i have decided

that i am going to walk more.
i'm walking home from college tomorrow, just because i can.

i have a mental list of things to do this week on my mind. i'm not going to share it all, but one of them is get a fucking haircut, hippy.
seriously. i hate my hair. i need it green again. my hair is in a hideous contition, aswell as my face, but i won't even start on that.

poooey. i am so ugly, and i think maybe it's a good thing.
apart from me moaning about it all the time.

goodnight people.

i honestly don't understand

why i have such a bitch of a sister. well, about 75% of the time she's a bitch.
i can't be bothered to argue.


i'm far too bored. my life is boring.
i need some wine. i haven't had any rose for days now.

i wish i did something on halloween..

other than tidying my room for hoursss. it's not even that tidy anymore.
meh. next year i can drink, and i'll be charles fucking manson.




yes, i did need to post another john roecker picture. i need to stop. it's so stalkerish, he's barely famous.



someone take me to hollywood.

i'm a hopeless romantic, you're just hopeless.

today wasn't really as bad as i expected.
i have been thinking about things, but i should talk to someone about them rather than post them publically, to be honest. i might go to the councellor again or something...

but my mam took me, sophie and chris to some buffet in gateshead. it was okay. it was too expensive. the people there were either too obese, pervs, or a kid who kept taking a drink then refilling it again at the stand when everyone else was in the queue.

i put some more songs on my ipod too. i need more music still. i have a 160GB ipod, and 6000+ songs only takes up 40GB. i don't have any of my dads viynls on yet.
or i think this week i may purchase some cd's by bands/artists that i don't have any by yet. like last.fm recommendations or whatever. i really want to get that cobra starship cd that was on my first ipod. my sister deleted everything off that without asking me :/

and i did my photography essay. i'm glad to have it over with. i really want to try hard in my lessons, i just don't know if i am even good enough for my subjects.
but it was about the parrworld exhibition at the baltic, so i suppose it was hardly much of a task, cause it's really good.

okaaaay i don't know what else to blog about. i'll probably do another one later.

my sister bought me a fourtune cookie. i don't know why, but it was nice of her.
the message inside said

Your will take a pleasant journey to a place far away.

and before someone says i put an r on by accident, i didn't.
i hope that means i'm going to america sometime soon ♥

i just typed up a blog about sad thoughts. but i kept it as a draft. i don't know if anyone would read it, it's so long. and it makes me sad.

and my mam just came into my room to cut her fingernails, and she let them fall on my floor. i spent all day yesterday tidying my room. UYFEUYVRFIFVRIRGVIUVIRVFUCKUGFIVRG! whyyyyyyyyy?
then she just laughed it off. then changed the subject. i was screaming at her to pick it up, and she just talked over me. NO MAM. JUST NO.


i'm in no good mood at all today.
not looking forward to college tomorrow either.

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