Monday, 30 November 2009

i guess i just wasn't made for these times.

today was okay.

this morning i was still a bit drunk. i constantly annoyed my mam by calling her 'catherino' :')

OH MY LORD. on the bus i saw a dog being followed by another dog that was sniffing the dogs bum holeeeee. it reminded me of liv.

when i got to college, i told emma i was still drunk, then she said something to me, and i said "what?" like 20 times, then nailiah just changed the subject by shouting "I'M SO TIRED"
then me and nailiah niked off to amigos. elaine made nailiah a hash brown sandwich, and she dropped it. i was pissing myself laughing. it wasn't that funny.

it was funny to see how annoyed liv and leyla were at louise.
in photography louise ran into the cupboard when alice did, then leyla shouted "YEAH GO ON IN THERE WITH ALICE YOU LESBIAN"

i spoke to stacy properly today. it was good.

oh well. today i've mainly been confused about yesterday. apparently vince bought me and nadine a bottle of wine. so we had 4. christ.
i don't remember much.

i'm excited for tomorrow. i'm going to put on a movie in a minute. listening to the beach boys. oh my lord, why wasn't i alive in the 60's? i'd do anything to be in that decade. i love ittt. kind of obsessive.
seriously though, the title of this blog is a beach boys song. listen to it, and think of me.

what actually happened

me and nadine were supposed to be going for a coffee, which ended up being 3 bottles of wine. here's some random events that were contained in those few hours.

in the percy arms, some guy came up to us and said "s'cuse me, do you think those are new shoes or he just cleans them?" and started talking for ages. he then made a joke which i didn't understand and said "how old are you?" "18" then he looked concerned "you can trust me, i'm not going to tell anyone" and i went "do you want me to be younger like?!" then even more concerned "NONONONONO" then nadine went "paedophile.."
haaaa. he thought i was completely offended by him, and shook my hand and asked for our names. although nadine said "whoops" and the guy refered to her as oop.
also, a few people complimented nadines hat. and it was also an excuse to follow us to the next bar. it was creeeeeeeepy.

then in the dog and parrot, vince was there with his friends. i forgot what i said to him, i was aware i mentioned leyla alot cause he is easily annoyed at her mention.
yeah apparently i left without nadine. i don't remember getting back at all. i think they forced me to leave.
i can remember falling down on the seats in wallsend and phoning stacy the conversaiton went like this:
"hello oh my god it's been ages since we spoke!"
"yeah.. i'm drunk."
i hate how that was excuse to talk to her, but at least we're actually going to speak again.


yeah can't be bothered to say anymore to be honest cause there's things i've forgot. i didn't even think i was that drunk. whateverzz.

Sunday, 29 November 2009

fuckkkkkkkkkkk

i think i am okay.

i waited all day to meet to meet nadine.
while i was waiting i watched corrination, then NOFX steet backstage poasspoert.

we had 2 bottles of rose. i ended up phoning up stacy. oh fuck, regretable. i should die. i am hunry. idk. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk.

"i'm not saying i'm drunk i'm just big boned"

on NOFX backstage passport, the best part of the unaired footage is the manager kent getting drunk on the russian train.
why wasn't it aired on tv?! there's not even a clip of it on youtube dammit.
he's gave up drinking now apparently, haha. i would've totally loved to get drunk with him, he's hilarious.
and the part where they get high in singapore it amazing too.


i watch this dvd too often.

Saturday, 28 November 2009

today was good.

my mam was making me sort out my clothes for ages, and i ended up being late meeting liv and leyla. she kept shouting at me too :/

when we got to town, there was a BNP and anti-BNP protest going on. there must have been about 7 or 8 BNP supporters, and a ton more anti-BNP. me and leyla took some photos.
can't really remember our journey around town. leyla was talking film pictures on like 2 or 3 different cameras, so me and liv basically posed for them.
i'm pissed off my camera has went funny though. it won't focus properly. urgh.

then we went to gateshead. i went to toys r us for the 3rd time in my life. it was a historical moment.
we went to asda. oh my god, there were these people in ice age costumes, and i was terrified. when we were going down the escalator, and they were going up passing up. they tried to high five us all, and i was looking away shaking. i don't get why i was so scared.
but we spent aaaaaages in there.

we went to mcdonalds aswell. i got a happy meal, which meant i got a free toy. and it was a star wars light saber.
the cleaner woman was very friendly and made conversation with us about the metro centre and stuffs.

on the way home at the bus stop, some lonley man tried to make conversation with us too. but he was directed mostly at me. i was certain he wasn't drunk, but he was going on about being in debt cause of his ex-wife, and showing up his wind-up personal radio thing.
i hate worrying about random people, when i bet not even hardly anyone would care about what happens to me. i suppose thats the way i am.

now i'm in my room. newly tidied, new drawers, and finally with my beatles quilt cover on.
and i have wine. going to put on NOFX in a minute, after i've done social vibe, and other things.

Friday, 27 November 2009

like a twitch before dying

today was good.

i was paranoid the whole bus journey with the school kids on. the one behind me wouldn't stop kicking my seat, and i'm sure he put something on my back. then that really loud charvy older kid sat next to me. he always has to make remarks about things that arn't his bussiness. but he didn't say anything.

in film, leyla told me nadine was upset with me, and i was even more paranoid.
leyla seemed like she was drunk. we were laughing at pointless things in the movie. a spanish word that sounds like "emilk" means emerge.
so yeah, we're watching a movie called "talk to her" or something like that. it weird, but i am very much enjoying it. there's only 5 minutes left to watch :/

tutorial was ridiculous, and peter was creepy. he winked at me and louise. and he did a powerpoint presentation on an overhead projector, like the old fashioned one.

the dinner lady elaine tried to talk nice to me. it was another creepy moment. i asked for gravey and chips, and i was like "oh nevermind just chips" and she was making me change my mind again, but in a friendly way. but she overcharged me still, the FUCKA.

i spent my free lesson with nailiah and helene.
apparently for a while helene had been to scared to talk to me, or something like that. we actually had a good few conversations.
i made a proper mess making some more postcards though. it wasn't even a proper lesson but it may aswell have been.

when i was walking home, apparently my dad had been following me, shouting for my attention and stuff. i had my ipod on full blast. he must've looked like an idiot.

i started to use socialvibe again. it's so easy actually, i recommend it for people who don't use it already. you basically just answer questions however you want, and you earn points, which convert into money towards a chosen charity. right now i'm donating to a charity called vitiamin children. i don't remember chosing it, i thought i was donating to arts and crafts for the underprivledged children, but aslong as the money goes towards a deserving cause i'm happy to continue using the website.


i really really really wish i was going out tonight. oh well.

Thursday, 26 November 2009

juice head.



fat mike totally needs to come back to newcastle, soon-ish.
can you tell i've been over listening to NOFX today?
i don't care, love them, and they tend to overpower everything else these days.
i need to go to more gigs, at least.

i miss the days when i was obsessed with music more than anything. it's just not the same anymore. i mean, i still am obsessed with music, but i actually have motivation to do my college work properly and stuff.
i remember in year 10/11 whenever i had no friends in the lesson, i would have my ipod hidden. i loved it. i wanted to do it during my exams but i knew i could never get away with it.
okay, maybe i'm making it sound like music had a bad influence on me, however, i did pass my GCSE's thanks babes.

this is my adolescenthood. music.
well. punk rock, alternative, ska and new-wave.
and i don't want it to change.

i also posted this cause i intend to use this for my photography project, thanx.

i am not looking for a bargin, all i really believe in is you.

today was mostly okay.

i enjoyed photography, apart from the fact i did no work whatsoever, and only planned what i'm doing for my written project thing.
and i actually saw the seagulls on the see-through window thing. i was so fascinated by it. it looked like leavesssss. leyla then started to look for photos of seaguls feet, and i was like "i'm certain alice took some!" then i was like "oh no nevermind" and picked up the martin parr video thing. i thought alice took the picture on the cover!

today i realised how old roecker actually is. 43. why is everyone so old?
and especially people i idolize...
i don't know how much i can express that though. it's kind of saddening.
i had this conversation with my dad.
when i saw malcolm mcdowell when he was alex on clockwork orange, then i saw a picture of him now. fucking hell. although that is a massive time gap. i don't know if i want to be old!

then in art, i think i've done too much research. even kaye (who teaches a completley different art subject) is giving me artists to look into. all i have done is made my own postcards and stuck them in. i better not fail this like.

in the free lesson leyla was looking on the dir en grey website and translating things from it. i'm sure google translator isn't right. it's funny though, so it shouldn't really need work if it can give someone something to laugh at.

i really couldn't be arsed with film.
i couldn't be bothered to read anymore amorres perros subtitles, so i went back to my old high school french lesson roots, and just listened to it, and thought how stupid they sounded. the guy was crying down the phone in spanish, but god knows what he was saying, it was too funny.

when i got home, i was given food with mushrooms in.
my whole family know i HATE mushrooms, but they still decide to give me food with it in. i couldn't get it out either. they make me sick. then i was told they couldn't be tasted. it's like having a shite in your coffee, it's not like you'll drink it and not notice it, you know there's fucking shit in there.

my laptop is so annoying. all i wanted for christmas was a new laptop that wasn't second hand, perfectly working. but i'm allowed everything but that.
and i'm not allowed green day tickets either. all i want, to be honest.
but i did watch the roecker interview. it was lovely. apart from one part bothered me. ughtriogbfviubbbiefvbafiuvb.

