i am not looking for a bargin, all i really believe in is you.

today was mostly okay.

i enjoyed photography, apart from the fact i did no work whatsoever, and only planned what i'm doing for my written project thing.
and i actually saw the seagulls on the see-through window thing. i was so fascinated by it. it looked like leavesssss. leyla then started to look for photos of seaguls feet, and i was like "i'm certain alice took some!" then i was like "oh no nevermind" and picked up the martin parr video thing. i thought alice took the picture on the cover!

today i realised how old roecker actually is. 43. why is everyone so old?
and especially people i idolize...
i don't know how much i can express that though. it's kind of saddening.
i had this conversation with my dad.
when i saw malcolm mcdowell when he was alex on clockwork orange, then i saw a picture of him now. fucking hell. although that is a massive time gap. i don't know if i want to be old!

then in art, i think i've done too much research. even kaye (who teaches a completley different art subject) is giving me artists to look into. all i have done is made my own postcards and stuck them in. i better not fail this like.

in the free lesson leyla was looking on the dir en grey website and translating things from it. i'm sure google translator isn't right. it's funny though, so it shouldn't really need work if it can give someone something to laugh at.

i really couldn't be arsed with film.
i couldn't be bothered to read anymore amorres perros subtitles, so i went back to my old high school french lesson roots, and just listened to it, and thought how stupid they sounded. the guy was crying down the phone in spanish, but god knows what he was saying, it was too funny.

when i got home, i was given food with mushrooms in.
my whole family know i HATE mushrooms, but they still decide to give me food with it in. i couldn't get it out either. they make me sick. then i was told they couldn't be tasted. it's like having a shite in your coffee, it's not like you'll drink it and not notice it, you know there's fucking shit in there.

my laptop is so annoying. all i wanted for christmas was a new laptop that wasn't second hand, perfectly working. but i'm allowed everything but that.
and i'm not allowed green day tickets either. all i want, to be honest.
but i did watch the roecker interview. it was lovely. apart from one part bothered me. ughtriogbfviubbbiefvbafiuvb.