I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED DERREN BROWN!! ):

but i had a good night out. looks like i won't be winning the lottory anytime soon.
i'm going to 4od it though. when i have a computer with working sound.

i don't know why i'm up so early! i think its always when i have alcohol the night before i wake up earlier.
and speaking of alcohol i regret everything i say when intoxicated. apart from facebook statuses. but i didn't go on facebook last night.
i don't think i was even that drunk. except chris said something like "LOOK YOU JUST FELL" and i said "i didn't fell"
and then sophie and chris wouldn't stop repeating it to me as if i hadn't heard it.
i blame the whisky shot chris thought would be a good idea. it was the worst whiskey i have everrrrrr had.
oh and apparently i asked chris not to stab me.

i really want some lemonade now. without the rose wine maybe.
even though i'm not hungover and i'd be fine with it, i think i'd just like lemonade thanks.
so i'm going to go in a minute to get some and post my postcards after i've watched yo gabba gabba :)
i don't have anything else planned for today, but i think i'd better be tidying my room. my sister poured all the rubbish out my bin so i'd have something to throw up in, even though i didn't feel like i was going to. fail.



on a leaving note, i'm wearing last nights clothes.

i wanna be sedated.

i'm currently watching miami ink for the first time in probably forever.
i have like 3 boxsets of it, and i watched the first two and totally forgot about the last one. i forgot how much i loved that too. can't wait to get my first tattoo in 7 months! i was going to get one this year if i could find anywhere decent with parental consent. there's no point in that to be honest, when i could easily wait to get it without making a fuss over it. plus it gives me more time to think of something more serious to get done, rather than something to get because i can. having a serious one with meaning appeal to me more than ones to make a fashion statement.

the derren brown things on tonight!! excited. i sound like such a TV fan, but i'm really not. if you know me, you'll understand :)

today leyla got back home. it was different having her back. it was my first actual lesson with her ever today. (last years enrichment doesn't really count)
we also share a free block with her and louise, so we all popped into shields together. i can't say it wasn't awkward to begin with!
i bought 2 energy drinks. i was so bored and i wanted to get hyper somehow. 29p each, and they weren't actually that bad! b+m bargins is a proper good shop like. although i do kind of miss the trampy market that used to be there.
when we went into wilkinsons they made a polite announcment for us to get out for drinking. it reminded of me the day i saw NOFX, and i brought a coffee in with me at primark, cause it was raining, and naturally i didn't want to stand in the rain for 8 hours. but no. no coffee is allowed in primark. bitches.

i forgot to post on here that on my twitter i informed the used i was going to see them by myself, and they replied. image has been posted. i don't know where it will appear but it's on the blog somewhere (:
butttt i may have found someone to go with who isn't someone i won't be unsure about. wheey!


and on a serious note, i just remembered the events of 8 years ago today. it makes me sad to know innocent americans lost their lives just for some heartless terrorists. for the people working in the world trade centres, it would have just been a normal day at work for them. they probably had no idea what hit them.
i remember 8 years ago i didn't understand what was going on. i turned on channel 3 ready to watch the programmes on CITV. it was a breaking news flash, even though the news seemed to be maybe a couple of hours old.
r.i.p, all the lives that were lost ):


edit: i forgot to mention!! in college today there was a TON of free postcards on the news stand thing. i took a load of them :) obviously my lucky day!!
i also found a pile of free postcards i stole from the cinema. my pile of unused postcards is over an inch tall!! i am so addicted to postcards, my god. it's not a bad thing i don't think. i would willingly send and recieve postcards every day of my life til i die. as long as i get free stamps and lovley postcards. and also as long as theres none from finland. their shops must sell very boring cards.
and the first postcard i sent on postcrossing arrived to its destination today. in america. it took 73 days! it was the first one i wrote. i sent 12 more since that one. i'm going to get 4 more adresses today (one of them is still in the post somehow, i did put enough stamps on). i'm rather excited! i have way too many postcards waiting to be sent. if you're a reader whoes willing to do a postcard swap please leave me your email or something.

sure i lost my mind, but i never really meant to die.

title = the used lyrics.
their new album is.. different so far. lyrically it's amazing though. (:
i see them next wednesday. by myself.
well, vince says he's going but i doubt he will. apparently he sold bacon to a jew once.
people i DO hope i meet is are bert, quinn, dan, and jepha again. please.
then that means i've met all of the used memebers, past and present. (don't want to forget the best and original drummer branden stieneckert!!)
but i looked at a picture of them before and i just remembered how much i used to fucking adore their music. i'm excited. it's a shame i've got no one to share this with. i will mention how it goes in a future blog though.

today was one of my most embarresing moments ever. well, i've done so many more embaressing things, but this seemed to make me feel like i've done something really stupid. i shared to the full photography class the whole robert smith being related to me thing. aaagh i don't even want to post the full thing on here! it's just something i'll remember and cringe about forever and after. it did make the teacher laugh though so i guess it's not all that bad.

thursdays at college = every subject day. for me at least.
it was fine. missed the first bus, i didn't even keep track of the time, again. i think i actually need a watch. daaaaammit.

got a postcard today. from america! it's one of my favourites too. when i registered it, i discovered that it was from a 3 year old! never expected to find anyone younger than me on postcrossing (:

don't really have much else to share. umm i had a nice little walk around wallsend after college with liv. we walked through wallsend park, since we're so raj. it brought back childhood memories. and as i was screaming them in liv's ear, there was a bunch of moody charvas in the bush. bahaha! i actually got a fright :|

oh yeah, and i forgot to mention i really enjoyed watching those derren brown programmes last night! my love for big brother has officially been replaced with derren brown programmes. thats because i've decided i'm excited to see how he guessed the lottory numbers right! friday needs to come quicker plzzz.

