oxford/dark shadows life

before the trip to oxford i just had, i'd been having a shit week, which ended in me drinking til i forgot the night. it sounds so depressing, but i don't think i deserve to be in that state at all.

however, the past few days have been really really good. i like being reminded how lucky i am, because most of the time i get convinced i'm not lucky at all.

TUESDAY:

my 9 hour coach journey went quickly in comparison to the same one i took in october. i think it's because i'd already endured it. this time no one sat next to me, and i was a bit more comfortable. also, i had LOADS of food. literally too much.
stupid thing was, when i first met up with leyla, we went to mcdonalds. all i wanted was a starburst milkshake and a chicken mayo burger. the man gave me a meal. i didn't even point out to him i didn't want it, i just ate it and felt like dying.
was so tired by the time i got to leylas house, but we were both so hyper (which led us to sit in the dark and impersonate animal laughs and 2 gentlemen called jack and steve...)

WEDNESDAY:
after 2 hours sleep, we had to be up to get to london. the intention was the dark shadows premiere. the amount of time it took for us to get ready and on the coach to london, we were afraid we wouldn't get a space as good as we did at the alice in wonderland premiere, so we decided we wouldn't bother making a fuss.
before we went (probably a reason that held us back going into london) i found out the news of tom gabel from against me! coming out as transgender. before i even read anything properly, i assumed that he had just came out as gay. but after reading he's going to become a woman, i was so surprised! i'm just so obsessed with this whole story right now. it must take a lot of guts to do something like that, especially with the original image that he portrayed as a ~rock star~. people who go against the grain like this inspire me loads. so much respect for laura jane grace!

so me and leyla just walked around london all day, just various places. uh i don't even remember any specific order.
but i ended up buying a bunch of dvds, a milhouse comic, a ghostbusters energy drink, a blackcurrent and raspberry macaroon from laudree and a marshmallow teacake ice cream from chin-chin labs. also had a maassive burger from maxwells, where this happened;

"waiter: is everything alright there?
leyla: yes please"

then we decided, since it was closer to when the celebrities were going to the premiere, we might as well watch them since that was the whole reason for us to go to london in the first place. we actually found a decent spot to stand. wasn't as good as the first premiere, but it could have been a hell of a lot worse. we were practically touching the barrier each, aside from the people in front of us.
it really wasn't long til everyone started to scream, and the someone by the cinemas doors started to speak on the microphone. i have a feeling it was alex zane, but i didn't see him at all, so i might be wrong.
apparently the first people there were tim and helena. though, i couldn't see anything, i didn't burst into tears like last time. i wasn't convinced i'd see him at all, or that he'd even end up close, but he did.
when he was a few people away from us, leyla became really excited for me. i don't think i've ever seen her like this before. when tim was infront of me, she shouted to him "CAN SHE HAVE A PICTURE", i was just like "omg tim burton"  and he said "yeah sure, i'll just sign her book"
when he leaned over to get a photo, i just stared at him, i couldn't believe how close i was to him. leyla had to tell me to look at the camera, JESUS. on the photo my eyes are looking at the camera, but i'm practically facing tim.
once i got the photo i couldn't control myself, my voice went so funny, and i said "thank you.." (regarding the photo, then realising who he was) "thank you for everything, tim"
i could tell he didn't really know what to respond with, but i have a feeling he knew that i wasn't just thanking him for the picture and the autograph. at first i was gutted i didn't write him another letter, but i think being able to say that to him without blubbering too much was probably enough.
i can't get over that i've met him AGAIN. if high school me ever found i'd even meet him once, i would have pissed myself. i'm so grateful there's someone who i have this much of a connection to, the fact this persons existence just made my days more bearable. and i've been able to thank him personally for it, which is the best thing to ever happen to me.

the film's producer went around too, and didn't sign my book. no one knew who he was at first, which was kind of a sad thought for someone like me who aspires to work behind the cameras, and still get credit for my work.

