to know you is to hate you, so loving you must be like suicide.

today was good, but a piss-take.

the snow was so thick. like, the thickest i've ever seen it in my life. i died this morning when i only had my converse on in the snow. there's 2 holes on the inner side of each, and it slowly filled with snow whenever i was outside. not only that, i chose to wear one pair of socks, not even fancy thick ones. i miss my fake uggs. my sister has them apparently. ugh.

well, no first lesson today. after registration, i originally kept walking around the college entrance deciding weither just to go home, even though there was no comfirmation of the rest of the lessons cancelling. i even stood at the bus stop for 10 minutes speaking to him what to do. during this, joelle parked next to the bus stop, and ran into college. i was hoping, that she was urgently informing them the rest of the days cancelled. but that encouraged me to go in and find out. instead of asking about it, i sat by one of the computers and started to write up my first pen-pal letter. it was so hard starting the whole conversation, but hopefully it's going to be different to my last pen-pal. from what i understand of her, she's a total contrast to my last pen-pal. don't get me wrong, she isn't a bad person, just we ended up just texting rather than actually writing letters, which was saddening and expensive.

then leyla came to join me cause she finished a lesson early. davey walked by, and came over to tell us that he'd spoken to the people who wrote the offensive things on the quiz we had on the last lesson before christmas. i didn't react, but wanted to say thanks. leyla just said "cool"
it's kind of funny, but davey was obviously caring enough to do something about it. like if it happened in photography, toby would've blamed one of us for doing it.

and i also found out college finished at 12. i only had a photography lesson at 11.20. it pissed me off. we were lateish for that lesson too cause we were watching charles manson dancing. it's a perfect excuse aswell. just blame all your educational problems on charles manson.
i even left earlier too with leyla to get my new photography workbook. well toby insisted i should have one by tomorrow.
so i bought one at the royal quays, along with a book named 'panic' by jeff abbott. it was only 25p. leyla bought a copy too.

oh and at the greggs stand, leyla bought me a sausage roll, and got herself a sausage and bean melt.
but when she asked for them, she just said to the woman "sausage... roll and sausage and bean melt"
it was too funny. i'm laughing now thinking about it. i can imagine it would be alot more cringey if i had been the one buying them.

we then went into wallsend, for my stamp. it cost me 90p to send that letter. it's only 62p for a postcard, so why should one page be 30p more? pfft.
ohh another funny greggs moment. leyla bought a pasty, and it fell out the bottom of the bag. and we were standing laughing at it for about a minute and it was still lying on the floor.

when i got home my feet were itchy, cause of the snow. oh, and did i mention, my front yard is perfect. no ones walked in it today, and the snow also fell from the roof. i wish i took a picture of it, but i guess i couldn't take a perfect shot of it without christening it with footprints. if it's still as nice tomorrow, i'll give it a try.

and so far, my book is intresting. it's a crime/thriller, which i wasn't too excited about. it's about a film maker whoes mother forces to come back home, even though he lives 2 hours away. when he gets there, the mother is dead, and the people who killed her try and kill him. i don't want to go too into it. but i didn't really explain much more than the blurb of the book did.
i'm on chapter 7 now. since i'm off tomorrow, i intend to read after celebrity big brother. ooh i'm old (:

i keep forgetting to mention

every night since i've started college again, like just as i start to dream, i always dream i slip on the ice. i actually like slip aswell, even though i'm lying down, and it wakes me up.

it seems more of the sort of thing i'd write on here.

you can turn the other cheek, just don't turn the other way.

today was boring.

i got enough sleep last night. but it's a shame my jaw is in agony cause that'll probably keep me up tonight. pewp.

i had to miss my lie in today for stupid registration. it's supposed to be 10 minutes, but peter was like "we have 15 minutes"
oh, and at the begining of the lesson he said "HELLO LOUISE" when she wasn't even there, the he said "oh, thats not louise" so i turned around and he went "hello!"

then when louise did come in he said "emma!" and louise said "i'm louise" then peter looked at me and said "louise"
i can't tell if it's on purpose or not. it's funny, but i can imagine it's going to get annoying.
he said to someone "have i met you before?" for fucks sake, we've been in that form class for about 2 months.