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

someone should buy me this for christmas part 2



finks mask.
or make one or something. it would be too sexy.

yes, i did have to include a picture with roecker in, thank you very much.

mommy, can i go out and kill tonight?

today was good.

it's my mams 47th birthday. i got her earrings, a bath set, and a £20 eldon square voucher.

photography wasn't even that long cause toby had to leave. all i did was stick 1 photo in my book. oh well, double tomorrow.
during lunch the beacon hill kid who is obsessed with phones caught her eye on leylas phone, and me and alice were sitting laughing at her. leyla was so confused, then she turned around to see the kid. and another kid stood behind too. it was funny. i don't think amigos would be the same without all the special chilren of the beacon type.
oh yeah, and one of them did a dance infront of louise, and it blocked her way.
i'm actually crying with laughter typing this. it was so funny.

at home i sat and talked to my dad in the loft for ages. talking about yawning.

and not long ago joe invited me over. we watched the rancid dvd that came with their last album, which i have been intending to watch for ages.

my sound is broke on here, again. i'm gutted. i found this 41 minute interview with roecker and i only watched 8 minutes of it last night. fuckkkkk.
looks like i'll have to do it at the weekend or something :/

Tuesday, 24 November 2009

tommy gun.

today was mixed.

no one woke me up, and when i actually did wake up, i had 20 minutes to get up, ready and to the bus stop. that was impossible, for me.

tutorial for 10 minutes. straight to town. got to the bus stop right on time. perfecto.

i got my mam her final present, then decided to stay in town for lunch. i went to stateside diner. it's quite an expensive place for a poor-ish student, however it is a 50's american replica one, so as long as i was happy.
i had a cheese and chicken ciabatta with jack daniels sauce on. it was lovely. i thought it wouldn't be worth it but it certainly was. i felt like a loner though. the 2 other customers were alone too, however they were old men. oh well.
they played the grease soundtrack today, then an elvis song, which i forgot which one.

oh, and in town i bought a nose ring again, and a present for my dad for christmas.
so yeah, back to the ring. however, it's too small. fucky. 40p wasted.

on the way home my dad phoned saying there was a powercut and we should go to the royal quays for my mams birthday stuff and a coffee. we just got 1 present when we were there, and then decided to go to asda instead. then we ended up getting my sister from work. i didn't get my coffee.
when i got home my sister wound me up. then when my mam came home, her and my dad talked about uni's to me. but they didn't make any sense, and just seemed like a gang-up against me thing. ¬__¬.
i said i wanted to go to america and stay there forever, and they said i couldn't do that. um. whatever.

Monday, 23 November 2009

i only get sleepless nights, alone here in my half-empty bed.

today was okay.

i enjoyed art again. we had to do a random sketch at the begining, to build up our portfolios, for anyone going to uni :/
but emma found out about postcrossing, and she got really excited and told me that i would get an amazing mark if i included something like that in my studies.
oh, and i heard people saying they hated john (the replacement one) and it kind of pissed me off. i thought he was a good teacher, he helped me pick a project! i'm pretty certain he helped other people alot in my class too. oh well.

in film i finally got to change my coursework subject. it was embarressing cause the whole class were given a chance to help, and no one did. i'm doing about outcasts in american film. this should be fun.

i enjoyed my free block. kind of.
this time it was me, alice, laurie and louise talking about music and such.

photography was too short. it took like the full lesson to print my pictures and i was barely messing around.

oh, then we went to a meet up for tumblr. it was so awkward. we knew no one there.
liv and leyla sneaked out cause they thought no one would notice, but everyone stared at them, haha. but me and nadine had a good chat in town! although, walking to the next bus stop made us miss it, haha.

now i am watching the quiet.
planning to sleep sometime soon.

Sunday, 22 November 2009

today was good considering i spent 95% of it alone.

i took some pictures for art, then some for photography.

i wrote 5 postcards. apparently the one to finland expired, and i was waiting to send 5 at a time at one point. it was exciting. can't wait to post them. and recieve 5 more. yum yum yum yum yum.

i then decided to go in the loft to watch my region 1 dvd's. and they are basically live freaky! die freaky! and the ben stiller show boxset.
oh lord, i watched the special features for lfdf for the first time ever. i'm quite embarressed that i haven't watched them before. very enjoyable.

i also had my free cappicinno from when i saw mamma mia. i was highly disapointed. i blame myself though.

not really done much else. i'm watching NOFX backstage passport. i actually miss them. is that a bad thing?
oh yeah, and fat mike having green hair makes me need to dye it. well, not just him, i've been thinking about dying my hair all day. i'm sick of my hair not being perfect. perfect hair to me is GREEN hair. and not from swimming pools.

like that. plz.

oh my lorrrrrrdddddddddddd.



this was like my favourite picture ever a few years ago.
i remember showing it to leyla and sam when i met them for the first time, haha.
i think my mam threw it away, or something. i just never found it again, and i was so gutted.
i'm excited i've found it actually. even though i haven't really listened to fall out boy and aiden much since. ooft i still bloody love panic though.

Saturday, 21 November 2009

check this riff, it's fucking tastey.

i liked today.

i was late meeting louise. i just got to the metro station, and the metro was leaving. whoops.

half an hour later we were at alices, with lauire and eve.
we watched the chumscrubber. i don't think anyone else had seen it before. i'm sure everyone enjoyed it, apart from one disgusting scene. it's funny though. again, i don't like spoiling movies on my blog!
after that we went out to take some pictures in the forrest kind of place. i wish i was doing my project about something outside. however, a project involving heroes is definatley something i'll find easy.
when we got back we just watched tv pretty much.

when i got home i sat with my dad and watched tenacious d the pick of destiny.
it was the first time i saw that, i really wish i had've watched it sooner than today. i plan to watch it again sometime soon, properly.
i was thinking when i was watching it, when i first made myspace i put jack black on the 'who i'd like to meet' section. along with kurt cobain, joel madden and chandler bing. LOL. i have met joel madden since then though.

i really want to watch snow white aswell. my childhood favourite! there's been adverts on tv for it.
i want to watch 'the quiet' too. it's all on youtube for those who take my recommendations, which is probably no one. but yeah, camilla belle is in it, i think she's an amazing actress.
i'd watch them now, but my laptop sound is FUKT.

Friday, 20 November 2009

playlist.

intended to do this for a while actually.
these are like my favourite songs ever. in no order after the first one:

the kkk took my baby away - the ramones
don't leave me - blink-182
killing an arab - the cure
hybrid moments - the misfits
one of my lies - green day
hope - the descendents
what if punk never happened? - the king blues
i get around - the beach boys
generator - bad religion
world up my ass - circle jerks
fan mail - the dickies
love is paranoid - the distillers
old friend - rancid
lucifer, i am - michale graves
all on black - alkaline trio
irresponsible hate anthem - marilyn manson
mattersville - NOFX
creatures - adolescents
lithium - nirvana
just becuase you sleep next to me doesn't mean you're safe - gallows
sound system - operation ivy
transmission - joy division
mad house - anthrax
have's, have nots - kut u up


um yeah, i'm thinking these from the top of my head. if i had my ipod i'd totally have a ton more. but i think those songs will do. i suppose they define me well enough.

another thought

that last blog i posted seems really boring.
i'm really disapointed, i'm uninspired tonight. sorry people.

i should get a formspring or something. i know it's supposed to be a tumblr thing, but i totally prefer blogspot to tumblr.
i don't know why really, i've always been one to look at art rather than at a book or whatever with lots of words. but blogs inspire me to read more. i appriciate lenghty blogs, the least i can do is write as much as i can. well, whatever is intresting in my fairly boring life. i suppose these days are boring. this year has been so fucking miserable.

i think 2010 will be better. i'm not going to say it will be, i said that about 2009, but it has been one of the worst years of my lifetime.
if i hadn't seen NOFX this year, i think it would have been the worst year ever.
i was talking about this before. the bad things overweighed the good things.
the best thing that could possibly happen to me also meant the worst thing was going to happen too. i don't really want to make a sob story out of it, but i doubt any worse could have happened than losing my grandma.

oh well, i guess i got stuff out to type.
i hope someone enjoys reading my stuff.

i tore the muscle from your chest, used it to stub out ciggerettes.

today was good.

film was the dodgiest one ever. me, liv and leyla went early, and davey was chatting up leyla. well, they were supposed to be talking about twilight, but he was asking questions like "do you like biting peoples necks?" and on and on.
christ, he comes up with the most awkward conversations.
oh and the jokes he tells are too awkward aswell. they start funny, then it's just like, 'no i don't need to hear anymore thanks'

he mixed the group up to dicuss the amores perros movie. we were talking about a character. i heard someone in my group say "easily fooled" and i wrote it down, then the person who said it looked at my page and glared at me as if i just killed his pet rabbit or something. yeah turns out he said "easily influenced"
i had a good laugh re-telling this though.

then the second half of the lesson involved making our own camera shot picture sheet. we had to put our own pictures in from our favourite movies.
i got a fright when davey was like "so you like ghost world, emma? it's an amazing movie" and leyla was like "I LOVE STEVE BUSHIMI"
i couldn't imagine him watching that movie. but i suppose he is a film studies teacher.. aha.

oh, and on my picture of charlie from live freaky! die freaky! he was like "oh god what the hell is that?!" and i got to explain the movie i was like yyyaaaaaay. but then he was just like "well, he really does look like charles manson"
i was expecting him to say something a bit more better than that. i'd love to do work about that movie. maybe a director study, or something.

i didn't like lunch time. it took ages for them to cook my panini, and some beacon hill child mistaked me for their carer. it was funny. but not.

i signed in for art, then me and leyla buggered off to town.
we both wanted to go to a cafe, but we ended up in weatherspoons having a meal.
funnnnnnny times.
i didn't get my anti-swastika badge like i promised myself to. because i am jewish and think nazi punks should fuck off. dead kennedys.

i think now i'm going to have some wine!

creepy.

okay, i turn my computer on, and now my skitzo laptop let the sound work today, i decided to listen to some music. since i was listening to the ramones on my short journey home alone, i put on the ramones again.

i then put on facebook to see this status from roecker:

John Roecker Svengali's Dating Advice- Before you fuck someone make sure you look at their record collection first. Never and I mean never fuck anyone who doesn't have a Ramones record. It will lead to disaster.



film 4 put cameras in leylas bedroom. now john roecker has put cameras in mine.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

forgot to mention.

i sent away for a free wristband for anti-knives, basically.

it came today, but adressed from the essex police. my parents had no idea what it was, and when i explained it to my dad he said i should say i got into trouble some how. apparently my mam had been anxious all day aswell.
when i got in, my mam tried to hide the fact she wanted to know what it was about, and i was like "oh, i was caught with drugs.. whatever" and she was like "NO, TELL ME EMMA!" and then my dad walked in and said something like "emma has been misbehaving at gigs!" and then she asked again "drugs and shit" and walked off saying "fuck you"


