i feel like today i did something i don't want to forget, and i know blogging about it might suggest i will, but i feel like expressing it will probably imprint it in my mind more.
gosh, i'm making such a big deal about it, but i've never really been proud of myself for anything like this!

in college today, we were made to set up the tv studio as if we're going to do a live broadcast. the teacher allocated us roles, but he basically pointed to my group and said gallery stuff. i was worried about sorting out the cables, but i didn't even need to do that. we had 2 hours til we were going to do a transmission of a fake news bulletin to various places around the college.
i ended up being the vision mixer, which is the person who controls which camera shots are broadcast. i was so nervous doing it, but i felt like it was a real taste of the sort of work i'm aiming to end up in hopefully.
it was really quite scary thinking people were watching what i could control. i wasn't even watching to be honest.
once it was over with, the teacher individually summarized how well we did. he really praised me a lot for how well i did, in front of the class and when i was by myself. although i felt like maybe i'm getting too much praise for it, i didn't consider it was the first time i did that, and i really do put myself down too much.
what the bad part was, the teacher lied about it being broadcast around the college.
in a way i was gutted, it no longer felt as exciting and scary as it originally did.

basically doing that has made me look forward to doing more practical work at college. i'm really glad i've got a bit more confidence in something.