stanley kubrick exhibition was on. place was lovely, would loved to have been able to go see tim burton's stuff and meet him again so i can cry like alice in wonderland in his face again.

booked my kapow ticket!!!!!!! london in may excitemonte~~

yea idk i'm getting worse at writing these blogs.

got my hair done for my birthday and my streak got the chop. black fringe. turquoise slightly dip-dye. i feel ODD. i want to have silly hair colours forever, and i think i'm okay with that.

i wish i had more interesting things to share, but i guess i can't even be bothered to elaborate much on the things i actually have mentioned.