chloe moretz came over. this was when leyla was excited. i was so excited for her too, because again, i wasn't expecting the people we specifically went to see come over to us. they got a photo together and everything. COOLEST!!!!!! even when she looked at me, i was thinking "jesus christ hit girl looked at me"
when johnny depp arrived, the whole crowd went totally mental. i couldn't even see him, and i doubt anyone near did, but they were still going wild. i was just like "okay" and leyla thought my reaction was funny. apparently he was holding back the film, so he had to go in. we weren't that bothered about meeting him, but we decided to have a pint and wait to meet him/we wanted to meet chloe and tim again because they are our perfect humans. we went to yates. i don't know why i thought it was a good idea, all the yates i've ever been to have been trampy and sticky, and just second best to weatherspoons. pint of cider and blackcurrent was like £4 odd, which was silly. but it lasted the whole time we needed to wait. we were sitting talking about chloe and tim, basically. when we went back, i discovered wetherspoons was next door, i wanted to cry. but johnny was already outside too. i didn't see him til he got in his car, and waved before the car drove away through the crowd. it was the most hollywood thing i'd ever witnessed in my life.
leyla spotted the posterboard thing around the barrier lying about, and she grabbed it. she suggested i should get one too, which i ended up getting a smaller one of. really, most annoying thing i've ever had to carry before. we walked about 2 miles through london with them. so many people were staring. at that point, it was even more obvious that i was a tim burton fangirl, due to the stripey tights, black attire, and a massive fucking board saying dark shadows. crying.
when we got the tube back to oxford, the guy was like "wait outside", thinking it meant i had to ditch it. i started to feel annoyed at the idea of carrying it around for nothing. but he opened a special part of the bus for me, which was nice. when i got onto the bus, some fat old man said "FUCK YOU" to me, and i got such a fright. apparently i hit my bag off him. apparently sorry wasn't the right thing to say to him. if anything, he was the inconsiderate one, not me. people like this make me want to kill.

THURSDAY:
was woken up by a stupid phonecall which was the worst part of my weekend. but it was followed by leyla sitting up and shouting "MODERN FAMILY" and did a massive long fart <3
we basically spent that day in watching number 23, natural born killers, rachel getting married, and lots of simpsons episodes. i had my first ever dominos pizza, which was rather cute. i want more please :(

FRIDAY:
we went to see dark shadows. was in the afternoon, but i was convinced it was the morning. before the film, the trailers were the dictator, MOONRISE KINGDOM, (men in black3 which doesn't matter) and an exclusive frakenweenie trailer which i didn't expect at all. was so exciting.
but i loved the film. it made me think back to when i was obsessed with vampires, long before i knew what twilight was.
after that leyla took me for my first atomic burger. was so cute, i got LOADS OF GUAC <3 mexican food life.
then we got home and watched more programmes and got ridiculously hyper. idek.

SATURDAY:
5.30 wake up, turned out leyla had been awake since 3 and i felt bad :(
went to mcdonalds for breakfast for a wrap, OXFORD TRADITION OR SUMFIN
and yeah i had to carry those boards when leyla left, and that is what i was most scared of~
9 hour trip home, which was horrible and sweaty, and despite having LOADS of spare seats about, the person next to me sat next to me all the way back to newcastle :(
BUT WHEN I GOT OFF THE BUS, AND MY DAD DROVE ME HOME I SAW DERREN BROWN. I WAS STARING AT HIM AND HE LOOKED BACK I WAS LIKE, ARE YOU KIDDING. calm down emma.

idk i can't be bothered to re-read this all, but this means i had a nice little escape from newcastle, and i really needed it, or i would have ended up doing something worse than drinking til i don't remember things.
don't like having the problems again, but alright. i'm going back to london in less than a week, so maybe i should just deal with it til then <3

WOW I'M DOING ANOTHER POST, AND I FOUND THIS DRAFT I FORGOT ABOUT. WHOOPS. (working on my other one instead, but here's how i left this one)

i don't even know whats worthy of a mention on here anymore.

counting down to my 3rd oxford visit/3rd premiere/4th official visit to london.
a week til i go to oxford (unless megabus let me change it to the monday, which i'm so uncertain on their response) 8 days til the dark shadows premiere, and 9 days til my day of travelling home.
i just keep thinking about this

also not long til kapow, which will be my 5th visit to london. can't wait to move there, or something.