LOL

oh fuccccck

i got 3 postcards today. they are sexy.

ones from dave patel, and 2 are from mark hoppus.
it's hard to explain, i'll have to scan them in or something
(':

i hate them all, creatures. i hate all them, creatures.

um yeah so i didn't blog yesterday, i may aswell start with that.

it was.. weird.

i totally forgot i was having the cervical cancer jab, it was pretty much the first thing i did when i got there. i was totally un-prepared and only got nervous when i sat down. she told me to relax my arm, and i totally didn't. oh fuck, it really did hurt more than any other needle i've had in me. but at least this is supposed to stop me getting cervical cancer..
although it's still hurting now, like after one day. ¬_¬

when the college day was over, me and leyla decided to go to the cinema. then we had fucked up plans really. when we were getting on the bus, all of us got on apart from leyla, so me and liv had to go get off the bus, aha.
it ended up me leyla and nailiah in all these asian markets. i bought some thai energy drink, that looked concerningly similar to medicine.

when nailiah left, liv came back and we went to the dog and parrot.
oh fuck, i forgot it was rise against. i was foaming. but honestly, i only really wanted to bug tim about fat mike from nofx.
then liv left and nadine came.
and i pretty much had wine to myself, apart from leyla having one glass.
when i got home, my parents had no idea i was drunk. until my mam screamed at me asking to smell my breath over and over. i let her. she kept calling me a liar.
i think my dad thought it was funny though. my sister certainly did, she was really annoying me though.




today was better.

photography was hilarious. but, it totally wasn't supposed to be.
leyla developed a fear of the dark room after studying the grudge, so i had to assist her in there. the vent kept making this weird sound, and on the movie, they make a similar sound. leyla ran out with tears in her eyes. she did it like twice. then i decided it would make sense if the vent thing was turned on. when i did it, it made this fucking dodgy beeping sound. leyla screamed at the top of her lungs, it was terrifying. i was crying with laughter. kim and laurie in the other room were like "what the hell was that for?" then toby walked over, assuming me and leyla had been messing about and i was like "did you hear leyla scream?!" and i just laughed in his face. he wasn't convinced leyla was scared, and told her to do more prints.

we ended up sitting on facebook/flickr. the fire alarm went off, and toby just stood in the corridor and announced something like "okay guys i assume that's the fire alarm.."
oh fucking hell, LOL.
after waiting outside for 10 minutes, me, leyla, laurie and nailiah sneaked back in. i put the vent back on in the dark room. toby caught up with us and was like "oh, who put the vent on in the dark room? emma you turn it off."

me, leyla, nailiah met up with liv and went for a pub lunch. it was the first time in nailiahs life she'd ever been in a pub, haha!

um yeah, thats it for intresting things.
but i'm listening to adolescents for the first time in forever.

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

i'll destroy this usless heart, i'll fuck it up so it'll never beat again,
not just for me but for anyone.

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

coffee tea soda-pop pee, pee on me, pee on meeeee!



i've been looking for this video for the past hour, cause i thought it was on my youtube favourites. turns out it wasn't. oh well. cheetah videos for the win.
today was okay.

i went to tutorial for like 15 minutes. it was supposed to be 10, but peter kept us back for ages dissing all the unis i even thought about going to. i was panicking cause i had a connexions meeting.
yeah, i waited for half an hour and the person didn't turn up. the woman at the reception also "forgot" i was there, even though i kept looking over to see what she was doing and she was eyeing me up.
it was one of those moments i could have easily kicked off at her, but i didn't. ugh.

then me and liv went into town. i randomly got a craving for nutella. liv adivsed me not to get it from fenwicks, which ended up being the place that sold it for the cheapest.
we went back to hers and watched jeremey kyle! there was a girl who wanted a sex change on it, so there was no lie detector ):

when i got home, my dad gave me a Q magazine with a blink-182 article in.
and basically all the time i've spent online is watching blink videos on youtube. i know everyone hates it when bands change, but i like finding all these new videos of them. i can't wait til they do more interviews and stuff, and they would cheer me up on a day like this.
not to mention when they come to the UK. oh christ.
i wouldn't mind if panic! at the disco support them too, like they did in america. i think that sounds perfect.
well, perfect would be blink-182, NOFX, the misfits (with danzig), the cure, descendents, bad religion, the muffs, the distillers, and rancid all in one show. but i guess most of the bands don't compliment each other really. and some of them are impossible. yeah i should stop talking about music now.

cokie the clown


NOFX - Cokie The Clown

NOFX | MySpace Video


srsly. if you've seen me post this anywhere else and you haven't watched it, i suggest you should. because i told you to.

i have totally given up tidying my room to watch it over and over. i'd do anything to go back to 28th april 2009 and re-live that day.
or, i'd do anything for them to come back here soon. ooh, when they do i can legally drink. i'll buy mike, melvin and limo a drink, probably of brown ale. i'd get kent and smelly one, but they don't drink. and el hefe was huffy to the fans, so nowt for him. oh babaaaaaaaaaaay.

Monday, 16 November 2009

i'm screaming out, somebody listen.

today was meh/good.

i really enjoyed art. i basically sat and talked to nailiah, and took pictures of rusty things and shells.

then we stayed in college for lunch. elaine was determind i wouldn't get fed. when the other lady sevred me, she asked elaine how much it would be, and she took 30p off, cause she fancied me. well, cause elaine is a bitch and pinches money, or something. just everything has to be too much.

then some lad came up to me and said "hi" and i looked up, didn't recognize him. he stood silently for a few seconds, and i was going to say "do i know you?" but then i noticed he was wearing a t-shirt with chlamidia written across it. he was waffling on about something, and nailiah burst out laughing. it was so awkward.
he came to talk to us again when liv, alice, and laurie were there too. he handed everyone a card, and laurie was like "no thanks, i don't want one"
and when he walked away, he stook his tounge out at laurie.

oh, and on the way to next lesson, all these NHS people were in handing out free things. i got a nail file, couisidently, i had cut my nails this morning and had no time to file them. lucky or what. i sat in film, and davey tried to make conversation with me and said "are you trying to make your nails shiny, emma?"
then i didn't even notice what he said, and explained how a nail file works. he then talked to someone else. thats what he always does, he is terrible at showing intrest in things i talk about.

we're watching that mexican film again. it's gotten weird now, although i am enjoying it very much. there's more than one story to it, and some of them are connecting. i think they're going to connect even more later on. cool.

i spent my free lesson searching youtube about this closet gay who killed himsef, and there was a video of him dead, and it says "this is my brothers account, he is the one lying dead in this video" or something like that. it was creepy.

then photography, i actually did some work. but leyla left early upset with me cause i wouldn't go in the dark room with her. oh yeah, everyone else left too basically. it was silent.

when i got home, my dad said i could have all his old empire magazines, so since i got in i've been reading them. the oldest i found so far was feburary 1992, which is a month older than me. it had stuff about silence of the lambs in. oh yeah, i found this lushious edward scissorhands article.
and i found a free ticket to see american pie. and the cinema for newcastle was warner brothers. it's weird to think, thats now a university. christ.
there was a thing about jim carey too, saying stuff about the mask.

oh, and when i was reading them, my dad came in and handed me a gigantic pile of postcards. there's got to be over 100 in there.



AND CHRIST. edward woodward died today, i was so shocked to hear.
i watched the wickerman god knows how many times in AS film.
at least the pagens didn't burn him alive.

friend fact thing.

another app on facebook. yeah, i have gave all the games on facebook up, but i do go on some of the votey things, just because.
some people don't know me by the looks of these answers:

Do you think Emma has ever gone to a strip club? Yes
this person think's i'm a perv.

Do you think Emma should pass on the chocolate cake? No
they are probably blind, or enjoy fat people.

Do you think Emma loves dogs? Yes
i was scared of them for about 15 years. umm, i don't think i've really taken a shine to an animal that taunted my childhood.

Would you introduce Emma to your parents/family? No
i am really that bad.

Do you think Emma has an inviting smile? Yes
what smile?

Do you think Emma has ever watched someone undress secretly? Yes
ofc.

i might use this to see who said that shit about me (:

Sunday, 15 November 2009

i like to type things.

no ones talking to me anymore. so here's some thoughts.

i really want to watch anchorman right now. just cause my sister gave me it back tonight after keeping it in her room for about 3 months.
latley she's been nicking my movies. but i think it's a good thing, she's watching things i like, and she's not outside smoking. when she smokes, it goes into my room. sux.

ohhhh, and i was thinking this.
sometime this week/weekend, people should come to mine and watch a movie in the loft with me. live freaky! die freaky! maybe.
i haven't watched it for a while, i don't remember when i last watched it. there's things i've read about it that i want to notice. whuteverrrrr.

my eyelids are itchy.

not really intrested in tomorrow. can't think if it will be any good.
not looking forward to art, cause i have nothing to do, and will probably overall fail the subject. cak cak cak cak cak cak cak cak.
i remembered i took work home, and i didn't remember til the end of today. i hate not remembering things.
but, i think if emma is in, i will just get her to make me do something different.

but i am excited to listen to my new music whenever i'm alone and have time for it. i just wish i have afi's new album on my ipod. shit man, it's good.
i wish i had some of my dads music on too. he's just got a cassette tape to ipod converter aswell as the viynl one. i should have a full ipod when i pretty much share my dads taste in music.

i am also excited for the 3d derren brown programme tomorrow. i am aware he's only presenting it, however, i still intend to watch it. i have nothing much else to look forward to in the short term.

okay, after i post this, i will go downstairs, get a glass of cloudy lemonade, come back up and put on anchorman. then probably fall asleep with it on.
lushious.

skins, punx and drunx

today was good.

me and joe went into town.
on one of the streets by monument, there was another one of those weird vans that were letting people on. we walked past to look, then this cheerful homo popped out of no where and said "hello! want to do on big lizards big idea?" or something like that, then he handed us over to this woman with a thick mustache and monobrow. she told us to draw the lizard with ourself doing something exciting.
of corse, i drew the lizard drinking an appletini saying "send me something over" and the picture of me was posting a postcard in the letter box, and i was saying "only if you send me a postcard. your tounge is currently purple!". the woman who told us what to do came up behind me and said "oh lizard wants you to post him an appletini? original!!"
joe asked the woman what the whole thing was about, and she said "it's too hard to explain, it's too layered" and then he said "how long has this been around" and she said "oh the lizard has been alive for a very long time!"
when we were leaving, joe said "do you have a website?" and she said "i don't know. GOOGLE IT!" um, it was a terribly organized event, but it was so fucking funny.

then we went to pizza hut. i finally had the cookie dough. it was different to what i expected, and really rich and sickly.
um yeah, we basically just walked about bored after that.

thats it for town really.
when i got home, i basically looked for free music.
the only good source for free downloads is purevolume. i just want to find new bands, and it's been very helpful. there's a genre tab at the bottom, and when you pick your favourite, a band of that genre comes up. although for punk theres been a few familiar ones up there.
i used to go on that site all the time in 2005/2006. i remember when panic at the disco were on the charts on there. good times. very good times.

