i got my first tattoo yesterday. i'm so excited that i finally have one, been waiting since i was a kid. it literally took 10 minutes to do, and it didn't hurt as much as i expected. one of the reasons i got this was to see if i could handle the pain if i ever wanted more, and i do. but here it is.

i love it so much. it really represents a lot of things personal to me. it's for my love for blink-182. i know it's not really the best reflection of the type of band they are, but ghost on the dancefloor is a song i feel like i can connect to the most out of any other. i get chills every time i hear it, and i cried the first time i heard it live. this band are a big part of my life, and they are one of the main things that helped me cope through my adolescence. so i suppose you could say it's a tribute to them.
another reason why i love the song so much is that it reminds me that the people i can no longer be with are always there. i miss my grandma every day, and even though i know she wouldn't be happy about me getting a tattoo for her, i feel like this is partly for her.
also, analysing my own dreams is something that interests me a lot. i love to dream, it's my favourite thing to do. dreams have created ambitions for me, and  i suppose the tattoo is a reminder that i shouldn't give up on them, since they've always lead me to good things.
it was also pretty specific that i wanted it to be in futura. i've fallen in love with the typeface because of how neat it looks. the reason why i'm in love with the font is because of wes anderson. for the past couple of years i've been pretty big on his films, and he has opened me up to a lot of new films. if i ever lose interest in his work (i hope not), i guess the font would take me back to the time when i did enjoy his films.

so i have put a lot of thought into the tattoo, and it isn't just a silly blink-182 tattoo like people were expecting. i've really opened up a lot about this, but i feel the need to share it.

i guess i haven't really went back to continue my tenacious d/nofx/blink post. so i suppose i have to do this one to mention: oh my god, i'm going to manchester tomorrow to see blink-182 again~

i'm meant to be packing now, but i've been sitting with a carrier bag on my head dying my hair for like 2 hours or something now. i'm the worst at packing. i was at work all day yesterday, then i went to the cinema afterwards to see dark horse, (which was amazing btw) it was like 10.45 when i got home, and i was dead.

suppose i'm going to try and get ready now. WISH ME LUCK.

i swear i'm working on a tenacious d/nofx/blink-182 super post, but it's really taken me longer than ever to finish. but really, they're some of my favourite memories of this year. some parts even considered some of my favourite memories ever ever ever.

today i graduated. whilst my dad was taking my photo of me wearing my gown and hat, i was thinking "am i really this old already??" it was just so bizarre.
i was surprised that 7 other classmates turned up, i didn't think anyone really cared that much. i don't regret going to college. honestly, at first i thought i would regret doing the course in the end, mostly because it was all so sudden, and it wasn't even my first choice. when i left 6th form college i wanted to be a screenwriter, and this course never exactly focused on that. imagine how different things could've been for me. without the course, i could have missed out on a lot of things that i currently love.
i remember starting the course and strictly thinking that i'm only ever going to write films, and perhaps edit from time to time. right now, as of this past year, i think any sort of sound production work in film would be my ideal job (working anywhere in europe, as long as i lived in paris)
i'm looking forward to what my next year has to bring, but at the same time, so nervous. the way things have been so far, i don't think i have anything to worry about. 
i think one of the main things i learnt is; my life is fine, despite often thinking otherwise.


also, i'm working again. my first job again. the people at my last job are a bunch of worthless people, and it's a shame that some of my family still have to bother with them at all. i shouldn't really look into the negatives, at least i'm earning money.


i don't know, i just feel so happy after typing this out. it's an usual feeling of content. my life really isn't all that bad.