someone buy me this for christmas

and i'll wear it forever.

fuck off

i DO NOT look like kelly osbourne.
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we've both got round faces, thats probably the only similarity we have.

too shy to scream.

i don't think i'll be doing much today.
this morning i put on the second half of ghost world, since i fell asleep with it on last night.

then my i got the computer working off safe mode somehow, so i decided a list of albums to listen to.
first one was sublimes greatest hits.

now i'm listening to AFI's new album called 'crash love'
it's brilliant. i can imagine i'd be a bigger fan of their stuff if i wasn't actually scared of davey havock a few years ago. yeah that was weird.

the next album i plan to listen to is 'iViva la cobra!' by cobra starship. yeah, that was the album that was on my ipod a few years back. yum.
i forgot what album i was going to listen to after that, but i'll whip something up.

can't think of a title.

today was quite weird, but ended very good!

my mam ended up taking me to college, again. but this one wasn't a normal car ride there, oh god. she was meant to drop me off a few streets away from college as she was picking my auntie up. the road to hers was blocked, and the long way was right next to college. oh she does have to drive far away from the stop area and go "whoops, i'm going to have to pick your auntie up and drop you off later"
it was such a long jorney, i was scared i'll be late.

i got there just in time though. CLOCKWORK ORANGE. yeah, davey asked us what we thought and i said "it's my favourite british movie". after breaktime for the second half of the lesson, i walk in and he said to me "oh i forgot you said this was your favourite movie!". then later on when we had to do this weird disscussion thing, he said "lets get emmas opionin, the one who thinks it's the greatest british movie ever".
oh my god someone listen to me?
and yeah. for the discussion thing, i was put in a group with basically everyone leyla has expressed hate towards. it was very awkward.

then tutorial. my form tutor called me gemma today.
i ended up going to the silverlink for my lunch, alone. it was okay. i think i needed to get out of college, i had 2 hours free.
i went back early, and i found leyla there, and i spent the time talking movies to her.

we went into my art class together. i found out it was johns last ever lesson, and my heart actually sank. leyla understood how sad i was.
he said he'd send me a postcard!

then me, leyla and liv had the most piss taking journey home ever. i'm actually not going to bother saying how complicated it was, but it was good. but the thing about those pouser girls happened at this point. jesus christ, that was weird.

when i got home i basically had no time to do much. i went straight to the chairty thing at the lindifarne. it was the first time back there since i was kicked out and stuff. the girl who grassed me up last time smiled at me. EURGH. you're my sisters 'friend' not mine. plus, you let me down. bitch. prighpoqhboqirgb.

but i had a really good time. i won a lot of stuff. seriously, i had 2 bags of stuff, including CHAMPANGE, WINE, chocolate, egg cup holders, and a weird stationary set.

and now, i am going to put a movie on. i think it'll be ghost world.

i'm going to do my proper daily blog either tonight or tomorrow morning. but here is some thoughts right now.

i don't know why, but right now i'm feeling sooooo excited for derren brown. omg.
next year, pleease?! :)

i should be getting ready for the charity thing, but i decided i should wait til my hair dries a bit more.

okay, i think i will share one thing that happened today.
some teenies at the bus stop were playing panic! at the disco, and i was like omggggggggggggggg my music. then they switched it to blink-182, and liv and leyla were laughing at my face. then we overheard them say something like "mark is the cutest, the drummer and the guy with long hair arn't that nice... mark. mark" or whatever, and i just shouted "mark hoppus is MINE"
then these other girls gave me the dodgiest looks. but still.
those high school children are not allowed to be proper blink fans if they don't even know travis's name, never mind toms. infact, they just refered to him as 'the drummer'. i could've easily mentioned the fact blink have had 2 drummers.
omfg. that pissed me off. panic! at the disco was one thing, but those people liking blink is NOT acceptable in my books.
AUEFYURFVEYKRVKYVRGFKVGYRKY!

that was a note from my fan girl side. thanx.


okay bye.

my sister thinks i'm on drugs? probably the most hardcore drug i've taken is cocodamol. and when i was offered cocaine i turned it down, but that doesn't matter.


i just can't be fucked to talk to her when she says hurtful shit like that.

i wasn't born with enough middle fingers.

today was okay.

i slept in, which was weird. i wasn't a fan of it. poooo.
then toby wasn't even in for photography, but i actually tried to get on with a bit work this lesson, unlike everyone else (apart from leyla and alice)

oh yeah, leyla handed me a 'present from sam', and it was a bottle of something. apparently it was malibu and fruit shoot. i hate coconut flavour drinks. ewwww pina colada is the most disgusting thing ever!
leyla was sipping on it all day, and i'm pretty sure at one point she was drunk!

um i walked out of art after i signed in cause there was no teacher, i was very uninspired, and i wanted to show leyla videos. we ended up watching mr bean, and zzzap. it was so oldddd, oh god. old times, please.

then film. i hated todays lesson, it really pissed me off. except talking to liv was a laugh.
but we changed the film tomorrow to clockwork orange (which is my favourite british movie), and people in my class just said it as if it was a bad thing. FUCKING HELL MANNNN!!!! EFIGLIRFULFEGBLFUIRGBLUIRGFBLRGVUIBLRVUGLRVUIRLVRGIUVUILGRILUVRGFKLUIFVRILUVEDKRFVLIEUFVBLFUIEVBFLP:EUIBRUIOBRGFEUILBRFL:UIGBRLIGBGUIRBLHBWDFLIUFRBLFIWBUFEWLKFBRLIWURLWGGLBGUIBGRUILGBLUIRGBLR. ¬______________¬
i don't even know if i can express how i felt about this lesson properly. oh god man.
oh yeah, and davey gave me a fright, obviously on purpose. like 5 minutes after he saw liv give me a fright. thanks babe.

then we had a lovley walk with nailiah again. she ALWAYS begs us to get on her side of the metro, it's quite funny considering we'll probably never do it.

and on the bus leyla gave me and liv a test. we had to work out what her backward setnance was. leyla got really stressed at liv, people were staring over. i found it funny though. i felt like i was smart at engligh trying to help liv dear.

so basically after that me and leyla went into town for about 5 minutes. it was hilarious, there must have been about 50 asians at monument, where me and leyla had to wait. she said "you'd be excited if there were that many fat mikes"
oh god, the world would be a terrible place with 50 fat mikes!

when i got home i told my mam i wanted to go to uni, and she said she doesn't want me to unless it was at northumbria or newcastle. they don't do the courses i want ):
she said even york is too far away. i know i'm terribly shy and stuff, but i feel like this is my only chance at something like that. what else am i supposed to do? i want a career in something i actually am intrested in, not marks and spencer wherever hand out jobs these days. i can't exactly be tim burtons apprentice without the proper education for it. not that i'm planning to work with tim burton, although that would be very nice.
it's kind of sad thinking about this, and how i'm going to miss out and not do it.