Saturday, 14 November 2009

joko homo.

this morning was aweful. tonight was better.

um yeah. i don't even want to mention today.
but i will mention, i lost my nose stud in the bath, and spent ages looking for another. i've lost my fucking sexy nose ring. terrible. i might get a cooler one sometime in the weekey eek.

so yeah, tonight i went to joes. lucy and lewi were there.
lucy pointed at a picture of frank carter from gallows and said "he's a rude man" and i went "but joe loves him" then she said "I DON'T BELIEVE YOU, THATS GAY"
hahaaaa! i never imagined her saying anything like that.
but we did knee surgery, then marions world, then habbo hotel. fun times.

then i went home and watched the x-factor with the parentals.

today has been so short, and quite pointless.
i hate being ill. i could've been out drinking right now :/

Friday, 13 November 2009

you could've at least told me.

i want to know what i've done wrong for people to hate me?
seriously. i was just thinking about it. people have 'problems' with me, and they don't actually say why.
i always try my best to be nice to everyone, and i don't intend on hurting anyone purposley. yet, people still find a reason to hate me.




i guess everyone has this feeling. but i think i have it more than anyone i know.
right now i'm trying to stay calm, and drink my wine.

ctrl, alt, deleted. reset my memory.

today was meh, then good.

it was the first time liv, leyla and myself were all on the 17 bus together. just thought that deserved a mention.

then we did clockwork orange work. i felt like shit when i was probably the slowest person in the class to answer it. i ended up getting help from davey, and kept asking leyla if it was okay. and now i have to do it for homework cause i was so slow. i obviously don't like that movie for the right reasons, and should give up on my intrest of film. it is just so awkward. blagh.

but we did watch this mexican movie that i'd already seen the first half of. i really enjoyed it the first time, and i want to see the rest. i don't think people enjoy dogs biting each other to death as much as i do.

then louise wanted to go to the silverlink, and i ended up giving in and going.
i bought a skirt with my dinner money.

art was terrible. i don't see why i was looking forward to it. everyone was going to the house party, apart from nailiah, but she was still talking to everyone about it til she left. i was a bit of a gooseberry, so i just walked out miserably.
all i did that lesson was write words a 5 year old could've come up with to express my thoughts on the picture to the right. (hell - the chapman brothers)
it makes me wish i did english as an option. if i stayed at school, it certainly would've been my 2nd option after art. the sad thing is, i wouldn't know what other lessons i could've done. tyne met was like a saviour, generally offering lessons in things i actually enjoy. i suppose.

when i got home, joe offered to come over. we watched dumber and dumberer in the loft. it wasn't long ago since i saw it, but i forgot how funny it actually was. i laughed too much at it. it made me better.

now i'm full of cold. i'm stick of my stupid nose.

Thursday, 12 November 2009

facebook statuses.

the status history app has a thing so show all the statuses ever.
i'm going to explain stuff about what it meant and whatever. it does show lots of important things that have happened to me.
but i'm going to delete boring stuff.
yeah this took me aaaaaaaages to do (over 2 hours)
it's just memories.


Fri October 30, 2009, 5:45 pm: WHO IS HOHN?

Fri October 30, 2009, 5:41 pm: my freiwnds din't undersatand john so i skepp. niht.


i don't think i remember those drunk statuses. about mr. roecker.

Fri October 30, 2009, 10:56 am: on the way to town. blink tribute band, yusss.

we didn't even see them.

Sun October 25, 2009, 7:00 am: sonic boom six tonight bebeeee

Wed October 21, 2009, 9:38 am: some newcastle website has requested to use my photography for their website.


Fri October 16, 2009, 4:57 am: Is pretty certain i walked past an actress who was pretty famous. They were recording her. I forgot her naaame :/

still don't know who it is.

Wed October 14, 2009, 1:30 pm: has never been so excited about art related things than i have today.

art day was good.

Mon October 5, 2009, 4:18 am: Neil Bushnim was good on Art Attack

haha good day.

Sun October 4, 2009, 3:44 pm: has never headbanged so much in her life, lmao!

Sun October 4, 2009, 11:34 am: is waiting for skindred avec lindsey lohan/louise


that was good. davey the film teacher called louise lindsey lohan to remember her name, aha.

Sun September 27, 2009, 3:44 am: likes my drunk statuses. and the twitter ones are good too. "aiwniene flu. it kislls"

Sat September 26, 2009, 5:37 pm: derren frown

Sat September 26, 2009, 4:05 pm: derren frown

Sat September 26, 2009, 4:01 pm: how did orssry and c haron co[e in the jighjt~?

Sat September 26, 2009, 3:45 pm: what whe si yja?


"how did ozzy and sharon cope in the night?" i have NO idea why i wanted that as a status, but could you blame anyone intoxicated?

Wed September 16, 2009, 1:41 am: seeing the used in a few hours (:

that was good.

Thu September 3, 2009, 11:30 am: has had a good day with liv bab (': we had too much chucklet though.

first ever coffee/tea moring/afternoon.

Mon August 31, 2009, 4:11 pm: Leyla sais id eather akeeo wurh borat than bruno

Mon August 31, 2009, 3:45 pm: Is gobaie die

Mon August 31, 2009, 2:46 pm: Soawnw


don't remember the bottom 2. borat one is amazing LOL. it's supposed to say "leyla said she'd rather sleep with borat than bruno"

Tue August 25, 2009, 12:05 pm: is now joey who has a child named tyson.. "need a sandwich."

that was the best story i ever invented.

Mon August 24, 2009, 7:21 am: Omg just saw jordan from new found glory! He smiled at me lmao

OH CHRIST! i tried to find them again, to tell them i had no one to go with to see them. i hoped they would've let me hang with them. but a bunch of fans took them away from me straight away.

Thu August 20, 2009, 4:47 pm: Leyla hacked my facebook sorry

Thu August 20, 2009, 4:39 pm: Cqnt sleep like the gwen stefani stong

Thu August 20, 2009, 10:28 am: Waiting for the cure.


drunk statuses! leyla didn't hack my account. but the middle one is a beast of a status. lush.

Tue August 18, 2009, 6:35 am: Lots of jews come into marks and spencer.

i got told off for this. but it was a good thing, not a stereotype.

Fri August 14, 2009, 2:38 pm: Oh nooo! Freddies gone

I STILL THINK HALFWIT SHOULD'VE WON BIG BROTHER. i was so so so so so so gutted.

Wed August 5, 2009, 3:04 pm: was talking to the coolest person ever ):

christ, chris came in the room and asked how you play the lottery, and then the person disconnected. it was on omegle btw.

Fri July 31, 2009, 7:19 am: has won a lot of red bull :]

12 cans. oh fuuuck.

Sun July 26, 2009, 2:38 pm: That was one of the best gigs i have ever attended. Actually it comes right after nofx for best one ever!

i think that gig changed my life.

Fri July 17, 2009, 3:21 pm: spinnerette was amazing, apart from the gigantic, disgusting, ugly swedish girl. urgh.

they were good. but it was the shittest gig i have EVER attended. sorry brody and tony, you were the only reason i went. in hope for a distillers song.

Mon July 13, 2009, 3:50 pm: Birthday massacre liked my t-shirt too

Mon July 13, 2009, 11:07 am: Is waiting for the birthday masscre. Had many comments on my shirt


i wore my mindless self indulgence t-shirt. we met vince that day, who was first to make a comment, with his friend anthony. they thought it was stewie.
and some metal head in the gig thought it was a metal band, i was like "no pet i listen to punk music"
and the birthday masscre were very polite.

Sat July 11, 2009, 3:03 am: is wondering why posters have been obviously ripped off my walls. and has a killlllller headache.

obvious result.

Fri July 10, 2009, 3:43 pm: Hads goos tine tobight

Fri July 10, 2009, 2:28 pm: Haha parties gooood :) uranus


i don't remember the later one. it was the first time i saw some of my high school friends since '08.

Wed July 1, 2009, 8:08 am: told myself not to buy any dvd's or cd's today, so i got a dress instead.

i spent around £200 on dvd's over the summer.

Tue June 30, 2009, 1:19 pm: my first postcard swappy thing is for an american! :]

Tue June 30, 2009, 5:14 am: Is thinking 'Michael Jackson THIS' is an approprite documentary title. Maybe better than the freddie mercury one.

Fri June 26, 2009, 9:23 am: Got ID'd for a 12 movie :|

mr deeds. cause i really do look under 12 years old.

Thu June 25, 2009, 4:18 pm: actually, michael jackson is now with tupac and elvis somewhere..

they have punk rock with them too.

Thu June 25, 2009, 3:23 pm: why does everyone listen to silly rumours and agree that MJ died? everyone agreed with each other when people said he was a pedo, but in reality he wasn't.

Thu June 25, 2009, 2:56 pm: hopes these rumours about micheal jackson being dead arn't true. if so that means 3 famous people have died today ):


i got really worked up about it, christ. but still, people who called him a pedo made all the fuss.