i spent my 2 hour free in north sheilds with louise, alice and leyla.
i got paracetamol and water. 19p each.
i really enjoy cheap things.

then photography seemed short. toby was out the class most of the time, so that meant no proper work done. i couldn't be bothered to write up my evaulation, so i'm going to type something up, if i have the motivation.

oh, and i hate the weather, only because you can't tell if the bus will be late or not. i waited 3 minutes at the bus stop after the due time, then started to walk to the next one that comes close to home. the first bus drives past me, not close enough to get to the bus stop in time. FML.
my feet have been so cold without my cheap ugg boots, going in the snow without them isn't the same.

when i actually got home, i was in for over an hour til my dad found out i was home. i thought it was quite funny.

i came up with the coolest idea to have a jukebox in the bathroom cupboard. it just makes sense. i love when i come up with thoughts that i think just work. i can't express it, cause i've never really spoke about it to anyone.

tha man who sold the world.

today was alright to start with, pooopie to end with, even though it's barely over.

first day back at college, with the new registration system. peter was late. how annoying. if he's late everyday, whats the point?

i spent art with nailiah and leyla. i did no work, since all we did was have a laugh in the art office. it was a nice change, but i kind of miss focusing on my work. it got me kind of worried.
also, we found out that the art exam is 'obsessions and passions'. FUCK. what am i supposed to do mine about? in art i'm doing postcards/serial killers, and in photography i'm doing music. but at least i have time to think of something decent, i suppose.

i then had a free. i spent that with louise walking up to get my buspass re-newed. this took up all of the free block, and it we got back right on time for lunch.

last lesson was film. we watched american history x. i actually have been wanting to watch it for a while now. i'm totally shocked at it so far. i just hate how there's no positive side to the story. and i really have a problem with racism, and this was basically a bunch of nazi-skinheads ganging up against anyone who isn't a white protestant.
i guess it was how violent it was what shocked me the most.
this was the last part we saw in class.


OH DID I MENTION AFTER THAT LESSON I WAS GOING TO THE DENIST? URGH, FML.

yes. and it was horrible.
they pulled a tooth out, and kept cracking it, and all that was going through my head was that scene.
it was the worst pain i have ever been through in my life. and she injected the numbing stuff 8 times on the left side of my mouth, and i felt everything. it's still bleeding now.

us or them

today was a lazy one.

woke up really early thinking "i'll nap for another half an hour" and end up sleeping for almost another 3 hours.

i basically got my work ready for tomorrow. i'm actually quite glad i'm going back, college isn't too hard anyway, i just want it over with already.
well, i did my american beauty essay, just modified it to make it better, then attempted the script then failed. it said "refer to sampler sheet" which i obviously wasn't given.

and then i did my photography evaulation. i had a hard time writing it cause all i was writing was negative shit.

then i waited all day for 'the simpsons movie'
greeeeeeen dayyyyyyyyy.
i like it when channel 4 has films on. i want to see slumdog millionare on wednesday. my mam borrowed it a while back and i didn't get to see it.

now celebrity big brother is on and i'm drinking horlicks. byeeee.

today was okaaaayy

lucy and lewi came over. i played on neo-pets with lucy. she's had the account for 4 years now, but only ever been it when she's came here. i'm surprised they can't die, considering everytime we go back on they're 'dying'.
then they went on the brain tranier on the wii.

after they went, i spent basically allllll day watching back to back scrubs.
i really should buy that boxset with all the seasons, apparently the price has dropped so much over the christmas holidays.

ohhhh well. i intended to write my first letter to destiny today, but i just didn't.

first blog of 2010.

yeah i thought it was pointless posting at all yesterday, considering the party i was invited to pretty much cancelled. i just did what i did every new year, which was watch jools holland's hootanany on bbc2 with my dad.

i'd just like to say, 2009 was horrible, apart from some things (some things being 28th april 2009)
doing this blog everyday has kept me sane, and gave me something decent to do for the past 5 months.
i don't know who reads it anymore, but if you are, i'd like to thank you for taking the time to do it.

i want 2010 to have cooler memories, stuff that wouldn't have happened last year.
so i decided to get a new pen-pal. her name is destiny and she's from chicago. this is one of the things i'm most excited about this year.