WELL WELL WELL, haven't posted in a while. and honestly, i haven't even been in the mood to put off my work to do so. i've been so busy recently, so much work. i have still have some left to do, like in general for my course, but i can't imagine having as much written work as i just had to put up with.

i guess the only interesting things that have really happened is things i've bought.

first one of these is a ticket to see tenacious d in glasgow. it was kind of an impulsive thing the way i bought them immediately, but it's something that i'd always intended to do in a way. i mean, i think it's a key thing for mine and leylas friendship that we HAVE to see tenacious d together, or we'd end up really old and we'd cry the most about missing them in leeds in 2007.
turns out its the day before NOFX in newcastle. we're going to be hurrying forever.

and next thing i bought was a megabus ticket to oxford a week before i have to go to kapow. me and leyla are going to the dark shadows premiere <3
i'd like to meet tim burton again, and especially danny elfman to make up for missing him the last time. possibly lots of tears will be shed, but it's so worth it.

OH and i went to the opera with my grandma. that was different, but i actually enjoyed it more than i expected to. don't knock it til you try it, man.

i had a weird day at work today. i have a new boss, and half of the shift was horrible, and the other half was bearable. i guess i should look for a new job after i've had a brill lifetime with jack black and tim burton.

BYE.

uhhhhh hi hi hi again.
last tuesday i saw into the abyss with a satellite q&a with the director werner herzog. it was interesting. it's weird, but after the west memphis three, i've found that i really enjoy learning about death row. it's kind of sick, i mean, i don't believe killing people for their crime is right, but learning about the people who go through with it. 

and werner is just really intelligent. he answered hardly any questions, cause he gave every question such through and well thought out answers.
currently enjoying his 'death row' series on channel 4 as well, which is pretty similar to into the abyss.

i spent the most part of last week preparing for my presentation about my short film. when i got around to doing it, it was infront of a teacher i had never seen in my life. it went really well, apart from the fact there was a gigantic camera infront of me the whole time. the teacher said he could tell i'm shy, and i don't look like the sort of person who should be. that was pretty much the only negative feedback i had, he gave me tons of positive feedback, which i didn't expect.

been watching parks and recreation none stop for the past few days. it's taken over my life, i'm almost up to date with it, which is going to kill me. godddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

went to durham on monday with liv and sophie. was a nice day out, shame it wasn't as sunny last week.

and yesterday i won tickets to see sideways. one of my faves. got free wine too, (double thanks to liv hating wine, wooooooo)
was nice getting the cinema experience from the film. i want to see all my favourites in the cinema one day, i'm sure i can get that to happen.

really can't be bothered cause i want to watch some more parks now OKAY BYE

i guess i haven't done a real post for a while.

being an adult is stupid. it's the first time i've had a birthday and felt like i'd actually grew up a year.
i realise i haven't really mentioned that i pretty much spent my birthday by having an italian meal followed with lots of wine that i didn't pay for.

other than that, i've been busy like you'll never believe. in college everyday this week. editing lots. work ended up being 2 days late (technically 1, but whatever) meaning -10% which is fucking annoying considering the amount of effort myself and 1 (and maybe another) other crew member(s) put in (there's 5 of us)
i feel like i've actually gone mental from it. first the essay, now this. i was sitting crying with laughter at something whilst i'd been editing for 11 hours, and when i looked back at it the next day, i didn't even remember why.
i'm feeling kind of worried about how next year is going to pan about, so i've decided i'm going to try even harder for everything else. i do feel like i try a lot more than most other people in my class, but i still think it's far from the best. i don't know how to put it, i guess i want people in my class to see that i'm getting better.

i finally watched drive. so gutted i missed it at the cinema. so it made me decide that i don't ever miss a film i want to see at the cinema again. i've been to the cinema alone a couple of times now, so even if i don't find anyone i can't go with, it doesn't mean i can't go.
another thing i got from the film; perfect sound. really. this film and the film michael that i saw a few weeks ago have made me want work within the sound area of feature films. it's really changed things for me. i remember the teacher asked on the very first day of college if anyone would consider working on sound, and only 1 person put their hand up. i never imagined that i actually would want to. the funny thing is, i remember the teacher saying that more people should consider it, because it's underrated and there's not many aspiring sound recordists out there.
yeah, i haven't actually spoke about drive. i suppose i'm just going to go on about how well made it is. because it really is. with the title, you'd expect this silly hollywood action car chase sort of film. but it's really far from that. i guess having ryan gosling as the main character doesn't make the argument very convincing, and especially not right now considering almost every woman out there wants to have his babies. but this is probably the best performance he will ever do.