Mon June 22, 2009, 11:44 pm: Had a dream about jack black and i'm pretty sure it was an actual movie i dreamed out.

omfggg, that dream has got to be a movie already. it was in an airport, by a bar.

Mon June 22, 2009, 11:01 am: "when you start driving, you'll notice the difference" i get great encouraging words from chris like.

speaks for itself.

Mon June 22, 2009, 9:38 am: feels sorry for perez hilton.

when he got punched. i still keep my word.

Sun June 21, 2009, 5:18 am: "do you think in the fish and chips shop you could ask for battered twat?"

me and my sister wind up my mam too much.

Sat June 20, 2009, 1:54 pm: "them scottish scallops have something to do with heads" "... don't you mean scalp?"

i need to remember who said that.

Tue June 16, 2009, 4:32 am: Is in the metro centre rather than ken lovvats trip. Hope there is no effects in my injuries

nofx.

Sun June 14, 2009, 3:18 pm: i'd rather strangle a tree than hug it, the trees life support, unplug it. who needs a tree? not me, screw your ecology, keep your enviroment, shove it (8)

JOHN ROECKER YOU BABE.

Sat June 13, 2009, 4:58 am: Wants to know who her real friends are :(

still don't know.

Sat June 13, 2009, 3:25 am: Foaming. Shame feeling i had when i was 7 and i forgot my homework and a got told off for not doing it, but i actually did.

christ, i was held hostage that day. but i remember the day when i was 7 too. poopy day.

Sat June 13, 2009, 12:03 am: Can't remember watching school of rock, although i DO remember having my hair pulled. Nicee.. And Mark Goppus? Haha

speaks for itself.

Fri June 12, 2009, 3:32 pm: Is about to watch school of rock with apple sourz. Lush

that was after i'd passed out in town and shit. probably the most drunk i've been, and i typed it perfectly. LOL/

Thu June 11, 2009, 5:59 am: Has fallen in love with her new 160gb ipod classic! Shame the computers not letting me put anything on it :/

grandma bought me that.

Wed June 3, 2009, 2:56 pm: ugh howebeer but hahaha!

I HATE MYSELF FOR GETTING DRUNK AFTER THE FUNERAL. FUCK. ALCOHOLIC FAMILY, MUCH?

Tue June 2, 2009, 2:36 pm: has had a good day in south shields. is ready to say goodbye to my grandma for the last time tomorrow. miss you.

:(

Mon June 1, 2009, 4:09 pm: doesn't find the whole sacha baron cohen and eminem thing as funny as the news make it sound like :/

moody arse.

Sat May 30, 2009, 2:15 pm: is actually gutted that stavros flatley wasn't even a runner up D:

i still think they deserved to win.

Fri May 29, 2009, 2:33 pm: zoolander. HIYA BEN STILLER.

ben stiller obsession.

Wed May 27, 2009, 3:28 pm: will not accept rum from a stranger again.

more specifially, a lesbian stranger.

Sun May 24, 2009, 4:04 am: gives up.

the world was still stopped for me.

Sat May 23, 2009, 8:36 am: r.i.p grandma ):

Sat May 23, 2009, 5:05 am: nobody does it better, makes me feel sad for the rest, nobody does it half as good as you, baby you're the bestttttt

that song kind of helps me when i lose someone.

Fri May 22, 2009, 2:44 pm: does not know how to feel. this whole sititaytopm makes me think: wow what a bastard she is for doing that. goodbye ):

Fri May 22, 2009, 5:38 am: is not happy at all. )': )': )':


that was the day i found out my grandma had 24 hours to live. I HATE THE NHS WITH A BURNING PASSION.

Mon May 18, 2009, 8:28 am: just went to see grandma in hospital.

that was the last time she spoke to me. i totally took that visit for granted.

Sun May 17, 2009, 12:12 pm: Dyed her hair again. First time in 2 years it's been all 1 colour... I feel less unique.

BIGGEST MISTAKE.

Sat May 16, 2009, 10:56 am: someone take me to america to see blink-182 + panic at the disco, please.

still fucking jealous of the americans who saw them.

Fri May 15, 2009, 11:38 pm: NEVER AGAIN.. what the fuck was last night about o_o

possibly one of the worst nights of my lifetime. fucky christ shitttttt.

Thu May 14, 2009, 12:24 pm: has been doing work non-stop. still going, with an exception of typing this status. srsly, i only came on facebook to collect my picture of lars fredirekson. ):

these are the days i could no longer be bothered to try. fat mike brain washed me.

Thu May 14, 2009, 6:12 am: Gaah! Lost my usb stick. No media coursework D:

that had the last pictures with grandma on.


Wed May 13, 2009, 1:05 pm: punch her in the cunt. then kick her in the face. i hate the bloody queen (8)

Wed May 13, 2009, 11:04 am: slayer reminds me of old times.

it still does a little.

Mon May 11, 2009, 11:40 am: it rubs the lotion on it's skin or else it gets the hose again.

i shouldn't have learnt about the glories of dr lector, he is a gentleman.

Sun May 10, 2009, 4:23 am: wants to see spinnerette!! HIYA brody dalle bababa.

the thought of it was better than it was.

Sat May 9, 2009, 2:47 pm: mmm gallows + rolo tomossi :D annnnd oh yes, i got gallows set list (h)

yum

Fri May 8, 2009, 2:05 pm: On the bus with lovley louise. She has a nofx song i met fat mike

Fri May 8, 2009, 1:58 pm: Ahhhh chasing suxie!y


drunk.

Tue May 5, 2009, 12:26 pm: is scared like a fly.

i forgot the joke, but it made me cry with laughter.

Sun May 3, 2009, 3:17 pm: mike, of the fat kind preferbly.

i got told off by people for having so many statuses about fat mike like that.

Sat May 2, 2009, 2:57 pm: oh god i want to see NOFX again right now.

still do.

Thu April 30, 2009, 12:20 pm: was in a bad mood until i was told i might be seeing RHCP :P

chris told me RHCP were coming. he still thinks they are. LOL.

Tue April 28, 2009, 5:11 pm: NOFX was the best thing ever. Melvin is the sweetest dude ever, fat mike is the drunkest, el hefe is the evil ignorant one, and smelly is the missing one :)

SEXYYYY.

Tue April 28, 2009, 6:49 am: Has been recommended to buy a hat. Recommendation was suggested by FAT MIKE -dies-

OMFG, he was sober, only about 5% of people meet SOBER FAT MIKE. or some small percentage.

Tue April 28, 2009, 4:50 am: El hefe walked past me and said 'hello'!

he was a miserable sod.

Tue April 28, 2009, 3:08 am: Missed 2 buses! Not the best day for rain. HIYA FAT MIKE

Mon April 27, 2009, 1:57 pm: leave me stuff for me to reply to tomorrow, when i'm standing waiting for 7 hours. i'll slowly reply tomorrow. by the way, did you know i was seeing NOFX tomorrow. b a b e s.

Mon April 27, 2009, 1:39 pm: is currently shaking.. with excitement. hiya mam.

couldn't sleep that night.

Sun April 26, 2009, 1:24 pm: jeeeeeeeeeeesus it's so close to NOFX. VOMITING WITH EXCITEMENT.

i miss my old phrases.

Fri April 24, 2009, 9:24 pm: Awake, but prolly had too littl sleep. Taatttooing thing todsy?

Fri April 24, 2009, 3:02 pm: Is with 2 pisheeds called drunkies


i liked drinking with stacy and callum.

Fri April 24, 2009, 9:59 am: Listening to stacy argue with someone on the phone and cleaning tea up with a tv remote...

LOL.

Fri April 24, 2009, 5:31 am: Has a 'doctors appointment' on tuesday :)

i told my old photography teacher that so i could queue up for NOFX early.

Mon April 20, 2009, 3:20 pm: will probably get some twisted dreams from this movie soundtrack, but i don't want to stop listening to it ♥!

Mon April 20, 2009, 11:47 am: Live freaky! Die freaky!


SEXYYYYYYYYYYY!

Mon April 20, 2009, 3:37 am: Liv is an impatient jerkoff

i don't remember the story, but i laughed.

Wed April 15, 2009, 1:36 pm: has found mark hoppus's phone number. no joke.

i deleted it off my phone, and i regret it.

Mon April 13, 2009, 3:05 pm: probably won't be able to listen to 'baby i love you' by the ramones anymore without getting creeped out. in fact, the full end of the century album. such a weirdo.

phil spector.

Sun April 12, 2009, 1:20 pm: the blue hair dye is a complete failure. emails of complaint are being spammed to the shit hair dye company.

Sun April 12, 2009, 12:02 pm: thinks the blue hair dye was a complete failure


it went grey. i had fucking grey hair for NOFX.

Sat April 11, 2009, 6:52 am: Is roaming the streets of wallsend - watch out for me

i'm pretty sure after that, i almost fell over, and some charv shouted "unlucky" and laughed. errrrrghie.

Tue April 7, 2009, 4:16 pm: loves the fact mark hoppuz said 'i LOVE playing don't leave me' cause if blink play that when i see them, i will officially die happy.

tru dat.

Fri April 3, 2009, 1:14 pm: AMERICA (L)

thats when i thought i was going again ):

Wed April 1, 2009, 11:50 am: honestly is more excited for the green day musical than their new album..

i haven't seen it yet. the albums not that bad either.

Mon March 30, 2009, 11:41 pm: Is going to wednesday 13 tonight rather than cumdog millionare

it's not funny anymore.

Fri March 27, 2009, 4:33 pm: Now has a bottle of taboo in my room waiting to be opened :P but i wont

i wasted that drink.

Wed March 25, 2009, 12:47 am: NOFX. that is all.

Tue March 24, 2009, 6:58 am: is pleased to hear that my NOFX backstage passport dvd's are on their way ♥!

too fucking right, i waited extra days even after pre-ordering it. and i didn't get the free sticker.

Wed March 18, 2009, 2:33 pm: is worried. but thats nothing robert smith can't change.

still fucking true.