rightio, peace out home d0gz.

i just realized.

it's 09/09/09!

not really something important but whatever.
i just totally forgot that next week i'm seeing the used. alone.
:(
just like the last time, kind of.
oh well.
it'll be me + a ton of emos. daaamn.


okay, i'm going to carry on watching this derren brown programme.
he is such a cool weirdo. just like myself. except he can do wizardy shit.

thoughts.

in college today we were doing a thing for university. i've never been so sure about going to uni, apart from when i was too young to understand. i wanted to go straight from high school to oxford. sadly i'm not miss brainbox UK, haha.
but the new form teacher let us look up different uni's. all the ones i looked up seemed boring, and ones that did have something i liked just was for super smart. i then had an idea to look up american uni's. one of them had "at least one B in GCSE"
bahaha, i got a few B's in GCSE! i could go to a uni in america now! i thought i was reading wrong, i probably have but still. this might be something good to look forward to that hasn't got much to do with music and such.

tomorrow i have the most awkward college time table. double photography, free block, lunch, art, free block, film studies. siiiiiiigh. i'm going to be bored. i mean it would at least be better further on in the year and i can sit in the library and read over stuff. but i am surprisingly happy that i have a long day. i actually hate the builders in my house. they suggested that it would have been funny if i fell down the stairs. yeah, it'll be funny when you get spat in the face >:(

college today was fine though. went in a little later cause i have a double free block, however there's no way i can sleep with the builders outside my room, so i woke up the normal time. didn't really have much trouble getting up again. went to meet liv again. we sadly did not have a coffee/tea morning like we planned, but it shall be arranged for next time (:
i had my first actual lesson today. photography! we have a new teacher called toby. he seemed okay, but was obviously nervous. i think these photography lessons will be sweeeeter than last years ones, thats for sure. i definatly am going to try harder at the written work in that class. and i also want to try taking more pictures every opportunity i can. i feel like this is a new years resolution sort of thing for starting college again. an aim for myself. thats the word.

all day today i've had that britney spears song called on my radar or whatever it is, but shane dawsons emo bop version. me and my sister were laughing so much at it last night. we just played that part of the video over and over. not sure if i can post youtube videos on here, i might try sometime. can't be bothered to now.

my dad's calling me for my tea now, so..
TTYL BAYBIES.

8th september 2009.

hello reader(s)?

first off, happy birthday dad!!
i hope you've had a good day today, so here's another blog like you asked for. and i'll let this one be a bit more intresting too :)

today has been pretty good. it was my first day back at college, which i originally had mixed feelings about. i had no trouble getting out of bed, which i usually do about 90% of the time. i don't really understand why it was so simple, i think it may have been my excitment to give my dad his birthday presents, and to go back to college.

when i started to make my way to the metro, i put on the beatles abbey road album, since my dad let me put alot of his music on my ipod. halfway there i realise i forgot to pick up my buspass. i didn't even look at the time, which makes me feel terrible that liv was waiting for me when i think back. even after i was late meeting her not that many days before today! i blame my weird dreams for that one though.

my journey there with liv actually didn't really feel much different to any other college day, and it made me think 'why should i be worried if i've pretty much done the same before?'

before i knew it, my day at college was over. well i did have no lessons, but still we had a lenghty assembely with joelle and co. on the journey back me and liv decided to meet up for breakfast, like in those american movies that tend to be in new york. me and liv decided we both like our toast eggy bready.
with all this talking for breakfast, we also decided to have a little tea/coffee morning/afternoon like we had previously in the week. this consists of eating some form of cake, the jeremey kyle show, and most obviously tea or coffee. this time i had coffee. i think this is going to be a nice ritual from now on since we share a free block together, which makes me happy.

i also had free tickets for the movie 'julie and julia', and i went with louise. i bought a medium drink of coke, which was massive. it was quite expensive, but i always seem to enjoy a movie when i have a nice drink. when me and louise got there, it was paaaaacked, apart from a couple of rows at the front. i forgot how close we were, but it reminded me of my 9th birthday when i saw toy story 2, and i thought only cool people sat at the front. it hurt my neck.

however, back to the thoughts on the movie i ordered the tickets without even looking to see what the movie was about. considenatly the trailor came on the TV right after i ordered the tickets (i thought it was scary too). i thought 'daaaamn granny movie, great'. but watching it was totally different. yeah, it is probably aimed at older audiences, but still it's a nice story. the girl on it wrote a blog too, which is probably another reason why i'm taking it seriously. haha sad, i know.
oh, and i also found it weird that the movie had no trailors. it would have been nice with one or two, but nevermind.

thats pretty much it.
i'm quite looking forward for my first A2 photography lesson tomorrow. we have a new teacher, and i have close friends in this class too. well, maybe the friends thing isn't that good in some ways, but still at least i'll have better company and what not.
oh and i think me and liv are having a hot beverage in the morning. we're so old.

i will now leave you a quote to end my blog. maybe i'll blog tomorrow (:
goodbye!



happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. ~ Gandhi

since i haven't updated in daaaays.

my dad kept demanding for a blog, i decided to write one, fulla bull.

college on tuesday is going to be weird. mhmm.
no media + an extra free period = better work in other lessons?
i hope so.


i had a dream last night that adam sandler was my real dad. and he died.
i told you this was going to be fulla bull.

it's going to be weird without big brother on tonight. and forever (after the next one)
i don't know weither i'll be auditioning anymore. probably cause i'd obviously be the first evicted for doing a hira.

okey i'll find other stuff to post later. bubiiiii :]