only other film i watched since has been marie antoinette, which i kind of enjoyed. there were some flaws in the cinematography that really annoyed me. don't understand why they couldn't have got the extra shots again? fucking hell, sofia coppla is meant to have flawless film making in her blood! but i think it was really girly, and i felt it wasn't a real period drama sort of film. it made me miss paris a lot.

been working on my own film. it's involes the internet, a teenage girl, a swedish bloke, and paedophilia. i'm putting a lot of thought into it, even though it probably isn't ever going to be made.

okay idk

birthday blog. god i'm an ADULT, are you really kidding. i feel so much older.

i don't want to look braggy braggy but i actually got a lot considering i asked for 3 things. here's what i got off my parents:

badge it machine,
biker goggles,
drive (dvd),
black and white polka dot shorts,
burgandy and beige polka dot dress,
cream sheer blouse,
long sleeved black top,
2 bras,
h&m duvet cover,
massive box of chocolates (don't remember the make, they're actually all still there too JEEZUS),
those fruit jelly sticks,
vo5 shampoo & conditioner,
2 bottles of shaving foam (idk),
um cheapy asda socks (idk),
face wipes,
nail foils,
nail varnish remover pen,
bottle of shiraz wine.

off my sister:

marc jacobs 'lola' perfume gift set,
massive tub of sweetie pie body jelly from lush,
whoopie pie, cookies and macaroon recipe book,
hotel chocolat birthday box,
cupcake earrings,
purple and blue nail varnishes.

off leyla:
seth rogen handbook,
HEROES THE NOVEL xxx,
steve zissou cap apparently (not got one yet)
also worth mentioning the funky pigeon card that has a collage of cam from modern family on the front (everyone thinks it's seth rogen)

other people things:
hair cut and back combing brush - auntie teresa
warren jacobs diamond necklace - chris
handmade denim shorts bag (omg) - lucy
a crunchie and a chomp bar (omg) - lewi
bottle of sparkling rose - auntie anne & uncle steven
lots of money that i've lost count of that WAS going to go towards my dream dress
pint of rose wine - manager of the corner house
taxi ride - taxi driver
pizza and chips - blokes at aroma pizza

i shouldn't be doing this blog, been insisting on doing work for 2 hours now, but i still haven't got around to it. i suppose doing this is better than doing nothing?

i'm really obsessed with the last 2 films i saw at the cinema.
on thursday i had a really crappy day, and i decided to cheer myself up with a red velvet cupcake and a trip to the cinema alone. was SO worth it. i saw this austrian film called 'michael'. the cinematography, the performances, the use of sound, and pretty much everything else about the film was perfect. it was made so cleverly, i swear, europeans make some of the best films but they never seem to get any recognition? i came out of the cinema literally shaking i was so nervous. when i got home and read about it even more, i just fell more and more in love with the film. it's beaten the descendants as my favourite film of the year (sorry alexander payne, i still love you dearly)
i had to share the trailer, oh man.



then last night i got free tickets for 21 jump street. i'd actually been wanting to see it since i started to follow jonah hill on twitter, and he'd post photos from on set. i wasn't expecting it to be funny, but i ended up laughing a lot. it was really surprising.

so if you want to go to the cinema any time soon, i recommend both of those films. chances are, you'll probably like one of them. if you like both, that's even more super.
i just want to go to the cinema forever, it's so cool these days. (except i didn't really mention i also saw wanderlust last week and it was okay) (did i mention jack and jill the week before? whoops i really did see that)

can't believe it's nearly my 20th birthday, i just want to be a kid forever.
i kind of realised today, i'm probably going to be one of those adults that's not really mature and no one can take seriously. which is kind of sad, but it's the closest to being a kid forever.

maybe i should do work now. i haven't even done a proper post but HI, BYE.