Mon March 16, 2009, 3:25 am: Is 17 today

i like how theres no exclamation marks or smileys. my dvd didn't come that day.

Sat March 14, 2009, 4:57 pm: Is scqred x

Sat March 14, 2009, 3:36 pm: Is ktinh in gelbsds garsen


drunk statuses. i think it's supposed to be "is in helenas garden". and yeah, i had passed out on her garden. did i mention, her parents were home that night? fail.

Sat March 14, 2009, 11:28 am: is a 50's woman :P

shittest fancy dress costume i've EVER had. worse than john lennon.

Tue March 10, 2009, 8:07 pm: Just had a nightmare thats possibly changed my life ):

oh christ, that was scary. it was so real. it was the first time i cried at a nightmare.

Sat March 7, 2009, 2:16 pm: Has an interview thing at a tattoo place next week :D

they called me back, i just didn't go back. i fail. fuckkkkk.

Sat March 7, 2009, 10:59 am: Now has a full clockwork orange droog outfit. Minus boots but that soon will be sorted :)

still haven't used it.

Wed March 4, 2009, 2:57 pm: wants my birthday to come sooner just so i can get my nofx backstage passport dvd (:

i was only excited for that. did not give a shit about my birthday cause i didn't get a tattoo.

Wed February 25, 2009, 3:16 pm: wants to see street dogs with someone, who wants to come with me?

no one wanted to. they cancelled anyway.

Tue February 24, 2009, 1:47 pm: NOFX'S NEW ALBUM RELEASED THE DAY I SEE THEM :'DD

Sun February 22, 2009, 12:55 pm: is thinking how close NOFX is, and is rather excited ♥


Mon February 16, 2009, 4:12 am: is pissed off with play.com ¬__¬

they sent me bullet for my valintine cd instead of an alkaline trio one. i still have it. never opened or anything.

Tue February 10, 2009, 10:30 am: wishes it was yesterday again

Mon February 9, 2009, 4:59 pm: !!!!!!!alkaline trio was mamamamamazing :'D

Mon February 9, 2009, 8:13 am: NEW BLINK ALBUM ANNOUNCED -droooooools- + alk3 tonight :'D

Sun February 8, 2009, 12:32 pm: ALKALINE TRIO TOMORROW!!!!!


i like alk3 more now. and blink-182 i'm still excited for blinks album.

Wed February 4, 2009, 3:08 pm: has a new hair cut, and is rather confused at the italian girl who got arrested

the italian exchange student who was with us shoplifted glasses from H&M, LOL!

Wed January 28, 2009, 5:37 pm: looooooooooooooved mindless self indulgence (':

it was good. i met jimmy, steve and kitty. i paid a stupid amount to see 1 band i liked, and 3 others who i didn't care for. BMTH dropped out, so that was okay.

Fri January 9, 2009, 2:29 pm: Coener house 1i

that was the day i properly met who is now my sisters fiance. he got me drunk.

Sat January 3, 2009, 12:01 pm: Is busing it til the roof falls off with liv (on the 40)

we were so hyper. the number 40 bus the week before had the roof pulled off cause the driver had a panic attack and went under the wrong bridge, which was too small.

Thu January 1, 2009, 8:59 am: thinks her room smells like whiskey and something sickly

new years was a quiet night in, til my sister came home with pink champange for me.

Sat December 13, 2008, 2:13 pm: miami ink :]

i'm not obsessed with miami ink much anymore. but that was around about the time i was.

Sat December 13, 2008, 7:05 am: FINALLY got a socialvibe pink ball in the post

it hasn't came out my bedside drawers since. LOL.

Sun December 7, 2008, 5:16 am: waiting to go for my job interview

still don't have one.

Tue December 2, 2008, 12:16 pm: is the cure on?

yeah, thats what i said when i was drunk the night before.

Mon December 1, 2008, 1:25 pm: I DONT LIKE THIS OR

Mon December 1, 2008, 12:51 pm: JATES EVERYTHIN STUPID ME!


my first drunken facebook statuses.

Wed November 12, 2008, 12:12 pm: no wait actually, ugly.

Wed November 12, 2008, 12:10 pm: yes.


LMAO, NO COMMENT.

Sat November 8, 2008, 4:46 pm: + leyla + mark + branden + jimmy + melvin = BABANOOBA

that was a good in-joke, but it didn't last long.

Sat November 1, 2008, 5:11 pm: met branden + lars from rancid :D t'was greaaaaaat!

it actually doesn't really emphasize how great it really was ):

Sat November 1, 2008, 4:35 am: is seeing rancid tonight!! -asdfghjkl;- :DD!

Sun October 26, 2008, 4:49 pm: is getting rancid tickets tomorrow :D


i like them more now.

Mon October 13, 2008, 3:36 pm: nofx sound check isn't public, FYI.

fat wreck chords emailed me and said i wasn't allowed in their sound check. LOL. stalker.

Mon October 13, 2008, 10:15 am: is scared about the tv people coming :S

my dad was offered to go on this BBC show. we never went on.

Sat October 11, 2008, 9:16 am: got her NOFX ticket! :]

Wed October 8, 2008, 4:12 pm: is TOTALLY GOING TO NOFX IN APRIL (H)

pretty much my initial reaction, posted straight to facebook.

Tue October 7, 2008, 12:50 am: is with LIVLYF2DAFUL + SHEBROWS
i forgot i had those nicknames for liv and leyla.


Sat September 20, 2008, 2:07 pm: is worried about travis barker ):
after the plane crash. fuck, i cried for 2 hours. i love travis.

i hate aim

it gets my hopes up with this notification thingy.
yeah, i tried to talk to john again.
if he's not going to bother, then i shouldn't waste my time either.
i think i'm going to make it my last attempt at talking to him on there.

see, this is why i prefer snail mail. look what the internet has done, with this instant messaging shit.
i just want him to say hello or something? i haven't really thought if he would ever talk to me. some acknowledgement from him would be nice.

i wish i was better with words, and more confident.
since i'm average B student at english, and have limited self-esteem, i don't think this will work for me.










or maybe, i'm a creep, and i'm getting too worked up about trying to make something happen, when it obviously won't.

i can't relate to 99% of humanity.

today was meh.

i actually did lots in photography. well, enough to make me feel like i've done a good amount of work. and toby had a chat with me about work, and i think i'm going to get the drift of the next project: heroes.

then it was lunch. me and leyla had a pub lunch.
we then walked back to college, this random and long route. we walked past this house with a cat in the window, and leyla whistled kind of, and the cat jumped. immd.

art was good. even though it was research, i felt good about doing work in that lesson too. i'm looking forward to tomorrows lesson, which is at the last block.

after that, me and leyla went back to photography so leyla could develop her film. he was going to help leyla, and he asked me if i wanted to stay in the room. in this room, you have to have the lights off, so i would have been standing there pointlessly. oh god, it was still awkward what i heard happened. haha.

um, then film. clockwork orange, again. during the lesson, i remembered how much i love it. that was the best part of today. i'm excited to watch it again, probably tomorrow.

liv, leyla and myself went to town after that. well, the library basically. thats it.

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

today was mixed.

i nearly missed the bus, again. but i didn't.

photography which consisted of not being in the class at all. it was good.
we went outside, then amigos, then my old media classroom, then the dark room. randommmmm.

then enrichment. no one goes cause peter is never in on wednesdays.
the maths teacher took over. he told us to do personal statements, but kept me back, cause i couldn't answer him about if i was going to uni or not. he said he didn't believe me when i said i've spoke to someone about it. he's true in a way.
i felt like crying.
he let me go home early.

then i looked through tattoo pictures when i got home. oh godddddd, i can't wait for mine. 5 months til i can legally get one.

then i met leyla. we went to the metro centre. well, confusing bus drivers wouldn't let me on again. pooooooey. we went to law abiding citizen. it was another horror-ish movie. i enjoyed it though. i think i would have reallyyyyy enjoyed it if they extended one of the murder scenes. i don't want to spoil it for people who want to see it.

don't have much else to say. i just took 4 tablets now for my throat, and they're making me drowzey. so, night.

i am obsessed with this song, so much.





I AM SO BLOODY EXCITED FOR AFI, FUUUUUUCKKK!

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

darling, i want to destroy you.

today was aggieeeee.

i thought i was going to miss the bus, but i had a lucky streak and the bus was late. that was actually brilliant, cause nothing like thats ever happened to me.

then i had key skills exam.
i don't know if i did well or not. some parts were just so obvious, then others were just like "WOTTTTT MAN"
i spent 80 minutes in that room. i forgot to put my water next to me, and i don't know if i was allowed my throat lozengers, since they're considered 'sweets'.
oh fuck i hate when people say soothers are sweets, they're bloody not!
i haven't mentioned i have a dodgy throat atm. i could hear it making weird sounds all the way through the exam. poooooo.

then tutorial pisstake. peter called me EMMA today.
he made me sign something, cause he was told i moved out of the other tyne met. whatever.

lunch then home.
i did some photography work, which is a failure. i need to print more stuff out tomorrow. poo head me.
i drank coffee when i got home. i am really ill, it's not fair.

oh, and the AFI dates are real. guess what my EMA money will go towards this week?
well, i need something for my mam first. no idea what.


i might have a glass of wine, and put a movie on.

