i guess i haven't done a real post for a while.

being an adult is stupid. it's the first time i've had a birthday and felt like i'd actually grew up a year.
i realise i haven't really mentioned that i pretty much spent my birthday by having an italian meal followed with lots of wine that i didn't pay for.

other than that, i've been busy like you'll never believe. in college everyday this week. editing lots. work ended up being 2 days late (technically 1, but whatever) meaning -10% which is fucking annoying considering the amount of effort myself and 1 (and maybe another) other crew member(s) put in (there's 5 of us)
i feel like i've actually gone mental from it. first the essay, now this. i was sitting crying with laughter at something whilst i'd been editing for 11 hours, and when i looked back at it the next day, i didn't even remember why.
i'm feeling kind of worried about how next year is going to pan about, so i've decided i'm going to try even harder for everything else. i do feel like i try a lot more than most other people in my class, but i still think it's far from the best. i don't know how to put it, i guess i want people in my class to see that i'm getting better.

i finally watched drive. so gutted i missed it at the cinema. so it made me decide that i don't ever miss a film i want to see at the cinema again. i've been to the cinema alone a couple of times now, so even if i don't find anyone i can't go with, it doesn't mean i can't go.
another thing i got from the film; perfect sound. really. this film and the film michael that i saw a few weeks ago have made me want work within the sound area of feature films. it's really changed things for me. i remember the teacher asked on the very first day of college if anyone would consider working on sound, and only 1 person put their hand up. i never imagined that i actually would want to. the funny thing is, i remember the teacher saying that more people should consider it, because it's underrated and there's not many aspiring sound recordists out there.
yeah, i haven't actually spoke about drive. i suppose i'm just going to go on about how well made it is. because it really is. with the title, you'd expect this silly hollywood action car chase sort of film. but it's really far from that. i guess having ryan gosling as the main character doesn't make the argument very convincing, and especially not right now considering almost every woman out there wants to have his babies. but this is probably the best performance he will ever do.

only other film i watched since has been marie antoinette, which i kind of enjoyed. there were some flaws in the cinematography that really annoyed me. don't understand why they couldn't have got the extra shots again? fucking hell, sofia coppla is meant to have flawless film making in her blood! but i think it was really girly, and i felt it wasn't a real period drama sort of film. it made me miss paris a lot.

been working on my own film. it's involes the internet, a teenage girl, a swedish bloke, and paedophilia. i'm putting a lot of thought into it, even though it probably isn't ever going to be made.

okay idk