today was rhorueshoigggeasa.

me and liv had a nice walk to college, as if it was monday.

the photography exam was annoying, but not as bad as i expected.
i had to sit on the only spare table, the obnoxious loner one. i was then joined by joy.
louise wanted me to model for her near the start, with the black sheet wrapped around me. it was awkward cause i felt scary. i would hate to be muslim.

i used a black colouring pencil to do my work, til it went blunt. i was to scared to break the silence, so in my half an hour free i bought a pencil sharpner from amigos. when i walked out and sat at the tables, the dinner ladies all had a conversation about how i asked for a pencil sharpener. it was like a weird sort of patronizing bitching.

the printer didn't work til the last half, and goth city rockers had taken over the computers. i literally analysed every single thing in my book, which annoys me. i could've done that any other time i've had a photography lesson.

then the session i was supposed to be clearing up in, i spent printing my giant pile of work. literally, there must have been around 30 sheets of paper i printed on. it isn't even all of my photos.
when i was there though laurie sat and spoke to me. it was the first time i spoke to her since she fell out with everyone, so it was pretty awkward.

art was okay.
emma gave me a camera, and i had to take a bunch of self-portraits. it was the most awkward thing of the day. i'd also like to point out if you haven't noticed already, how awkard my day has been.
the only people in the class were kim and joy, and they looked at my every move as i walked around the class. so i hid in the art competition room, and took some. i became paranoid and noticed cars driving by, and i felt so stupid. i hate taking photos of myself because i feel like people get the impression i am vain. whatever.

i actually got to listen to music, which was all gogol bordello. i also briefly had the cure in my head in between, considering i had read the lyrics to "13th" over and over. it was the only lyrics i had included in my art book :/

but near the end of the lesson, emma pointed out i didn't actually do anything towards a final piece. i felt so stupid, as if i actually didn't do the exam at all. ugh. at least i know what i'm doing.

the bus was very late. just as i was going to walk away from the bus stop, the bus arrived. cut my life into pieces.

oh lord, i went on the wii fit before and it told me i was underweight. i didn't know what to do. but i did it again and it said "woah what are you holding that weighs -" and said my weight. not good.
my target for 2 weeks time is to gain a BMI of 0. great. like i'm going to lose all of my weight that quickly.
at least i lost a stone fast though, eeeeee.

i did work when i got home, but i'm disapointed at how little it was. i found it diffcult to find songs that i wanted to include in my work that wasn't the cure. i feel the cure fit into my work more than any other band, but not many bands have the right lyrics to fit my work. idk, idk, idk my dear.

i was going to watch something, but i have no time by the looks of it.