Monday, 9 November 2009

i'm not dead, but who could call this a life?

today was fine.

the bus driver had gigantic lumpy moles that looked like they were burnt. it gave me and liv the idea to make a collection of reasons why i can't sleep at night. i might make a blog from it. it's humorous.

it was my first lesson back with emma the art teacher. i was a bit sad at first, but i remembered how hyper john was, and emma is totally calm compared to john. she also gave me other things to look at for my research. one thing she included was auschwitz concentration camp. oh god, awkward. i mentioned something about a picture of all the glasses collected from it, and she made a remark like "ohh, just imagine, those represented how many jews died there.. sad" and i was like "i know :/"
it was.. embarressing. i'm glad nailiah wasn't listening, she would've said something about jewish people.

lunch was weird. we arranged a secret santa, although it was complicated, and we all knew who we were getting. i'm excited for it! i don't think this christmas will be all that great, however it will very much so be different to every other. i won't bother listing why, i'm not prepared for christmas much.

then film. another awkward moment. davey asked people if they felt sorry for alex, and everyone he asked said no, then he said "surely emma, don't you feel sorry for him?" and i just nodded and said "yes." then leyla burst out laughing, then davey did his scary laugh and said "well i guess you did speak alot last lesson!"
i know i'm shy and awkward, but i'm not a monk.
I NOT THINKING FAST.

then oh christ, i spent my free searching to see if the AFI dates were real. i hope they are coming here.

and photography was funny, however toby hates me.
i walked past him, and he didn't achknowledge my existance. yeah, it's either he thinks me and leyla are lesbians, or the robert smith thing bothers him. oh well.
oh, but he did laugh when leyla burped on me. he laughed. he was probably thinking "thats what lesbian couples do to be cute" or something along those lines.

after that me and leyla went to town. i was going to buy a dvd, but i ended up not. and getting a pasty and one of those tea blast drinks. lush.

now i am dreeeeaaaaadddddding my exam. listening to all the devo albums on my ipod shuffled. sexy.

i just went in the loft, my dad can't hear with his headphones on. and i took a picture of him. he has no idea i went in and out the loft. silly billy.
my mam is asleep to and i've been making faces at her. even her favourite programme is on tv. well, i do guess it really shows how boring it actually is. because it is.

Sunday, 8 November 2009

i remember



when that picture was my phone wallpaper, like 3 or 4 years ago.
that wasn't even that long ago, christ.
but back then i was obsessed with panic! at the disco. and me and stacy would annoy everyone by always talking about them. it was the best day ever when we actually saw them live. and we were going to try and meet them at the end, and join the band too. it's quite cringey talking about it, but i really do miss random things like this.

this picture made me think of the first time me and stacy went to haggersten castle together. i remember showing this picture to stacys dad and he said "he's very handsome" and stacy showed her phone wallpaper of ryan ross and her dad was like "he's very.. skinny" haha. i think she was sad after that.
i remember later that night when he gave us lager and it made stacy very hyper. she put her phone in the noodles. i thought it was the funniest thing ever.
when we went back in the bedroom i convinced her this weird thing from inside my kerrang magazine was in the cupboard and she was close to tears.
i don't think i'll ever forget those 3 days.

it's weird how one picture, that has little to do with this whole story can say alot about one time in my life. i miss it like crazy.

i would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine.

last night was better than the morning.
joe came over and we watched the chumscrubber and dodgeball, and ate the chocolates i won the other night. good times, indeedy.

then today was better.
we were both very hyper, and i ended up burning my thumb on the grill. i have a thick scar there now, pooopie!

we then spent around about 2 hours in town. we went to stateside diner, and had fries and coke. i overheard some american girls talking about the frat pack. oml.
after that we went to the library. i got out 1 book. i saw john the art teacher there, but i didn't speak to him or anything.

so i haven't done much else since. i remembered i have an exam on tuesday. shite. but then again, it means i can finish early! fuck, i can't wait to get this key skills over with. thinking about this makes me worried i have other work to get on with. i can only think of photography, which i will need to complete in class.

someone buy me this for christmas



and i'll wear it forever.

Saturday, 7 November 2009

fuck off

i DO NOT look like kelly osbourne.
¬___¬

we've both got round faces, thats probably the only similarity we have.

too shy to scream.

i don't think i'll be doing much today.
this morning i put on the second half of ghost world, since i fell asleep with it on last night.

then my i got the computer working off safe mode somehow, so i decided a list of albums to listen to.
first one was sublimes greatest hits.

now i'm listening to AFI's new album called 'crash love'
it's brilliant. i can imagine i'd be a bigger fan of their stuff if i wasn't actually scared of davey havock a few years ago. yeah that was weird.

the next album i plan to listen to is 'iViva la cobra!' by cobra starship. yeah, that was the album that was on my ipod a few years back. yum.
i forgot what album i was going to listen to after that, but i'll whip something up.

Friday, 6 November 2009

can't think of a title.

today was quite weird, but ended very good!

my mam ended up taking me to college, again. but this one wasn't a normal car ride there, oh god. she was meant to drop me off a few streets away from college as she was picking my auntie up. the road to hers was blocked, and the long way was right next to college. oh she does have to drive far away from the stop area and go "whoops, i'm going to have to pick your auntie up and drop you off later"
it was such a long jorney, i was scared i'll be late.

i got there just in time though. CLOCKWORK ORANGE. yeah, davey asked us what we thought and i said "it's my favourite british movie". after breaktime for the second half of the lesson, i walk in and he said to me "oh i forgot you said this was your favourite movie!". then later on when we had to do this weird disscussion thing, he said "lets get emmas opionin, the one who thinks it's the greatest british movie ever".
oh my god someone listen to me?
and yeah. for the discussion thing, i was put in a group with basically everyone leyla has expressed hate towards. it was very awkward.

then tutorial. my form tutor called me gemma today.
i ended up going to the silverlink for my lunch, alone. it was okay. i think i needed to get out of college, i had 2 hours free.
i went back early, and i found leyla there, and i spent the time talking movies to her.

we went into my art class together. i found out it was johns last ever lesson, and my heart actually sank. leyla understood how sad i was.
he said he'd send me a postcard!

then me, leyla and liv had the most piss taking journey home ever. i'm actually not going to bother saying how complicated it was, but it was good. but the thing about those pouser girls happened at this point. jesus christ, that was weird.

when i got home i basically had no time to do much. i went straight to the chairty thing at the lindifarne. it was the first time back there since i was kicked out and stuff. the girl who grassed me up last time smiled at me. EURGH. you're my sisters 'friend' not mine. plus, you let me down. bitch. prighpoqhboqirgb.

but i had a really good time. i won a lot of stuff. seriously, i had 2 bags of stuff, including CHAMPANGE, WINE, chocolate, egg cup holders, and a weird stationary set.

and now, i am going to put a movie on. i think it'll be ghost world.
i'm going to do my proper daily blog either tonight or tomorrow morning. but here is some thoughts right now.

i don't know why, but right now i'm feeling sooooo excited for derren brown. omg.
next year, pleease?! :)

i should be getting ready for the charity thing, but i decided i should wait til my hair dries a bit more.

okay, i think i will share one thing that happened today.
some teenies at the bus stop were playing panic! at the disco, and i was like omggggggggggggggg my music. then they switched it to blink-182, and liv and leyla were laughing at my face. then we overheard them say something like "mark is the cutest, the drummer and the guy with long hair arn't that nice... mark. mark" or whatever, and i just shouted "mark hoppus is MINE"
then these other girls gave me the dodgiest looks. but still.
those high school children are not allowed to be proper blink fans if they don't even know travis's name, never mind toms. infact, they just refered to him as 'the drummer'. i could've easily mentioned the fact blink have had 2 drummers.
omfg. that pissed me off. panic! at the disco was one thing, but those people liking blink is NOT acceptable in my books.
AUEFYURFVEYKRVKYVRGFKVGYRKY!

that was a note from my fan girl side. thanx.


okay bye.

Thursday, 5 November 2009

my sister thinks i'm on drugs? probably the most hardcore drug i've taken is cocodamol. and when i was offered cocaine i turned it down, but that doesn't matter.


i just can't be fucked to talk to her when she says hurtful shit like that.

i wasn't born with enough middle fingers.

today was okay.

i slept in, which was weird. i wasn't a fan of it. poooo.
then toby wasn't even in for photography, but i actually tried to get on with a bit work this lesson, unlike everyone else (apart from leyla and alice)

oh yeah, leyla handed me a 'present from sam', and it was a bottle of something. apparently it was malibu and fruit shoot. i hate coconut flavour drinks. ewwww pina colada is the most disgusting thing ever!
leyla was sipping on it all day, and i'm pretty sure at one point she was drunk!

um i walked out of art after i signed in cause there was no teacher, i was very uninspired, and i wanted to show leyla videos. we ended up watching mr bean, and zzzap. it was so oldddd, oh god. old times, please.

then film. i hated todays lesson, it really pissed me off. except talking to liv was a laugh.
but we changed the film tomorrow to clockwork orange (which is my favourite british movie), and people in my class just said it as if it was a bad thing. FUCKING HELL MANNNN!!!! EFIGLIRFULFEGBLFUIRGBLUIRGFBLRGVUIBLRVUGLRVUIRLVRGIUVUILGRILUVRGFKLUIFVRILUVEDKRFVLIEUFVBLFUIEVBFLP:EUIBRUIOBRGFEUILBRFL:UIGBRLIGBGUIRBLHBWDFLIUFRBLFIWBUFEWLKFBRLIWURLWGGLBGUIBGRUILGBLUIRGBLR. ¬______________¬
i don't even know if i can express how i felt about this lesson properly. oh god man.
oh yeah, and davey gave me a fright, obviously on purpose. like 5 minutes after he saw liv give me a fright. thanks babe.

then we had a lovley walk with nailiah again. she ALWAYS begs us to get on her side of the metro, it's quite funny considering we'll probably never do it.

and on the bus leyla gave me and liv a test. we had to work out what her backward setnance was. leyla got really stressed at liv, people were staring over. i found it funny though. i felt like i was smart at engligh trying to help liv dear.

so basically after that me and leyla went into town for about 5 minutes. it was hilarious, there must have been about 50 asians at monument, where me and leyla had to wait. she said "you'd be excited if there were that many fat mikes"
oh god, the world would be a terrible place with 50 fat mikes!

when i got home i told my mam i wanted to go to uni, and she said she doesn't want me to unless it was at northumbria or newcastle. they don't do the courses i want ):
she said even york is too far away. i know i'm terribly shy and stuff, but i feel like this is my only chance at something like that. what else am i supposed to do? i want a career in something i actually am intrested in, not marks and spencer wherever hand out jobs these days. i can't exactly be tim burtons apprentice without the proper education for it. not that i'm planning to work with tim burton, although that would be very nice.
it's kind of sad thinking about this, and how i'm going to miss out and not do it.

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

hair comparison.

before:


that is the picture that inspired me to get a haircut. urgh, what the hell happened to my lovely hair, especially on there? ):
haha hello nadine! :P

after:


yeah the after picture is a bit shit, but it's the only one i've got.
now all i need is to bleach the fringe, green it, then black the rest. then ultimatley tastey looking hair.

god bless catastrophe.

today was good.

i had soooo much sleep! my mother gave me a lift to college too, and dropped me off at the co-op. we went in together, cause she wanted to get things for joe who is ill. get welly soon joe. she also bought me lunch.

then photography. toby called parents evening "parents day". it was funny, but for some reason i found it too funny, the thought of people bringing their parents into college with them... i'm sitting laughing at it now, haa.

then lunch was a pomegranite war caused by nailiah? yeah they hit me a few times :/

tutorial was a fuuuuss, but i got out. went straight to town. the hairdressers i wanted to go to was closed, so i ended up going to the second cheapest one, who gave me the wonky haircut last time.

the woman who cut my hair was totally unproffesional. she cut an old womans hair beforehand, that woman could barely stand up, and she just watched her struggle, until another person helped her. then when they went to cut her hair, the hairdresser made the woman take her coat off, without help or anything.
oh and when i was waiting, her and the other staff just stood and talked about home alone.
and when she was cutting my hair, she was terrible at making conversation. i think i actually prefer the bimbo who used to come to my house and do my hair. at least she tried to talk to me..

oh well yeah, i think i got too much cut off. but at least when it grows a bit, i won't complain.
i'll try and show a before and after in another post.

then literally as i got outside, i bumped into aimeeeeeeee!
oml we were talking for about 45 minutes, i haven't seen her in forever. she has pretty much no hair now. she must have been absolutley freezing, even i was a little colder with less hair.

oh, and when i tried to get on the bus, i recognized the bus driver. he told me i wasn't allowed on the bus unless i paied. fuck that, i have a bus pass.
i waited for the 22, and 2 of them came. i got on the one with literally no one on it. it was a quicker journey.

when i got home i took some pictures for photography. then joe came, and we talked about charles manson lots. i drew a fat version of borat on his arm. it was good.
we watched south park.

then when he left, me and sophie watched mr bean. that brought me back a few years back, oh lord. that tv show was amazing. i suppose mr bean helped me understand comedy when i was younger.

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

thanks raf

Stranger: i met a girl on omegle
Stranger: she was very kind and sweet
Stranger: her name was emma
Stranger: and she was only seventeen
Stranger: was that great?

the best lyrics ever.

If only Sham 69 had of united the kids,
If only the 4 Skins had told us ACAB,
If only The Ramones had let us know we were a happy family,
If only The Buzzcocks had shown us how to do it ourself,
If only Crass had shown us there are things more important than wealth,
If only The Vandals had shown us it was OK to smile,
If only The Dead Kennedys had helped us put our government on trial,
If only Rancid had played live, and brought with them that vibe,
If we had Sick Of It All and Madball we could put them all on the frontline,
If we had GG Allin we’d have learned it’s OK to be hated,
If we’d have had The Refused then we could have innovated,
If we’d had Poison Idea then they couldn’t push us over,
If we’d had Minor Threat then we could have done it sober,
If we’d have had Against Me we could have done it all unplugged,
If we’d had Operation Ivy we could have done it then fucked off,
If we had The Blitz, The Clash, Disorder, Propagandhi,
The Exploited, NOFX and anyone that’s handy,

There’s a lesson to be learned, one that I will take home,
When I return to my normal reality zone,
Punk rock has the power to change the world,
It lies in every single punk rock boy and girl,
So don’t let anyone tell you you’re not worth the earth,
These streets are your streets, this turf is your turf,
Don’t let anyone tell you that you’ve got to give in,
Cos you can make a difference, you can change everything,
Just let your dreams be your pilot, your imagination your fuel,
Tear up the book and write your own damn rules,
Use all that heart, hope and soul that you’ve got,
And the love and the rage that you feel in your gut,
And realise that the other world that you’re always looking for,
Lies right here in front of us, just outside this door,
And it’s up to you to go out there and paint the canvas,
After all, you were put on the earth to do this,
So shine your light so bright that all can see,
Take pride in being whoever the fuck you want to be,
Throw your fist in the air in solidarity,
And shout “Viva la punk, just one life, anarchy”.

it was a tragic case of my reality.

i don't know how i am today.
right now, i am okay.

this morning i was preparing for my job interview. like pooooop. i got up far too early too..
then it was getting annoying, and took it out on my mam by throwing random things at her. then, without thinking, i said "mam your voice sounds vaginal"
and she burst out laughing, tested me by saying "what does vaginal mean then, emma?"
and i was like "it's the name of your tablets..?"

on the way to town, i saw a piegeon. not just any one. a sleeping one. in the middle of the road. i was like omfgggggg. i wanted to get a picture of it, to show you how random it actually was, but the car moved as soon as i got my phone out.

so yeah, i'm not going to bother explaining all the things i did in town before the interview, it was very stressy.
oh, but i will mention the photo shop. i needed a passport photo, and i went to the photo shop. yeah, mine looked like a mug shot. i look devilish, and disgusting on it.
while we were waiting, the man looked through someone pictures, then passed it around the staff "eee it's charlie from big brother!"
and he kept looking through them over and over, as if someone had captured pictures of jesus christ himself.

then the interview. pooooey.
i had to do the roleplay, which was telling a customer some type of sofa was out of stock, apart from the display one. apparently the manager said they couldn't sell it. i had to convince the customer to get another sofa instead, or try somewhere else basically.
when the man came in to act it out, he acted it out immediatley, and i was like woah :Z
yeah and then when it was over, he spun on one foot and said "WELL DONE EMMA!"

then yeah, he basically, walked out, and walked in and said i did well, but not well enough. like i did everything fine, just missed out points that would've been better than what i said, and i didn't meet the 'highest benchmark' cause of it.

so i met my mam to tell her. her reaction
"IT'S CAUSE OF YOUR STUPID COAT YOU DIDN'T GET IT, THATS WHY!"
she got me a subway sandwich though, and the conversation all the way back to the car
"i'm gutted emma, are you not? emma, what are you going to do? i'm gutted..."
way to make me look on the bright side, huh? i always get told off for being negative, and the time i do try and stay on the positive side about it, i'm listening to someone making me negative...

then when i got to college, i walked in to tutorial "sorry i'm late"
and peter was like "WHO ARE YOU?! CLAIRE?" and everyone laughed. it was quite funny.
then he's making me get some woman to come in our form, and then he said "oh wait, will you be late like you are today? i can't let you if you do."
and i was like "um i only had a job interview, i thought louise told you i'd be late today?"

then i had lunch, and my free block.
i was so bored. i was uncomfortable being on the computers in the english block, cause anyone can look over and see what other people are doing. i was only going to go on here and do a blog, so i decided to find a more privatly placed computer. i went to the library, only to be told not to go in. then i walked about for ages aimlessly. until i bumped into helena walking home, it was such amazing timing. we spent 45 minutes talking (:
i really love seeing an old friend, and talking for ages after not seeing them much.

then i had key skills, which was the most productive one ever. just as it got to the 15th minute of waiting, i was going to walk out, until kaye ran in. i was looking forward to going home!

then i got on the bus hoooooome. it was annoying near the end of the bus ride, some year 7 children sat by me and kept calling me mother. yeah, funny. i was tempted to turn around and make an insult about their fathers, but i didn't, as i am angelic through and through.

Monday, 2 November 2009

and FUCKKKK

i NEED green day tickets for manchester, plz.
john roecker.

thank the lord my family are christians and celebrate christmas.
when i'm older, i probably won't.
today was better than i expected, again.
i had literally had no sleep, so i was expecting to die today.

my mam was panicking i'd miss the bus, so i almost rushed out the door, then my mam interupted me and said "ahh don't worry, i was going to give you a lift anyway!"

but yeah. i have a job interview for marks and spencer in town tomorrow. i'm rather scared, however i would be very pleased being a slave for a place where lots of jews go often, and earn cash for it. yum.

and my mam scared me this morning. she said "emma, if i ask you something will you not lie to me.. do you smoke cigars?"
LOL.
but yes. once. and the picture of me doing it is on facebook, and i'm not even tagged on it.

um yeah. art was shit, john kept saying for me to bring my postcards in. and more than once, as if he were some sort of wizard and they'd appear infront of me. but i just made some instead and made such a fucking tip.

yeah lunch was okay.
then film. we finally saw the end of the green mile. it was so sad. gfevujrqgfuikyvgfqruikvfrqkf, why do they do that to him? (i was going to give away the ending, but i'm aware some people may not have seen it. if you're one of thoese people, watch it now. plz)
oh and davey made such an idiot out of me asking me "why is it called the green mile?"
i was silent for more than 30 seconds, then i answered "because thats the walk to the death room.. in other places it's called something else"
WHAT. i am such an idiotttt. death room? and other places? i should have been taken to the 'death room' for answering in such a stupid way. i HATE being on the spot in that way. i actually fail at life, why am i like that? ):

then a free, which i totally did not type up my essay, which i was meant to.

then photography. totally blanked by toby today. well, he said "hello, you alright?" but that was probably to louise.
so me and leyla pissed about, again.

we then walked home, like i said. it took an hour and a half. i wasn't even that worn out as i thought i would be. then pretty much right after walking, we made our way to town.
i had free tickets to see a movie called 'harry brown'

i was paranoid they wouldn't let us in cause when i tried to get into bruno with a free ticket and that was an 18 movie too. but we got in fine.
the movie was amazing. it was really emotional most parts, yet disturbing other parts.
jack o'conell who plays cook from skins series 3 is in it. he is an amazing actor. i can imagine he's going to be the most sucessful one from that cast of skins (obviously he can't beat dev patel, yet...)
once we got out, me and leyla just had a geeky talk using all the terminology we learnt in film studies in college. haha. yeah we're kind of scared for our lives now.
well, i might be if i see a mob of charvs again. not surprised if i see them outside the forum on a friday or saturday night after i've came home from town. oh christ.